The Lost Note -Chapter 1-
Title: The Lost Note
Author: HeavensWine
Length: Series - Chapter 1
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Jaeho, Yoosu
Genre: Romance, Slight angst and confusion
Summary: It’s been a tough year for the 4 members of TVXQ. They had to do everything without a leader. But what makes it harder was the feeling they kept inside. Yoochun made a mistake that affected Yunho and JaeJoong’s relationship. Will they ever regain those feelings? A misunderstanding that postponed their bond for more than a year.
Something the heart must have to cherish,
Must love and joy and sorrow learn;
Something with passion clasp or perish,
And itself to ashes burn.
< Trailer >
< Prologue >
SS501 - Because I'm Stupid
I'm thinking about you so much everyday
My heart is hurting in all these sad days
"I want to see you" is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i'm waiting for you, I love you
Chapter 1
[Third Person’s POV]
“Chunnie!!” Jae spat after opening the door of the room him and Yoochun shared. He walked in with a dumped face as he saw the younger taking a pillow to cover his ears. JaeJoong sat at the bed and hit Yoochun’s butt with a force, enough to make the younger singer look up with a frown but didn’t say anything and just lay back to continue his sleep. JaeJoong looked at him with disbelief. “Chunnie, you cannot be lazy right now. We have to be in the airport at the right time.”
Hearing the word airport, Yoochun sat up and remembered that today is the time wherein they have to see Yunho arrive and welcome him back. “Gaaah!! Hyung, why did you only wake me up now? You should have waked me up earlier.” Yoochun complained.
JaeJoong gave him a somewhat annoyed and confused look and said, “What!? Honestly, what are you dreaming about? I’ve passed by our room 6 times and I’ve opened the door 5 times just to wake you up.” JaeJoong stared at Yoochun seriously and seeing the younger member pout made him smile. “Just dress up now. Junsu and Changmin are ready and are now eating breakfast.” Yoochun nodded and with that, JaeJoong left closed the door.
Yoochun hurriedly washed and cleansed himself. After drying his body, face and hair, he quickly picked up and wore his clothes and sprayed his perfume all around himself. He was just about to leave the room when he remembered something important. Yoochun opened his personal drawer and took out a small envelope. He felt like opening and reading the letter inside it but he felt a familiar pain in his heart striking back again. He knows that he holds a big part in a what should have been a relationship of his Hyungs but he made a mistake. That mistake happened when he fell in love with Jaejoong. He knew everything. He is the key to everything but he made a mistake.
KNOCK! KNOCK! KNOCK! The door opened.
Yoochun got scared and slip the envelope hastily inside his trousers. Fuck! He thought to himself. He would never let Jaejoong see that envelope. He turned around just to see Junsu’s angelic face. He knew it was a mistake to fall for JaeJoong but it could never be a mistake to fall for someone like Junsu. Yoochun knows that Junsu is not aware of it and that is fine with him. He doesn’t want to make another mistake by telling Junsu his feelings and scaring him of, breaking the band even before Yunho arrives.
“Hey! What’s taking you so long? You don’t even have time for breakfast anymore. Well…even if you did, Changmin already ate all that is left up.” Junsu smiled and checked his watch. “Are you ready now? We can’t be late. This day is important.” Junsu leaned beside the open door and reached one hand to Yoochun.
Yoochun grabbed the nearest bag he could find, walked to the door and hold on to Junsu’s hand. He felt the warmth he always needed in Junsu’s soft hand. They went together to the dinning room to meet up with the other 2 members. As soon as Changmin saw them, he got up and walked out the main door. Yoochun and Junsu followed him but he saw JaeJoong still seated and eyes focused on a single object. He was obviously inattentive. “What the-NO DAYDREAMIN at this time!!” Changmin said obviously directing his words to the eldest.
Jaejoong heard that and he knew Changmin was referring to him. Without glancing at Changmin, JaeJoong stood up, walked out the main door and locked it. Then he walked beside ChangMin “I wasn’t daydreamin. I was sleeping.” He glared with a smile and looked away.
The younger was somehow amazed with the reasoning of the elder but finds stupidity in it at the same time. “Yeah. Like you can sleep with your eyes widely open? Or are your eyes really just that big that it still looks open even when it is really closed.” Changmin saw his hyung scratch his head but he just smiled.
Despite being the youngest, Changmin knows a lot of the things that is happening in the group. Why? Because Yunho tells him secrets and so as Yoochun. He knew what happened before Yunho left to study abroad. And Yoochun turned him into his personal diary, telling him the things he has done when there is time. He knew every twist and turns that had happened like how Yoochun fell in love with JaeJoong and suddenly realized that it is Junsu whom he loves. Changmin knows that side of Chunnie.
Their driver opened the door of the car for them. DBSK (minus one) went in one by one. Yoochun and Changmin ended up sitting together and at their back sit Jae and Junsu. They were on their way to meeting Yunho in the airport. Junsu was observing things ~as usual~.
'Changmin is sleeping again. It’s not bad to sleep inside the car especially if it’s a long trip but Changmin just really sleeps and eats too much. Too much that it sometimes makes a normal being wonder how his metabolism works.' Junsu thought to himself.
Yoochun knows how observant Junsu is but he didn’t think Junsu would be too observant to notice his feelings...to notice his love. Junsu, sometimes, had wondered if Yoochun really likes him. Since Yunho left, he noticed how frequent Yoochun looks at him, how Yoochun always assists him and how commonly Yoochun teased and hugged him. Junsu was slowly drowned to that. During night, Junsu will feel the absence of Yoochun. He would think to himself the what-ifs of Yoochun being roomed with him. Sometimes he wished he could be JaeJoong so that he would be sharing room with him.
Junsu planted his back on the sit, finding the most comfortable position he could be in. Then he focused his attention to the older boy in front of him. It stunned him that Yoochun is obviously awake. Yoochun is the sleepy head of the group. However, he wasn't sleeping at that time. He was looking at the car’s window absent mindedly. Junsu was a little curious as to why Yoochun would not take a glance of him. He usually does that but not this time. Junsu wondered why. But then, maybe it’s just because Yoochun was finding a way to feel sleepy. Junsu closed his eyes and sighed softly. He turned his head to the eldest member beside him. It also surprised him that Jaejoong was sleeping. Looks like Jae and Chunnie exchanged roles this time. Usually, Jaejoong would mess up with Junsu even with the most unlikely times. That was what Junsu reflects.
He is wrong, though. Yoochun is not just finding a way to sleep and Jae is not sleeping at all.
Yoochun is fed up with thoughts right now to be able to sleep. He was thinking of a way to give Yunho the envelope without receiving that much blame. Right now, all he wished for is that Yunho still loves Jae the way he did before he left. Because of too much thoughts and tension, he forgot that the envelop is still inside his trousers. Laughing hard but silently, he looked at Changmin to check if the youngest member is asleep. Expectedly, he is. Then he pulls the envelope out to see if it is still presentable. Well…it is. He opened the envelope inside the jacket he is wearing so that only he can see it. As he saw Jaejoong’s writing, he knew he was hurting.
Yunnie,
It’s been hard for you isn’t it? You expressed your feelings for me but I threw it away and hurt you. I have no other choice but to assume that what you said is just a jokes...to make me smile before you go.
You will be leaving tomorrow. I won’t be there to see you off…because I will be waiting for you in the place where we first met. I wanted to say my true feelings…I love you so don’t leave.
---JaeJoong
Yoochun thought that maybe if he had given the letter, Yunho would not have left. No! It’s more of like if he did not fall for JaeJoong, then maybe Yunho and Jae are happy right now. Yoochun folded the note and inserted it back in the envelope. He decided to just talk to Yunho afterwards and gives him the note without the other members noticing. He will have to give the letter to Yunho no matter what…even if Yunho might feel nothing for JAejoong anymore. And so Yoochun place the envelope back inside his trousers but this time, at the back.
On the other hand, Jaejoong’s eyes are still shut. He looks like he was really sleeping. Even Junsu was fooled. This is the time JaeJoong needed peace in his mind. He may seem calm to Junsu who knows nothing about what happened to him and Yunho but inside Jae’s minds is like a riot. He is having a headache on how he should approach Yunho. He knows clearly what he feels. He knows that he still love Yunho even if Yunho didn’t even bother going to the place where they first met and also didn’t bother hearing what he has to say. It didn’t matter to him anymore because he is expecting that everything would turn out back to normal once Yunho arrives.
Jae is still hurt. He couldn’t forget the pain of being left out by the one he loves but he decided to just let go of that pain and be back to how they were. He thought that maybe Yunho was really just kidding about what he told him before and that maybe all the crying he saw have another reason but what about what Changmin told him. Is Minnie just lying to him because he knew that Jae loves the leader? No. It couldn’t be. He can remember it all so clearly. “Hyung, I thought you love Yunnie-ah. Why’d you turn him down then? He will be leaving soon, you know.” That’s what Changmin told him. Maybe it’s true, maybe it’s not. Something is really confusing with the events. Something is missing but Jae just let it go. Jaejoong thought that it would be better to just act like he does not have any feeling to the leader and to act like everything is perfectly normal.
The car they were in stopped and they knew they were at the airport. Yoochun hurriedly open the cars door to go out but he met their manager’s shocked expression. Yoochun excuse himself and said, “Sorry hyung but I really need to go to the bathroom!” And with that, Yoochun ran to the nearest bathroom inside the private parking area. He unlocked his belt, slid down his pants together with his trouser as he sat down the toilet and released everything he has to. As soon as he is finished, he pull out the napkin provided and do the most common thing a human would do. After the cleaning was done, Yoochun stood up and thoughtlessly flushed the waste. He looked at the toilet with disbelief when he saw the envelope being flashed together with his waste. 0_o Unable to do anything but to watch the white sheet of paper being eaten by the toilet.
"Shit! JaeJoong's note. Fuck!" Yoochun can't help but rant about his mistake out loud. After realizing that there is no more chance to get the note back, Yoochun washed his hands and went back to the car with regret written all over his face.
“How am I going to pursue the thing I should’ve done years ago when I have lost the note?” Yoochun thought to himself. He really wanted the envelope back but at the same, half of him was laughing at his foolishness.
[ Scene Alteration ]
Yunho just got down the plane and is now heading to the VIP arrival room where important person are placed to avoid disturbance in the place especially now that almost half of the airport space are filled with fangirls pushing each others to see their idol. Yunho was wearing a cap, specifically Jae’s cap. The cap Jae always wear in airport. To Yunho, it was nothing. It’s not like he still likes Jae anyway. It’s a fact that Yunho loved JaeJoong soo much but Yunho knows the pain he felt when Joongie turn him down.
Yunho sat down at the nearest couch. He leaned his head to the couch and started to recall the actions that took place last year, the year he left DBSK to study abroad and fulfill his parents dream. Yes, Yunho was gone for a year. He remembered the day he proposed his feelings to JaeJoong. He mentally laughed at the thought of it. “I can’t believe I fell in love with a guy.” He scrathched the back of his neck and smiled. Then the thought of him crying to Changmin and JaeJoong not seeing him off the day he was about to leave flashed in his head. The smile he had was wiped off and was replaced by a sudden seriousness. “What will happen now?” Yunho said to himself. He prepared for this day, for this meeting with the members. And he planned for this day to be happy, with a smile. So he decided to just act normally. And he thought to himself, “If JaeJoong didn’t love me, it is alright now...” Yunho brushed his hair with his hand. He placed his elbow on the side of the couch and crossed his legs.
AN: That's all to share for now. I can't type much at this moment. I am still depressed and disappointed with YouTube. I was happily writing this fic but when I checked my YouTube account, I was suspended. T^T I feel sad. I will be making another account and reupload all my videos. To all my friends and subscribers, I hope you can subscribe again and add me as friends again. I will give the link when I've managed to create a new one. Thanks.
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