I can only take so much before it starts to kill me and he is just so good at making me sad. He doesn't even try and he breaks my heart. No matter how much I try to walk away from him or tell him that we are done and I don't want to know him anymore he still comes back and rips my heart out again. Why do guys do this to me? Why do I let it happen? ( Read more... )

I have decided that I LOVE late night phone calls. There isn't much that is better then laying in bed listenin to a sweet voice on the other end of your phone. I got one last night and it was so much fun! I don't think I've laughed so hard on the phone in only god knows how long! It was awesome. It was a great time and left me thinking after we ( Read more... )

Ok well last night I cut my hair and I hated it so much and I almost cried like a half a dozen times but Matt was so sweet and sat there and talked to me and made me feel a million times better! Thank god for him. He is so wonderful. He really is such an honest and caring person. I'm glad we are talking cause he makes me laugh my ass off everyday! ( Read more... )

No matter how much he hurt me I can't stay away from Rob. It's like he still gets to me and I am still love him. I can't help it. But he talks to me and signs my gb with things that make me doubt all the stuff that Mary said to me. I don't know what it is that drives me insane about him but I just can't pull myself away from him. Part of me doesn't ( Read more... )

After I asked him about Mary. Asked him if there was anything between them and if he had ever said anything like what he said to me to her, and he said no. But he fuckin lied. He lied to me. How can you tell someone you love them and want to spend the rest of your life with them and all this shit if you don't mean it? I have so much going through ( Read more... )

Why is it that everytime I get involved with someone they change on me? I mean I don't get it. I don't understand what I do wrong, I try and be a good girlfriend and be there and be caring. None of that ever matters. I still end up crying because I get screwed over for the way I am I don't get it at all. Is it my fault that the thought of him with ( Read more... )

Have you ever had one of those days when you just want to sit there and cry for hours? Well today has been one of those days for me. The thoughts in my head just run like crazy. All I can do is think about him and what we have and wonder if he really means what he says to me. Am I really who he wants? If I am, why do I feel like I'm not? We had an ( Read more... )

I don't understand myself at all. I mean I know what I want and I am happy but I get mad at stupid things that maybe shouldn't bother but they seem too anyways. Maybe I just tell myself I am happy because it is easier then dealing with the fact that I'm really not. I have so much I want to do with my life, I know what I want to do and where I want ( Read more... )

Ok well yesterday was a pretty good day! In LOYO (a class I am taking) we are doing this prom review thing and it is gonna be so much fun, all we did was practice for it and we are having little dance skits and stuff! Megan, Haley and I just had a blast! It was cool ( Read more... )

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