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havokfiend138

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Jun 29, 2007 03:44

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I just want to say sorry for hurting you. I am a human and I do care about people's feelings even though you think I'm just being heartless. I was just unhappy in something and I finally got the courage to get out of it.. I DID NOT do anything wrong except for of course break YOUR heart. I'm sorry but you can't expect ( Read more... )

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tj2005girl June 30 2007, 03:33:34 UTC

hi i know chris might not like what i say sometimes but oh well i still care about him too... but i total understand what you are saying here.. i wish i could get out of a sometimes bad place but i am a little too deep with a kid and marriage.. but hell maybe someday it will get better. just remeber that you gave chirs good memorys just like i did and we still care about him and he will never be alone in this world and neither will you... if yo uwould like to talk sometime you can call me at 7202202144... same with you chris it is on all the time.. and if no answer i will call you back just leave me a message

havokfiend138 June 30 2007, 18:39:40 UTC

Thanks, I was wondering If you were the one that had to go through what I am...I'm glad there are some people who don't think I'm a horrible person.

tj2005girl July 1 2007, 00:02:20 UTC

not with chris so much he wasn't too bad... but right now.. i am going through worrying about matt like you are chris... matt is in the physco word and i can't even talk to him or anything till he is talked to... i know how hard it is to watch someone suffer you love and care about... its hurts soo bad sometimes that you can't sleep or eat and everything hurts and you seem to go into the depression with them.. i have to be strong because i have jay.. but chris needs help just like matt does and hopefully with gods will and our love and caringthey will make it

ilovezack______ June 30 2007, 05:20:15 UTC

for what it's worth, i don't think you're a horrible person at all.

havokfiend138 June 30 2007, 18:40:02 UTC

Thanks...It means a lot.

cky2chris June 30 2007, 17:42:06 UTC

You're dating a good friend? fuck him. I honestly hope something fucking horrible happens to him. I hope he has to fucking suffer.

I've been locked up in a goddamn hospital the past two nights....I'd like to fucking talk to you but im sure you wont answer...whatever. I love you and still do..more that that fucking prick dalton will ever know.

havokfiend138 June 30 2007, 18:34:23 UTC

You know what.. I've been on the phone trying to help you! I've tried giving you advice and showing you that I'm still here for you and it's not good enough for you.. I've been trying to call and no answer.. I was worried about you Chris. Finally Janessa called and your mom answered and she said she wouldn't give any messages from Missouri cause you know, apparently I'm a bad person for doing something I had to do for myself for once. Chris, you've got to help yourself before anyone can help you and YOU aren't willing to do that.. I'm sorry you had to be put in a hospital but you should have thought of YOUR own damn actions before getting put there.. Go ahead and have everyone blame this shit on me, but people have to do shit for themselves if they are unhappy.. Maybe everyone else is hearing the wrong side of the story? I've sat there every day and tried calling you and you just always freak out on me and once again take at least having me still wanting to be your friend for granted...You need to take that first step in trying to ( ... )

cky2chris June 30 2007, 18:59:06 UTC

You need to call me. I refuse to do this shit over the computer. And dont call my cell right now because i dont have it. Call my house

cky2chris June 30 2007, 19:04:00 UTC

oh and by the way..if you're cutting ties with me or whatever, than do it. Dont fucking call my friends, and dont ever show your fucking face anywhere near indiana again.

It hurts a FUCKING lot to say that, but this is what you fucking want. You cant have your cake and eat it too. It hurts way to much to have you in my life while you're dating some cocksucking little faggot who doesnt deserve you.

You want to be with dalton? fine. Than forget indiana exists....as i said. Call me. I refuse to play LJ tag with anyone.

_trashy June 30 2007, 18:16:40 UTC

You need to cut ties with each other. Period.

havokfiend138 June 30 2007, 18:36:46 UTC

P.S... We are both adults so you really need to start acting like one Chris.. You aren't winning me over in any way by acting like this.. You say it's hard not to act like that when you know we won't be together.. Well, you need to just try to go forward.. Don't dwell on what is the past now.. Everyone is right behind you... I still am no matter what you think. You'll make it through this.