ugh. That's kind of similar to what happened to me with my former friend, except that I repeatedly told him, 'Please, don't laugh at me when I'm upset like my being sad is some bit I'm doing to entertain you.' And I kept forgiving him anyway cuz I cared about him and I didn't want to lose his friendship (and no matter how I tried to explain, I doubt he even understands what happened, in the end).
Hugs. I hope your brain lightens up the torture sooner rather than later. I admire everything you're doing so much.
I followed that instance, and to be honest, I would have kicked him out of my life after the first two times, but then, I view the saying, "Friends are the family you can choose," in a different way from most people. Yes, I can choose them. And because I can, I can choose NOT to as often as I choose to.
*hugs back* I hope you're doing okay also. I admit that I'm a huge coward. Your posts are often painful to read and it's hard to deal with your pain when I'm struggling with mine. I'll try to do better in the future.
Aw, thanks. I'm sorry if I bring you, or anyone, down. I often just write what I'm feeling in the moment, and when I go back and reread the post a few days later, I think, Oh my god, I'm such a bummer. And then I do that thing where I get down on myself for making a fuss about my problems when there are people out there starving, etc.
Anyway, you're still inspiring. You've done so much I wish I could do, and you don't always have the support of your family but you still follow your dreams. You have immense inner strength.
It's hard to feel positive when few things in your life are going right. You shouldn't feel like you need to censor yourself just because what you write may depress other people. It's about you, not us, and you certainly shouldn't cater to us, on your own journal. Just know that I do read your entries, and I think of you often. I miss our days together back at UMich with Micah and everybody else. Those were the best.
I think actions matter more than intentions, so if you are acting like a decent person, you are one. I mean who cares whether or not someone is "really decent" if they are acting like a jerk?
Anyway, :( I hope you manage to hang in thee. Is there anything you can do over the break to recharge a bit before school starts again and you have to deal with stupid people in your program? (They're pretty lucky if they can only interpret what you said as a joke.)
I am constantly surprised by the classmates in my program. A lot of them have such low English levels I can't help but wonder how they got in. TESOL is one of the bigger programs in our Education department though. I suspect it's the money maker.
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Hugs. I hope your brain lightens up the torture sooner rather than later. I admire everything you're doing so much.
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*hugs back* I hope you're doing okay also. I admit that I'm a huge coward. Your posts are often painful to read and it's hard to deal with your pain when I'm struggling with mine. I'll try to do better in the future.
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Anyway, you're still inspiring. You've done so much I wish I could do, and you don't always have the support of your family but you still follow your dreams. You have immense inner strength.
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Anyway, :( I hope you manage to hang in thee. Is there anything you can do over the break to recharge a bit before school starts again and you have to deal with stupid people in your program? (They're pretty lucky if they can only interpret what you said as a joke.)
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