Salvation
Title: Salvation
Author: haru_haru_21
Genre: Angst, Psycological
Raiting: Mature
Summary: There it was. The shiny, metal blade that looked so inviting. The man smiled weakly and let out a bitter chuckle. He clumsily picked it up and held it close.
Disclaimer: Big Bang belongs to YG Entertainment
A/N: Hey everyone! I'm back with my latest one shot. This will be a preview of the next series I will be attempting on. It explores some of the concepts that you will be seeing as well as a long desire to write something dark. I have to say, this is my first legit angst fic, but it is certainly not the last. A special thanks to my imouto-chan rin_no_himitsu for being my beta, onee-sama loves you ^^
I hope you enjoy this, and I will be looking forward to reading your thoughts =^^=V
Salvation:
The man woke up to a cold sweat as his chest rose up and down in an irregular pattern. The tips of his golden strands were soaked in sweat as they stuck to the side of his face. Outside, the pitter-patter of the rain hit hard against the slight stained windows whilst the thunder roared threateningly. He flung his blanket in the other direction as he scrambled to get to the other side of the bed. Rummaging through the bedside stand’s drawer, he looked for that object that would ease all his worries.
Tears formed at the corner of his eyes as the clear liquid flowed down his cheeks and through his sweat- soaked shirt. There it was. The shiny, metal blade that looked so inviting. The man smiled weakly and let out a bitter chuckle. He clumsily picked it up and held it close.
This was what he existed for.
He was a sinful man that deserved to be punished. It was his tool; his punishment.
It was just over five years ago that they had met. He could easily say it was destiny.
The man placed the object against his cool wrist and shivered at the ghostly touch. Pressing harder, he closed his eyes and drank in the mesmerizing pain. Dots danced before his eyes as the thick red liquid trickled down the side of his arm.
The familiar sting made his heart race. And yet, at the same time, it calmed him down. I deserve this. This is what I need to do.
He threw his head back, bowing down to the power he had over the sleek metal edge. It was perfect.
There was a soft shuffling of feet coming from outside his bedroom. The man looked up, panicked. Through the vivid darkness, he spotted him coming in, swiftly closing the door behind him.
“Ji Yong...” he gently called out before making his way towards the light haired man and pulling him into his lap. The other choked out a sob against his embrace and stiffened when he felt a pair of firm lips on his neck. Suddenly dropping the object in his hand, he hugged the new presence.
“What have you been doing...?” he asked as he kissed the bloody wrist. Slowly and tantalizingly, he licked the warm surface clean. The taller man looked up at the other sitting in his lap. He removed the blonde strands away from his light brown eyes and tenderly caressing the smooth skin beneath. Kissing his wrist once more, he trailed them up to his captive’s face. The man captured his lips in a dominating kiss and rested his palm on the latter’s face, the other hand snaking around his waist.
The light haired man could taste his blood through the hot cavern and the tongue that slid in not too long after. But this was deceit. It was just a trick to fool him. Fool him into thinking that it was okay to be loved.
He could only depend on the metal blade that cut him every day.
He didn’t deserve this.
This was all just a facade of emotions that he could never take in.
With a burst of strength, he pushed the larger man away and scrambled to pick up his salvation once more.