things are going well, relatively. If you know me, then actually you knew me, because i've changed way too much to bear the old familiar appellation "ivan." it's very foreign to me that whole identity. i think it was based on a need to give meaning to life. enough ( Read more... )

please disregard the last blog entry. i don't know what came over me. speaking of which, it's hard to pinpoint the source of any of my actions. whenever i break it down to the basic desires, there's still this shadow of something i can't bring to light. too vague? i know! that's exactly how it is. whenever i get faded the world moves in overlapping ( Read more... )

First off, i'm back at OU this semester, whew! ...and after having his spirit crushed this summer, Ivacito returns in full form to Norman in the new house with RickyD (Classen & Lindsey past the Conoco). There will be lots of music (The New Trio), lots of friendly intellectual gatherings (turning 21: party hard!) and yes lots and lots of sex ( Read more... )

our existence is strange no? out of a universe with indifferent solids, liquids, and gases has arisen something called consciousness and thought. does this exist randomly in space? i dunno but it's freakin me out right now; i'm seeking affirmation, but the closest i can come to the truth is an intesity of feelings ( Read more... )

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it's true... has it ever been on beat?
also, we have a little recording studio up here in walker, so if you're into kinky audio mixes come on up and we'll do it right.
AND WHAT HAPPENED with mc chris??? pathetic...
vanilla soy and chilly reds in 5
fuck!

so i'm going into my room after having the brilliant idea of taking a picture with me and my dad (whom i've never really met) and my grandpa together in the den. when i go into the room i think i see a bunny dart across and everything is desheveled, desk is pushed away from the wall, clothes strewn about like a kid's fortress, blinds down, things ( Read more... )

it's night-time and i'm alone, so i can say this: the existential puddles outside the window are ultra-lame. they just try too hard like the time i saw a cute girl on a longboard, thinking "that's cool" after which she passes me and i hear this crashy crash and turn around to see her embarrassed, pick up her toy and start walking. i wish she'd kept ( Read more... )

first off. May 6th, 2005 in the year of our lord eh-hem, The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy!!!

AND I SAY, to all you "Lord of the Rings" and "Harry Potter" fans collectively, "piss off" i mean no, that came out wrong... "do you know where your towel is?" ;)


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