[Takki x Tsubasa] Falling Into Deeper Silence
Title: Falling Into Deeper Silence
Pairing: Takki x Tsubasa
Genre: Angst, Fluff
Summary: Confrontation with Tsubasa after he left the hospital, it's not easy persuading his lover since he is really insecure then.
Disclaimer: Characters still not not mine. ^^
A/N: Sadly, it's the end. Sankyu for reading! ^^
-- ` --
“Tsubasa.” He managed to voice out after the awkward moment of silence, he didn’t know why but he couldn’t find the right words to say, so he remained rooted to his space, looking at his lover, hoping for him to understand.
But of course, Tsubasa would not take things as lightly, in fact no explanation would make him feel better, for his insecurities had increased for the worst.
Takki, you promised. You lied to me, you promised.
He was too hurt right now to think of anything, any words to say to the man standing in front of him. It seems really weird but for once he had nothing to say to him.
“Tsubasa, say something please.”
Looking up, Tsubasa stared at the figure, the hurt evident in his eyes as he walked past, completely ignoring the existence of another late this night.
“Tsubasa!” he immediately grabbed the latter’s arm, caught off guard.
Struggling, “Let go of me! Let go!”
“I’m not letting go! Not until you’ve listened to what I have to say!” Takki emphasized his point by slightly tightening the grip.
“What do you want? Haven’t you done enough damage already? I said let go!” Tsubasa stubbornly shouted, pulling hard to be released from the tight hold.
Takki fell into immediate silence, badly affected by his words, “Don’t you want to hear my explanations? Is it okay just like this?”
“I rather not listen to them.” Tsubasa replied coldly, as he forced himself not to cry, glancing at his arm.
“I understand.” Takki let go of his hold almost immediately, looking at the retreating back of his lover.
Are they still lovers?
He didn’t know. Why couldn’t Tsubasa trust him, as much as he would? How could he let go of their hold this easy.
I don’t want to lose you, Tsuba-chan.
Not wanting to lose this chance, he shouted at the figure, “Tsubasa! Does the past few days meant nothing to you? Why can’t you listen to my explanation? Is it okay to just walk away like that? Tsubasa, say something! Is our love so easy to just let it go like that?!”
Tsubasa stopped midway, as he began covering his ears with his fingers furiously, tears threatening to fall.
“I don’t want to hear. Don’t want to, stop it please. I don’t want to hear.”
Takki watched in worry as he noticed him shaking, not wasting any moment, he ran to him, pulling him into an embrace.
“Tsubasa, I’m not giving you up, our love is not that easy to be broken. God, I’m really sorry for leaving you like that! I do have a valid explanation for that! But Tsubasa, please trust me this once?”
Sniffing, those words really got to him, he still had not fully recovered and all that running tired him so much. Leaning against Takki weakly, he placed all his weight to the said figure.
“Tsubasa, are you okay?” he asked, feeling the sudden weight on him, letting go of his hold to look at Tsubasa in the eye, only to-
“Tsubasa!” he managed to grab him before the latter could collapse to the sandy surface.
“You’re really not okay. I’ll carry you.” He offered, only to get a disbelieving look from Tsubasa himself.
"..."
“What? You may be taller but I’m stronger. Besides, I parked my car nearby.” Takki simply said, before lifting his lover up, carrying him, gazing lovingly at him.
“Takki-” looking at him, still teary eyed.
“Hmm?”
“Gomen. I should have waited longer, I was just too afraid that you left me for good. I’m so scared of losing you. That is why-” he stopped, his emotions took control of him recently.
“I understand. We will talk about this later, okay? Right now, let’s go home.”
“Hm.”
Wrapping his arms around Takki’s shoulders, he felt himself drip to darkness.
-- ` --
“Tsubasa, we’re here.” He turned to face Tsubasa, his eyes still kept shut though he made several nudges.
You’re sleeping like an angel.
Takki smiled, as he got out of the car, went to the other side, unfastening his lover’s seatbelt before gently carrying him, closing the door with his back.
“We’re home, Tsubasa.”
-- ` --
Fluttering his eyes opened, Tsubasa looked at the familiar surroundings.
“How did I get here?” he murmured sleepily, yawning.
Turning, he noticed the empty space on the bed, Takki was not there with him but somehow he felt his warmth.
Sighing, he forced himself to stay awake.
Takki must have left. What time is it anyway?
“Hmm, only 8a.m.” putting the clock aside, he hit his head back to the comfort of the pillow.
.
.
“Still feeling sleepy?”
Turning to face the direction of that voice, Tsubasa just stared at said figure with half-opened eyes.
“Aww, look at you! You slept like a log yesterday! Yet you still can’t open your eyes.”
“It was- your fault. And I still want to sleep. Bye.” He whispered in a sleepy state, covering his face with the pillow.
“Come on, Tsuba! Wake up, please! If you don’t, I’ll leave!” Takki stopped, realizing what he just said.
He hoped Tsubasa didn’t take his words differently though he knew his lover would since he had been so insecure for the past few days.
“Tsubasa, I didn’t mean it that way.”
Seeing that Tsubasa made no effort to respond, he curled up beside his lover, lovingly touching his waist “I’m sorry. But you know I’d do anything to be with you.”
“I wanted so much to trust you. But sometimes, I’m really afraid of losing you. What if one day, you’ll come up to me and say that you don’t love me anymore? I- I don’t think I can take that blow.” Tsubasa whispered, turning to face his lover.
“That day won’t come, I assure you. I will always love you, sweetheart. I know it’s hard to ask you of this but even if you couldn’t trust me, could you trust our love? That is all I’m asking of you.” Takki gazed lovingly at his lover, gently touching his face, his eyes pleaded for him to understand.
“What if- it does happen? What will I do then?”
“Then you could hit me hard on the head, or anywhere else, it doesn’t matter. I’m all yours.”
“You said it!” he said, giggling.
“Hmm. Now let’s go to sleep.” Takki murmured, snuggling closer to his cheery beloved.
“Yada! I’m not sleepy anymore! Takki!”
-- ` --
“So that was what happened. I’m sorry for acting rashly last night. To think you would forget something that important. If you called, I wouldn’t have acted that way yesterday.” Tsubasa pouted.
“I’m really sorry, dear. You can punish me if that would make you feel better!”
“Punish you? Anything?” he smirked.
“Yes, anything you want!”
“Then can you stay here with me for a week? I need you close to me. One week is enough, I think.” Tsubasa pleaded, giving him a cute look.
“I’ll stay for as long as you want!” he exclaimed, pulling the latter into a hug.
Tsubasa smiled that of happiness.
-- ` --
Hearing the doorbell, knowing that it was his Takki, he made a dash to the door, opening it immediately without any hesitation.
“Takki!”
Stunned, he looked at all the items on the floor, most of them were large traveling bags. His gaze turned to his lover who was smiling widely, giving him looks as if he was ready to attack him.
“Hmm, what is all these stuff doing here?” he asked nervously.
“I’m moving in.”
“O-okay. You should have told me first. This is just so sudden.” Tsubasa muttered.
Takki closed the gap between them, leaning in closer and closer, till his lips neared that of Tsubasa’s, “Why is it sudden? Hmm?”
“Hmm-”
“I told you I’d stay with you for as long as you want. Moving in just makes everything easier, right?” he smirked, giving Tsubasa a quick kiss on the lips.
Touching his lips, Tsubasa watched Takki’s retreating back entering his house- no their house now.
I’m happy.
Tsubasa smiled, helping his lover with some of his things as well, entering their home with a new feeling - an overwhelming happiness.
-- ` --
A/N: I hate sad endings! That is why I never write sad endings for any of my fics, if you noticed. Now that my responsibility of finishing this fic is done, I'm gonna concentrate on writing other fics! Sankyu for following this story from the beginning till the end. Love all the loyal readers! ^-^ Look out for more fics by me soon!
Pairing: Takki x Tsubasa
Genre: Angst, Fluff
Summary: Confrontation with Tsubasa after he left the hospital, it's not easy persuading his lover since he is really insecure then.
Disclaimer: Characters still not not mine. ^^
A/N: Sadly, it's the end. Sankyu for reading! ^^
-- ` --
“Tsubasa.” He managed to voice out after the awkward moment of silence, he didn’t know why but he couldn’t find the right words to say, so he remained rooted to his space, looking at his lover, hoping for him to understand.
But of course, Tsubasa would not take things as lightly, in fact no explanation would make him feel better, for his insecurities had increased for the worst.
Takki, you promised. You lied to me, you promised.
He was too hurt right now to think of anything, any words to say to the man standing in front of him. It seems really weird but for once he had nothing to say to him.
“Tsubasa, say something please.”
Looking up, Tsubasa stared at the figure, the hurt evident in his eyes as he walked past, completely ignoring the existence of another late this night.
“Tsubasa!” he immediately grabbed the latter’s arm, caught off guard.
Struggling, “Let go of me! Let go!”
“I’m not letting go! Not until you’ve listened to what I have to say!” Takki emphasized his point by slightly tightening the grip.
“What do you want? Haven’t you done enough damage already? I said let go!” Tsubasa stubbornly shouted, pulling hard to be released from the tight hold.
Takki fell into immediate silence, badly affected by his words, “Don’t you want to hear my explanations? Is it okay just like this?”
“I rather not listen to them.” Tsubasa replied coldly, as he forced himself not to cry, glancing at his arm.
“I understand.” Takki let go of his hold almost immediately, looking at the retreating back of his lover.
Are they still lovers?
He didn’t know. Why couldn’t Tsubasa trust him, as much as he would? How could he let go of their hold this easy.
I don’t want to lose you, Tsuba-chan.
Not wanting to lose this chance, he shouted at the figure, “Tsubasa! Does the past few days meant nothing to you? Why can’t you listen to my explanation? Is it okay to just walk away like that? Tsubasa, say something! Is our love so easy to just let it go like that?!”
Tsubasa stopped midway, as he began covering his ears with his fingers furiously, tears threatening to fall.
“I don’t want to hear. Don’t want to, stop it please. I don’t want to hear.”
Takki watched in worry as he noticed him shaking, not wasting any moment, he ran to him, pulling him into an embrace.
“Tsubasa, I’m not giving you up, our love is not that easy to be broken. God, I’m really sorry for leaving you like that! I do have a valid explanation for that! But Tsubasa, please trust me this once?”
Sniffing, those words really got to him, he still had not fully recovered and all that running tired him so much. Leaning against Takki weakly, he placed all his weight to the said figure.
“Tsubasa, are you okay?” he asked, feeling the sudden weight on him, letting go of his hold to look at Tsubasa in the eye, only to-
“Tsubasa!” he managed to grab him before the latter could collapse to the sandy surface.
“You’re really not okay. I’ll carry you.” He offered, only to get a disbelieving look from Tsubasa himself.
"..."
“What? You may be taller but I’m stronger. Besides, I parked my car nearby.” Takki simply said, before lifting his lover up, carrying him, gazing lovingly at him.
“Takki-” looking at him, still teary eyed.
“Hmm?”
“Gomen. I should have waited longer, I was just too afraid that you left me for good. I’m so scared of losing you. That is why-” he stopped, his emotions took control of him recently.
“I understand. We will talk about this later, okay? Right now, let’s go home.”
“Hm.”
Wrapping his arms around Takki’s shoulders, he felt himself drip to darkness.
-- ` --
“Tsubasa, we’re here.” He turned to face Tsubasa, his eyes still kept shut though he made several nudges.
You’re sleeping like an angel.
Takki smiled, as he got out of the car, went to the other side, unfastening his lover’s seatbelt before gently carrying him, closing the door with his back.
“We’re home, Tsubasa.”
-- ` --
Fluttering his eyes opened, Tsubasa looked at the familiar surroundings.
“How did I get here?” he murmured sleepily, yawning.
Turning, he noticed the empty space on the bed, Takki was not there with him but somehow he felt his warmth.
Sighing, he forced himself to stay awake.
Takki must have left. What time is it anyway?
“Hmm, only 8a.m.” putting the clock aside, he hit his head back to the comfort of the pillow.
.
.
“Still feeling sleepy?”
Turning to face the direction of that voice, Tsubasa just stared at said figure with half-opened eyes.
“Aww, look at you! You slept like a log yesterday! Yet you still can’t open your eyes.”
“It was- your fault. And I still want to sleep. Bye.” He whispered in a sleepy state, covering his face with the pillow.
“Come on, Tsuba! Wake up, please! If you don’t, I’ll leave!” Takki stopped, realizing what he just said.
He hoped Tsubasa didn’t take his words differently though he knew his lover would since he had been so insecure for the past few days.
“Tsubasa, I didn’t mean it that way.”
Seeing that Tsubasa made no effort to respond, he curled up beside his lover, lovingly touching his waist “I’m sorry. But you know I’d do anything to be with you.”
“I wanted so much to trust you. But sometimes, I’m really afraid of losing you. What if one day, you’ll come up to me and say that you don’t love me anymore? I- I don’t think I can take that blow.” Tsubasa whispered, turning to face his lover.
“That day won’t come, I assure you. I will always love you, sweetheart. I know it’s hard to ask you of this but even if you couldn’t trust me, could you trust our love? That is all I’m asking of you.” Takki gazed lovingly at his lover, gently touching his face, his eyes pleaded for him to understand.
“What if- it does happen? What will I do then?”
“Then you could hit me hard on the head, or anywhere else, it doesn’t matter. I’m all yours.”
“You said it!” he said, giggling.
“Hmm. Now let’s go to sleep.” Takki murmured, snuggling closer to his cheery beloved.
“Yada! I’m not sleepy anymore! Takki!”
-- ` --
“So that was what happened. I’m sorry for acting rashly last night. To think you would forget something that important. If you called, I wouldn’t have acted that way yesterday.” Tsubasa pouted.
“I’m really sorry, dear. You can punish me if that would make you feel better!”
“Punish you? Anything?” he smirked.
“Yes, anything you want!”
“Then can you stay here with me for a week? I need you close to me. One week is enough, I think.” Tsubasa pleaded, giving him a cute look.
“I’ll stay for as long as you want!” he exclaimed, pulling the latter into a hug.
Tsubasa smiled that of happiness.
-- ` --
Hearing the doorbell, knowing that it was his Takki, he made a dash to the door, opening it immediately without any hesitation.
“Takki!”
Stunned, he looked at all the items on the floor, most of them were large traveling bags. His gaze turned to his lover who was smiling widely, giving him looks as if he was ready to attack him.
“Hmm, what is all these stuff doing here?” he asked nervously.
“I’m moving in.”
“O-okay. You should have told me first. This is just so sudden.” Tsubasa muttered.
Takki closed the gap between them, leaning in closer and closer, till his lips neared that of Tsubasa’s, “Why is it sudden? Hmm?”
“Hmm-”
“I told you I’d stay with you for as long as you want. Moving in just makes everything easier, right?” he smirked, giving Tsubasa a quick kiss on the lips.
Touching his lips, Tsubasa watched Takki’s retreating back entering his house- no their house now.
I’m happy.
Tsubasa smiled, helping his lover with some of his things as well, entering their home with a new feeling - an overwhelming happiness.
-- ` --
A/N: I hate sad endings! That is why I never write sad endings for any of my fics, if you noticed. Now that my responsibility of finishing this fic is done, I'm gonna concentrate on writing other fics! Sankyu for following this story from the beginning till the end. Love all the loyal readers! ^-^ Look out for more fics by me soon!