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[halfundressed]

my counselor asked me, michelle, what are you motivated about? what are you enthusiastic about? because it sure isn't school, according to your grades. what are you interested in? and i didn't have an answer. i didn't have an answer and it scared me. it was such a simple question but caught me completely off guard. i told him how i don't think i

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[automobiles]

i feel like we are going through similiar things

[lixa]

oh michelle. we are too much alike for our own good.

[ohwhy]

it scary how we are in the same situation.

i figured out though that i have a fear of failure. and it's werid because i fail. like you said there's always an excuse to failing. Whether I say i don't put in effort, motivation, drive, interest. and in my head that's different that the failure of putting forth effort and still failing because i feel DESTINED to it.

i don't know if this made sense. i'm tired.

[ohwhy]

*and it's in my head that there are two different failures, ones where you don't try, and the others when you try and you still fail. i'm scared of the second one so i put myself through failing the first way.

eh.

[greatlakes]

not knowing exactly what you want to do can actually be a good thing a lot of the time. since you have no exact plans of what you want to do, you can be open to all these different possibilities. you can discover things you never thought you'd consider. i think sometimes people who know exactly what they want miss out on a lot of opportunities.

anyway, i have no idea what i want to do with my life. i'm taking it one year at a time. i truly believe that if you live you life with good intentions, good things can come to you. you just have to be willing to recognize them when they come.