this all may have been my fault, but i'm not going to let it hurt me anymore. i mean what did you think would happen?

there are only two people who know the truth about what i did last night, and only one would understand. and she did. i didn't tell anna, it would have freaked her out.

i like where i'm living, i'm learning to like my view.yes, i ( Read more... )

hellllooooo extasy.

basically, right now i'm all big smiles.

BIG SMILES.

picture update on sunday probably when i'm actually home.

basically my life fucking rules ( Read more... )

i think that i'm about to give up.
i'm done with the bullshit.
a week of ups and downs.
but it's over now and i shouldn't bog myself down with it.

i bought atmospheres (kind of)new cd. i'll give it a nine.
i got my dollar stor job back too, so im working that during the day and kaizen at night. goodbye social life.

"look at me, look me in ( Read more... )

maybe i'm breaking, or maybe i'm doing what my heart is telling me to do.

but, john, i want to see you. or at least talk to you. i miss you and it hurts like i never thought it would. if you dont want to, that's fine. but here is my effort. you know how to find me.

SORry i hate double posting soo heres good news.


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i finally got a letter from nick, and what do i do? cry hysterically. like a fucking baby. i don't even know why i'm crying but i still am. i'm a baby. i miss him so much and i still can't write back to him. i'm so glad that i heard from him, i know that he is safe and barely happy, but thinking of me as often as i am of him ( Read more... )

sooo the last 72 hours have been fucked up.

between marriage proposals and shots of tequila i think i learned everything i will ever need to know about life, in two days.

i just want a fucking letter.

maui waui.

it didnt hurt until this moment, right now ( Read more... )

the one conclusion that i've come to is that i'm completely out of my mindalllrighty. first off, i am SO excited to be home. i'm broke as fuck but i have all this food and air conditioning. and i have my bathroom which is SO NICE and i don't have to share it with three people, because there are like five in the house. hoooray! my parents shed my ( Read more... )