And things are just not looking up

[gysecune]

Giving Buddy pills is a lot like what I imagine performing an exorcism on a cat would be like, minus the whole thing with the crosses and the holy water. The chanting is still there, but I guess mine is more of a pleading. I'm wearing some of my mom's Victoria's Secret Pink clothes (and man, it feels weird wearing clothes that are not your own)

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[distorted_r]

What's wrong with Buddy exactly(just worms?)? If is something that he can recover from then you are not being cruel; you're being a good pet owner IMO.

...besides I know someone who is doing chemo(or was it radiation?) therapy for their dog...

[gysecune]

Thank you for saying that. It's tough to know when to draw a line because it's not like they can tell us in words. In the end, I think it comes down to their quality of life. I always told myself if it came down to a treatment that would make life unbearable for Buddy anyway and had a possibility of not succeeding, I would decide to call it quits

[xelias]

Hey, if you wanna talk or anything, you can totally throw me a PM or something. Katie can tell you I've been where you are now in the last couple years, and I know how hard it is. Take care, Sierra. ♥

[gysecune]

Thank you.

[elendraug]

Is your phone number still the same? I've been trying to call you about all this...

[gysecune]

Yep, and now I have my very own voicemail message that is not my dad's voice. Things have been kind of crazy over here, sorry. Or when it's not, I've been in bed with Buddy feeling like crap and wanting to avoid the impending issue, which is not in the spirit of Buddy's epic badassery but he does appreciate the snuggles. Thank you for everything - I've said this before, but I feel like you get it, how much he means to me and how losing him is like losing a person.

What I've been doing is focusing on what I'm going to do today, and now today is here and I'm still not sure what the hell is going to happen. I'm going to talk to the vet who I trust very much and ask her plenty of questions before Buddy's appointment. I guess what I didn't think about (until yesterday) is what's going to happen after today and what it's going to be like to probably come home to a house without him.

[elendraug]

It's not "like" losing a person, it is, as far as I'm concerned. He's a beloved member of your family that you've known since you were little, and he's your closest friend. Anyone who would brush off what he means to you is unbelievably ignorant.

I guess the main concern is whether using a feeding tube would allow him to regain his strength and return to enjoying a fairly normal life with you, or whether it would just cause further pain and discomfort. It sounds like your vet is wonderful; I hope she's able to help you make this difficult decision.

To be honest, I can't even bring myself to think about what it'll be like when my pets die. I had trouble even typing that sentence, because I just don't ever allow myself to dwell on it. You are brave, Sierra, and you are strong, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Give him a kiss on the nose and lots of pettings from me. I'm always here if you need to talk. I will drop anything and everything I am doing, I promise. ♥