Sharehouse Love [11/13]
Two shattered hearts and a journey back home...
Aiba sat in the train for a long time, going from one end to another, until he decided to get off at his hometown. He walked down the road he knew so well but haven’t seen for so long. He hesitated when he arrived in front of his parent’s house, but when the sun started to set, he rang the doorbell.
“Masaki!” his mother opened the door and yelled in mix of surprise and happiness.
Aiba stunned by his mother’s warm welcome. He thought she would be as cold as ice and rejected him right away. He remembered the day he left this house to join his best friends’ plan of pursuing their dreams, his parents were against the plan but Aiba ignored them. He remembered clearly the disappointed look in her mother’s face as he told her that he was in love with one of his male best friend, so there’s no way he could miss the chance of living with that particular person; Ohno Satoshi.
He expected a slap in the face, but his mother hugged him with compassion instead. She dragged him inside and busied herself in the kitchen right away.
“You haven’t eat dinner yet, have you? Let me prepare some food for you,” she fixed quick dinner and served it to the silent Aiba. She sat and observed her son, “You lost some weight, eh? You have to take a good care of yourself more, young man! Now, eat!”
Aiba stared at his mother unbelievingly, “Mom, don’t you mad at me?”
His mother softened his eyes and stroked Aiba’s cheek, “You are my son, how can I mad at you? Beside, we believe that the path you have chosen is the best for you. We just….. shocked that time.”
Aiba felt his mother’s warmness surged into his heart. He hugged the pretty woman and kissed her.
“How’s Ohno kun? You can bring him here if you want. You can’t marry him but we can give you two our blessings, you know.”
Aiba’s heart felt like punched. The burnt feeling in his chest came back again. He released his mother and looked to the floor, “We never been together. He’s with Nino. Ninomiya Kazunari. You remember him, right? They are together since the first month we live together, and I haven’t even tell Ohno about my feeling. But I’m fine with that actually. They are happy and I’m happy to see them happy.”
“Ah, I’m sorry.. Yes, I remember Nino. He’s the small boy with grumpy face, right? Oh dear, it must be hard living with them then. But don’t worry, you will find a new man in no time,” his mother tried to comfort him.
“I’ve found one,” Aiba said to his mother. The hole in his chest became larger and larger, “a girl.”
His mother’s eyes caught Aiba’s sad expression. She understood that there were something wrong about this supposedly happy news, “And? What happened?”
Aiba couldn’t hold it anymore and he cried in his mother’s hug, “Last week I saw her slept with Nino.” His heart was punctured with sadness.
His mother stroked Aiba’s back to calm him down. She let his son spilled every single details between his crying. She let him cry, she let him sad. She didn’t ask a single question, she understood that her son was in a great pain. After Aiba calmed down, she escorted him to his room to take some rest. She decided to not mention the subject again.
*******
Day 41 - Sunday - 13 days after the tragedy
Ohno held his fishing rod firmly while spacing out. The soft wave and the smell of the ocean calmed him down, so he followed Meguro to the sea every day since Aiba left him alone. Meguro was the fisherman he always followed every once in a while and also his landlord now.
“Oi!” Meguro snatched the fishing rod from Ohno and reeled it in skillfully. He caught a big fish and handed it to Ohno. “Don’t space out, young man! The fish is about to break itself free!”
“Ah, I’m sorry, Meguro san. Thanks for helping me.”
Meguro observed Ohno’s face. He finally asked the question he’s been saving for days, “What’s wrong, Ohno san? You seemed troubled these days. Some problem in your home? It’s rare to have you stay here for such a long time.”
“Well.. I don’t think I have a thing called ‘home’ now,” Ohno answered with his blank eyes fixated to the sea. He could taste the bitterness of his own words.
Meguro stared at Ohno for a few moment, “So.. it’s really a problem in your home after all. Problem with your lover? Or with the others?”
Ohno thought for a while, he has no problem with the others, just with Nino. And you. “With Nino, my lover. My ex-lover, maybe.”
“I see. Do the others know that you’re here?”
Ohno shook his head.
“You better tell them, Ohno san. I don’t know what’s happening, but from the story you told me before I understand that you and your friends are closer than family, and I bet they are worried to death if you don’t tell them. If you have a problem with Ninomiya san and not with them, it’s unfair to let them suffer too. Just a simple text message will do.”
Ohno sunk into deep thoughts. Part of himself admitted that it’s unfair to let Sho and Jun worried, but he was sure that Sho and Jun will persuade him to come home. And maybe they will persuade him to forgive Nino and you too.
Meguro’s voice snapped him back to reality, “We’re going back now. As soon as you’re back to the apartment, you have to send them a message or call them. Or I’ll kick you out from the apartment.”
*******
Ohno turned on his cellphone for the first time since he left the sharehouse. There were tons of voicemail. He decided to hear them one by one before calling Sho and Jun.
“Ohno kun! Where are you?! Please come back home. I believe there are explanation behind all this. Please come back home!” Sho’s panicked voice swarmed.
“Ohno kun, is Aiba chan with you? Please come back home. Both of you. Yuu chan’s collapsed and Nino has a mental breakdown now. Please, we can talk about this with cool heads,” Jun’s voice. Slightly calmer than Sho’s. Both of the first voicemails were from the night he left the sharehouse.
“Yuu chan’s manager called, he said Yuu chan was under the effect of some kind of drugs that made her aroused and high. And we found 8 cans of beer in Nino’s room along with porn video game. They were really not conscious when they did that, Ohno kun. Please understand this and come back home! Bring Aiba chan too!” Jun’s voice again.
Not conscious?! Non sense! I won’t believe that kind of crap.
Ohno’s anger piled up again. He closed his eyes and he could see the whole scene once again. The naked Nino on top of you, the screaming you, the crying Aiba, the confused Sho, the panicked Jun, everything.
“Yuu chan left the house and we still don’t know where she is. Please, can you come home now?” Sho’s desperate voice filled his ears.
So, she left the house? After making such scene she just disappeared? How convenient!
After that, Jun and Sho sent a voicemail every morning and night, begging Ohno to come home. At the eighth day, Sho’s voicemail caught his attention.
“Nino still refused to eat and he fainted this morning. We took him to the hospital and the doctor said that he is greatly depressed and it’s not good for his health. So, Ohno kun, please come back home. We’re waiting for you.”
Ohno’s heart ached. He pictured the small body of his most precious boy in the world lying helplessly in the hospital bed. His body tensed for a moment, he stood up immediately. His entire being begged for running to Nino and take the little figure into his embrace, but the image of Nino’s body in hospital bed and the image of the same body on top of your naked body overlapped cruelly in his brain and made him screamed in headache. In the end, his pained heart beat the hell out of his urge to hug Nino. He moved to the next voicemail.
“We just received the news from Yuu chan’s manager. She’s under the doctor’s care too. She’s not better than Nino in condition. We’re still trying to make her come home though. Please, stop torturing them. They made a mistake but they didn’t even realize that they were making a mistake. Please, come home. And forgive them.”
Didn’t even realize? B*llsh*t.
He moved to the next voicemails. He stopped when he heard Nino’s weak voice, “Oh chan… I know that I disgust you. I know that I made a mistake. I know that you can’t forgive me. I don’t even deserve a chance to talk to you anymore. But please, tell me that you’re save. Tell me that you’re alive. Come back home, Oh chan. Come back to Sho and Matsujun. I’ll leave if you want me to. Please, Oh chan, I beg you.” Nino were crying.
Ohno’s heart shattered after he heard Nino’s voice. He knew that he missed that brat so much, every single cell in his body responded greatly to the desperate sound of his lover. Questions floated in his mind.
Why, Nino? Why you have to do that? Our life was so perfect and you ruined it. Why, Nino?
The questions slashed his already torn heart. With the great pain, he turned off his phone and he cancelled the plan to call Sho and Jun. He tried to erase Nino’s weak voice from his head.
*******
Day 46 - Friday - 17 days after the tragedy
Aiba sat next to his mother in front of the television that afternoon. He already stopped crying every night but there’s something missing in his heart. He spaced out frequently and he can’t focused for long. His mind always wandered back to you, Nino, Ohno, and the couple he felt sorry for leaving.
He was spacing out again when your face suddenly appeared on the entertainment news.
“… a model of the famous brand XXX suspected as an anorexic. She’s losing her weight rapidly in the last few weeks, we can see it on her latest series of photo shoot. Some witnesses said that they saw the model came to the hospital twice this week. Some people said that she is probably become an anorexic because she desperately want to look thinner on tonight’s grandeur fashion show …,” the reporter said as the TV screen showed some of your photos lined up in time line manners.
Aiba approached the TV screen and touched your latest photo. You looked so skinny and pale. Aiba’s heart torn into pieces. For a moment he forgot all the pain he had and only felt worry, “Yuu chan….”
“Poor girl, some gossip said that she was depressed, not anorexic. There was a news about two photographers that worked for that brand arrested for drugging a model with some strong stimulant drug. They were intending to rape the model, and some sources said that this girl was the victim.”
Aiba struck by his mother’s words. His tears pooled in his eyes.
Victim? Drug? Yuu chan?
His mother noticed the tears, “Eh? What’s wrong, Masaki?”
“She’s.. she’s the girl I told you.”
“Eh?! Is it possible that she was drugged when she……” his mother stopped her words. She afraid she speculated too much and gave the wrong idea to her son. She looked at her son’s sad eyes. She approached him and wiped his tears, “My son, now tell me, what saddened you the most? The fact that your girlfriend slept with your best friend, or the fact that now you have a reason that kept you from forgiving them?”
Aiba looked at his mother’s eyes. He tried to digest his mother’s words.
“You don’t have to stay mad at them if you don’t want too. Don’t torture yourself, son. It’s not a bad thing to forgive them.”
“But they….”
“Betrayed you, yes. But you still love her, right? I can see it in your eyes when you see her photo. And I can feel that deep inside you’re wanting to come back to your best friends. A mother knows her son best, son.”
Aiba let his mother’s words sunk deep into his brain. He thought about it carefully.
“You haven’t heard their explanation, right? Give them a chance to explain themselves to you, Masaki. I believe they have their own reason behind all this. If after the explanation you still can’t forgive them, you can always come back to me. But that way you won’t have any regret and unanswered questions,” his mother hands caressed his cheek softly.
Aiba’s brain processed all the words and the possibilities. He can’t imagine living with this sick feeling for the rest of his life. He wanted an answer. He wanted to know the reason, “Mother, may I go back to the sharehouse now?” Aiba decided to face the truth.
With a smile and a nod, his mother let him go back to the sharehouse to settle everything.
*******
Ohno woke up with massive headache. He looked around him, he was not in his room. He was at a tiny bar.
“Finally you woke up,” a middle aged man that Ohno recognized as the bar owner was there. He was picking up some shattered glass on the floor.
Ohno couldn’t remember what happened last night. The last thing he remembered was he ordered some beer to cast away the image of Nino from his head. “What happened?”
“You drank too much beer. You ordered like 7 or 8 glasses and went berserk.”
“Berserk?”
“Yes. You smashed bottles and glasses to the floor and screamed like a psycho. In the end you cried and fell asleep.”
Ohno couldn’t believe what he just heard. He felt guilt as he saw his surrounding was a complete mess, “I…. I’m sorry. I can’t remember anything. I’m sorry I messed up your bar, I didn’t mean to… I’ll pay for it I promise. Forgive me.” Ohno stood up and helped the bar owner to pick up the shattered glass.
“Don’t worry about it. Sometimes people do that. They drank too much and lose control of them self. I know you didn’t mean it when you did it.”
Ohno’s heart clenched as he heard the bar owner’s word.
“... drank too much and lose control of them self … didn’t mean it when you did it ...”
Jun’s voice rang in his head.
“Yuu chan’s manager called, he said Yuu chan was under the effect of some kind of drugs that made her aroused and high. And we found 8 cans of beer in Nino’s room along with porn video game. They were really not conscious when they did that, Ohno kun.”
Meguro walked in the bar and joined the conversation immediately, “God, Ohno san, I don’t know you can be this troublesome when you are drunk.”
Ohno stopped picking the glass, “I… don’t know either.”
Meguro noticed Ohno’s troubled expression, “There.. there.. Don’t worry. Alcohol do change people, right?”
“Yes, you were depressed and unaware of your behavior when you wrecked my bar, so I won’t sue you or anything as long as you pay for the damage. But if you were sober, I’d surely sue you and beat the hell out of you,” the bar owner chuckled to ease the tensed situation.
Ohno’s heart clenched tighter. His mind started to doubt himself.
What if he really was unconscious? What if he really was that drunk? What if he really was not himself that night?
He started to feel heavy headache.
But even if he was that drunk, and even if he really was thinking that it was just a mere dream, it doesn’t change the fact that he already slept with Yuu chan, right? And I am not fine with that. Or… am I?
Meguro approached Ohno, “Ohno san, you really need some help. You have to talk to doctor, or your family, or your friends, or anyone. Your trouble seemed to eat you bit by bit every day.”
Ohno looked at Meguro’s eyes. He realized that he’s in need of an answer. And he’s the only one in this world who can find that answer. And in order to find the answer, he need to face the source of his happiness and sadness. The one that changed him into one hell of a mess. Ninomiya Kazunari.
He stood up and opened up his wallet, he took some money and gave it to the bar owner, “Here is some money, I hope it’s enough. I’m sorry about this and I’m sorry I can’t help you cleaning the mess I made, I have something important to do.”
Ohno ran to his apartment and took his few belongings. He shut the door and locked it up then came back to the bar to give the keys to Meguro. Meguro was smiling proudly when he received it. Ohno ran again after a short good bye and he arrived at the station just in time. He entered the train and to his surprise, he found Aiba.
The two men looked at each other and they understood each other without exchanging words. Ohno turned on his cellphone. He dialed Sho’s number.
“Sho kun, we’re going home.”
Whoa. This is a long one.
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Chapter 10
Chapter 12
Aiba sat in the train for a long time, going from one end to another, until he decided to get off at his hometown. He walked down the road he knew so well but haven’t seen for so long. He hesitated when he arrived in front of his parent’s house, but when the sun started to set, he rang the doorbell.
“Masaki!” his mother opened the door and yelled in mix of surprise and happiness.
Aiba stunned by his mother’s warm welcome. He thought she would be as cold as ice and rejected him right away. He remembered the day he left this house to join his best friends’ plan of pursuing their dreams, his parents were against the plan but Aiba ignored them. He remembered clearly the disappointed look in her mother’s face as he told her that he was in love with one of his male best friend, so there’s no way he could miss the chance of living with that particular person; Ohno Satoshi.
He expected a slap in the face, but his mother hugged him with compassion instead. She dragged him inside and busied herself in the kitchen right away.
“You haven’t eat dinner yet, have you? Let me prepare some food for you,” she fixed quick dinner and served it to the silent Aiba. She sat and observed her son, “You lost some weight, eh? You have to take a good care of yourself more, young man! Now, eat!”
Aiba stared at his mother unbelievingly, “Mom, don’t you mad at me?”
His mother softened his eyes and stroked Aiba’s cheek, “You are my son, how can I mad at you? Beside, we believe that the path you have chosen is the best for you. We just….. shocked that time.”
Aiba felt his mother’s warmness surged into his heart. He hugged the pretty woman and kissed her.
“How’s Ohno kun? You can bring him here if you want. You can’t marry him but we can give you two our blessings, you know.”
Aiba’s heart felt like punched. The burnt feeling in his chest came back again. He released his mother and looked to the floor, “We never been together. He’s with Nino. Ninomiya Kazunari. You remember him, right? They are together since the first month we live together, and I haven’t even tell Ohno about my feeling. But I’m fine with that actually. They are happy and I’m happy to see them happy.”
“Ah, I’m sorry.. Yes, I remember Nino. He’s the small boy with grumpy face, right? Oh dear, it must be hard living with them then. But don’t worry, you will find a new man in no time,” his mother tried to comfort him.
“I’ve found one,” Aiba said to his mother. The hole in his chest became larger and larger, “a girl.”
His mother’s eyes caught Aiba’s sad expression. She understood that there were something wrong about this supposedly happy news, “And? What happened?”
Aiba couldn’t hold it anymore and he cried in his mother’s hug, “Last week I saw her slept with Nino.” His heart was punctured with sadness.
His mother stroked Aiba’s back to calm him down. She let his son spilled every single details between his crying. She let him cry, she let him sad. She didn’t ask a single question, she understood that her son was in a great pain. After Aiba calmed down, she escorted him to his room to take some rest. She decided to not mention the subject again.
*******
Day 41 - Sunday - 13 days after the tragedy
Ohno held his fishing rod firmly while spacing out. The soft wave and the smell of the ocean calmed him down, so he followed Meguro to the sea every day since Aiba left him alone. Meguro was the fisherman he always followed every once in a while and also his landlord now.
“Oi!” Meguro snatched the fishing rod from Ohno and reeled it in skillfully. He caught a big fish and handed it to Ohno. “Don’t space out, young man! The fish is about to break itself free!”
“Ah, I’m sorry, Meguro san. Thanks for helping me.”
Meguro observed Ohno’s face. He finally asked the question he’s been saving for days, “What’s wrong, Ohno san? You seemed troubled these days. Some problem in your home? It’s rare to have you stay here for such a long time.”
“Well.. I don’t think I have a thing called ‘home’ now,” Ohno answered with his blank eyes fixated to the sea. He could taste the bitterness of his own words.
Meguro stared at Ohno for a few moment, “So.. it’s really a problem in your home after all. Problem with your lover? Or with the others?”
Ohno thought for a while, he has no problem with the others, just with Nino. And you. “With Nino, my lover. My ex-lover, maybe.”
“I see. Do the others know that you’re here?”
Ohno shook his head.
“You better tell them, Ohno san. I don’t know what’s happening, but from the story you told me before I understand that you and your friends are closer than family, and I bet they are worried to death if you don’t tell them. If you have a problem with Ninomiya san and not with them, it’s unfair to let them suffer too. Just a simple text message will do.”
Ohno sunk into deep thoughts. Part of himself admitted that it’s unfair to let Sho and Jun worried, but he was sure that Sho and Jun will persuade him to come home. And maybe they will persuade him to forgive Nino and you too.
Meguro’s voice snapped him back to reality, “We’re going back now. As soon as you’re back to the apartment, you have to send them a message or call them. Or I’ll kick you out from the apartment.”
*******
Ohno turned on his cellphone for the first time since he left the sharehouse. There were tons of voicemail. He decided to hear them one by one before calling Sho and Jun.
“Ohno kun! Where are you?! Please come back home. I believe there are explanation behind all this. Please come back home!” Sho’s panicked voice swarmed.
“Ohno kun, is Aiba chan with you? Please come back home. Both of you. Yuu chan’s collapsed and Nino has a mental breakdown now. Please, we can talk about this with cool heads,” Jun’s voice. Slightly calmer than Sho’s. Both of the first voicemails were from the night he left the sharehouse.
“Yuu chan’s manager called, he said Yuu chan was under the effect of some kind of drugs that made her aroused and high. And we found 8 cans of beer in Nino’s room along with porn video game. They were really not conscious when they did that, Ohno kun. Please understand this and come back home! Bring Aiba chan too!” Jun’s voice again.
Not conscious?! Non sense! I won’t believe that kind of crap.
Ohno’s anger piled up again. He closed his eyes and he could see the whole scene once again. The naked Nino on top of you, the screaming you, the crying Aiba, the confused Sho, the panicked Jun, everything.
“Yuu chan left the house and we still don’t know where she is. Please, can you come home now?” Sho’s desperate voice filled his ears.
So, she left the house? After making such scene she just disappeared? How convenient!
After that, Jun and Sho sent a voicemail every morning and night, begging Ohno to come home. At the eighth day, Sho’s voicemail caught his attention.
“Nino still refused to eat and he fainted this morning. We took him to the hospital and the doctor said that he is greatly depressed and it’s not good for his health. So, Ohno kun, please come back home. We’re waiting for you.”
Ohno’s heart ached. He pictured the small body of his most precious boy in the world lying helplessly in the hospital bed. His body tensed for a moment, he stood up immediately. His entire being begged for running to Nino and take the little figure into his embrace, but the image of Nino’s body in hospital bed and the image of the same body on top of your naked body overlapped cruelly in his brain and made him screamed in headache. In the end, his pained heart beat the hell out of his urge to hug Nino. He moved to the next voicemail.
“We just received the news from Yuu chan’s manager. She’s under the doctor’s care too. She’s not better than Nino in condition. We’re still trying to make her come home though. Please, stop torturing them. They made a mistake but they didn’t even realize that they were making a mistake. Please, come home. And forgive them.”
Didn’t even realize? B*llsh*t.
He moved to the next voicemails. He stopped when he heard Nino’s weak voice, “Oh chan… I know that I disgust you. I know that I made a mistake. I know that you can’t forgive me. I don’t even deserve a chance to talk to you anymore. But please, tell me that you’re save. Tell me that you’re alive. Come back home, Oh chan. Come back to Sho and Matsujun. I’ll leave if you want me to. Please, Oh chan, I beg you.” Nino were crying.
Ohno’s heart shattered after he heard Nino’s voice. He knew that he missed that brat so much, every single cell in his body responded greatly to the desperate sound of his lover. Questions floated in his mind.
Why, Nino? Why you have to do that? Our life was so perfect and you ruined it. Why, Nino?
The questions slashed his already torn heart. With the great pain, he turned off his phone and he cancelled the plan to call Sho and Jun. He tried to erase Nino’s weak voice from his head.
*******
Day 46 - Friday - 17 days after the tragedy
Aiba sat next to his mother in front of the television that afternoon. He already stopped crying every night but there’s something missing in his heart. He spaced out frequently and he can’t focused for long. His mind always wandered back to you, Nino, Ohno, and the couple he felt sorry for leaving.
He was spacing out again when your face suddenly appeared on the entertainment news.
“… a model of the famous brand XXX suspected as an anorexic. She’s losing her weight rapidly in the last few weeks, we can see it on her latest series of photo shoot. Some witnesses said that they saw the model came to the hospital twice this week. Some people said that she is probably become an anorexic because she desperately want to look thinner on tonight’s grandeur fashion show …,” the reporter said as the TV screen showed some of your photos lined up in time line manners.
Aiba approached the TV screen and touched your latest photo. You looked so skinny and pale. Aiba’s heart torn into pieces. For a moment he forgot all the pain he had and only felt worry, “Yuu chan….”
“Poor girl, some gossip said that she was depressed, not anorexic. There was a news about two photographers that worked for that brand arrested for drugging a model with some strong stimulant drug. They were intending to rape the model, and some sources said that this girl was the victim.”
Aiba struck by his mother’s words. His tears pooled in his eyes.
Victim? Drug? Yuu chan?
His mother noticed the tears, “Eh? What’s wrong, Masaki?”
“She’s.. she’s the girl I told you.”
“Eh?! Is it possible that she was drugged when she……” his mother stopped her words. She afraid she speculated too much and gave the wrong idea to her son. She looked at her son’s sad eyes. She approached him and wiped his tears, “My son, now tell me, what saddened you the most? The fact that your girlfriend slept with your best friend, or the fact that now you have a reason that kept you from forgiving them?”
Aiba looked at his mother’s eyes. He tried to digest his mother’s words.
“You don’t have to stay mad at them if you don’t want too. Don’t torture yourself, son. It’s not a bad thing to forgive them.”
“But they….”
“Betrayed you, yes. But you still love her, right? I can see it in your eyes when you see her photo. And I can feel that deep inside you’re wanting to come back to your best friends. A mother knows her son best, son.”
Aiba let his mother’s words sunk deep into his brain. He thought about it carefully.
“You haven’t heard their explanation, right? Give them a chance to explain themselves to you, Masaki. I believe they have their own reason behind all this. If after the explanation you still can’t forgive them, you can always come back to me. But that way you won’t have any regret and unanswered questions,” his mother hands caressed his cheek softly.
Aiba’s brain processed all the words and the possibilities. He can’t imagine living with this sick feeling for the rest of his life. He wanted an answer. He wanted to know the reason, “Mother, may I go back to the sharehouse now?” Aiba decided to face the truth.
With a smile and a nod, his mother let him go back to the sharehouse to settle everything.
*******
Ohno woke up with massive headache. He looked around him, he was not in his room. He was at a tiny bar.
“Finally you woke up,” a middle aged man that Ohno recognized as the bar owner was there. He was picking up some shattered glass on the floor.
Ohno couldn’t remember what happened last night. The last thing he remembered was he ordered some beer to cast away the image of Nino from his head. “What happened?”
“You drank too much beer. You ordered like 7 or 8 glasses and went berserk.”
“Berserk?”
“Yes. You smashed bottles and glasses to the floor and screamed like a psycho. In the end you cried and fell asleep.”
Ohno couldn’t believe what he just heard. He felt guilt as he saw his surrounding was a complete mess, “I…. I’m sorry. I can’t remember anything. I’m sorry I messed up your bar, I didn’t mean to… I’ll pay for it I promise. Forgive me.” Ohno stood up and helped the bar owner to pick up the shattered glass.
“Don’t worry about it. Sometimes people do that. They drank too much and lose control of them self. I know you didn’t mean it when you did it.”
Ohno’s heart clenched as he heard the bar owner’s word.
“... drank too much and lose control of them self … didn’t mean it when you did it ...”
Jun’s voice rang in his head.
“Yuu chan’s manager called, he said Yuu chan was under the effect of some kind of drugs that made her aroused and high. And we found 8 cans of beer in Nino’s room along with porn video game. They were really not conscious when they did that, Ohno kun.”
Meguro walked in the bar and joined the conversation immediately, “God, Ohno san, I don’t know you can be this troublesome when you are drunk.”
Ohno stopped picking the glass, “I… don’t know either.”
Meguro noticed Ohno’s troubled expression, “There.. there.. Don’t worry. Alcohol do change people, right?”
“Yes, you were depressed and unaware of your behavior when you wrecked my bar, so I won’t sue you or anything as long as you pay for the damage. But if you were sober, I’d surely sue you and beat the hell out of you,” the bar owner chuckled to ease the tensed situation.
Ohno’s heart clenched tighter. His mind started to doubt himself.
What if he really was unconscious? What if he really was that drunk? What if he really was not himself that night?
He started to feel heavy headache.
But even if he was that drunk, and even if he really was thinking that it was just a mere dream, it doesn’t change the fact that he already slept with Yuu chan, right? And I am not fine with that. Or… am I?
Meguro approached Ohno, “Ohno san, you really need some help. You have to talk to doctor, or your family, or your friends, or anyone. Your trouble seemed to eat you bit by bit every day.”
Ohno looked at Meguro’s eyes. He realized that he’s in need of an answer. And he’s the only one in this world who can find that answer. And in order to find the answer, he need to face the source of his happiness and sadness. The one that changed him into one hell of a mess. Ninomiya Kazunari.
He stood up and opened up his wallet, he took some money and gave it to the bar owner, “Here is some money, I hope it’s enough. I’m sorry about this and I’m sorry I can’t help you cleaning the mess I made, I have something important to do.”
Ohno ran to his apartment and took his few belongings. He shut the door and locked it up then came back to the bar to give the keys to Meguro. Meguro was smiling proudly when he received it. Ohno ran again after a short good bye and he arrived at the station just in time. He entered the train and to his surprise, he found Aiba.
The two men looked at each other and they understood each other without exchanging words. Ohno turned on his cellphone. He dialed Sho’s number.
“Sho kun, we’re going home.”
Whoa. This is a long one.
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