so i am finally writing...for last night and today...lots of stuff going on in this head of mine anyways...

okay...the first things...the suprise b-day party was great...kelly loved it...after all the kiddies went home...the adults...played rummy and put alcohol in our tummies... :) we had whisky sours, smoothie things...margaritas...mojitos...yeah ( Read more... )

getting ready to leave the house...been up for a while now ( Read more... )

and i am wondering what is in peoples minds each day...when they see my thoughts laid out before them like a  buffet...some getting to pick and choose what they read...some who get something a little more to see...those who understand...more than my words might say...those who sift through my ashes...and can still find my flame...

because in a place ( Read more... )

listening to this music...right now...that even without words...just makes me...i don't even know how to put it into words...music that sends chills...raising the hairs on my arms...at the same time...relaxing my mind...like i said...i just don't have the words...but i can say that i am thankful for it...music is a blessing everyday...

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do you know what the real definition of lonely is...it is waking up at 6 am from a nightmare...that has your heart beating out of your chest...and you mind whirling at 672000 miles a minute...and having no one that you can call to talk to...no one that will wrap their (metaphorical) arms around you and listen...console you...wipe your tears...

this ( Read more... )

sooo... :) i have been in some kinda mood today... some kinda goofy...confused...grrly...cheezy...smiley...excited...cartwheely...mood...can you have a cartwheely mood...well if not...i just made one ( Read more... )

another day begins... :)

i am looking up...that is the only thing that i know to do...look up...

so all the plans that i had to travel...are canceled out...because it seems i have a birthday party to go to...singing karaoke at bww friday night...and then another birthday part on saturday---big cookout with a bunch of people from MAW...

today...more ( Read more... )

push-ups on the stairs...determination...i have found something that i can throw myself into here...and i am thankful for that...

i mean sometimes this place gets lonely...sometimes i wonder if i made the right choice...

i had outgrown my small town...actually outgrown it years and years ago...but i stayed...i have always wanted more than that small ( Read more... )

so class was great...actually all 3 of them...lol...i didn't see the point in going to my color belt class...then leaving and coming back for kick-boxing...so i stayed thru white belt class...and worked on my new breaking technique...a back side kick... :) will take some practive but i will get it right...

i love the feeling i get when i am done... ( Read more... )

i am finding myself...swimming in music...learning...loving the sounds...the words...sometimes it is so much easier to let others speak up for you...when the words that you have....don't fall comfortably on the ear ( Read more... )