Title: Seeking Respite
Author: Knightmusic
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Gil/Nick
Challenge (if applicable): Written for the
Gil Grissom Fuh-Q-Fest. Response to kink challenge #3: submissive!Gil.
Summary: It's only the truly powerful who can give up control.
Author's Note/Warnings: Just some quick pr0n while I finish the
sequel to "Smoke and Mirrors." Thanks to laurelgardner for
feeding the bunny. This story contains a D/s relationship,
bondage, and light flogging, so consider yourself warned. Or
consider those bonus points. Up to you.
Disclaimer: Yeah, read this story and you'll understand why I don't own CSI. None of my ideas would fly on network TV.
By the way, this is revised (slightly) from the version that appeared
on my journal. If you read it there, know that I've added a
few...details here and there.
They were running late. It was almost entirely Gil’s fault, and he knew
it. He was trying to hurry things along, picking up what he needed,
checking one last time that he hadn’t left the stove on or anything
stupid like that.
“Gil, movie starts in twenty-five minutes,” Nick called in from the door.
“Just a minute,” Gil said, absently. There was something he was forgetting. It always felt like that.
“Gil!” Nick shouted, clapping his hands for emphasis. “Now!”
And suddenly Gil couldn’t remember what he’d been looking for. He had
the sudden, inexplicable urge to say “yes, sir,” and something deep
inside him sat up and took keen interest in the situation. He’d never
heard that tone of voice before.
He’d heard Nick yell. Oh, god, had he heard Nick yell. But he’d been
too busy doing some impressive yelling of his own to really pay
attention. But this wasn’t like that. Nick wasn’t angry, wasn’t really
even irritated. If they missed the movie, they’d just grab something to
eat and catch a later one. But there was intensity there, force behind
the words.
Nick had expected obedience. And Gil wanted to obey. Very much.
* * *
The thought stuck with him for days, and he puzzled over it. He and
Nick had worked so hard in their relationship to make sure everything
was equal, and it was one of the things Gil held most dear. No one was
in charge; they were partners. In everything. Hard to do when he was
still Nick’s boss, but they’d managed. It was a great achievement, and
he was proud of it.
And yet now there was this voice whispering soft, wicked ideas in the
back of his mind, and he couldn’t ignore it. He loved the stability
that came of their shared authority, and yet…
…and yet, it always felt so good, so unexpectedly, liberatingly good
when Nick took the lead, even a little bit. Whether it was when he
decided what they were going to have for dinner, or when he decided
that lovemaking was going to happen on his terms, it was a blissful,
euphoric rush for Gil.
He liked being told what to do.
No, more than that, he wanted, needed to be told. But only by Nicky.
He’d never been ordered around much in his life. It hadn’t been his
mother’s style, and as he got older, he did what needed to be done
before anyone had to tell him. Ecklie tried to dictate his life and job
to him, but it mostly backfired; giving rise to a streak of
contrariness in Gil that normally didn’t get exercised.
But Nicky… Well, he’d do anything for Nicky anyway. He’d never said as
much, but Nick knew that. At least, Gil hoped he knew that. He
certainly meant it.
These thoughts peaked his curiosity, and for the next few weeks, he
began testing the theory in subtle ways; trying to awaken that
authoritative demeanor in Nick and see if a willing, submissive part of
himself responded. He kept it innocent at first, pretending he didn’t
hear when Nick asked him something, making him repeat himself,
deliberately tripping quirks of Nick’s, like leaving his shoes in the
entryway, leaving the music set too loud, nothing that would make Nick
angry, but enough to earn him a different kind of
attention.
To his surprise, it worked. In many ways. Nick didn’t get angry, Gil
was too subtle and random about when he tried something for Nick to
realize the actions were intentional, but each time he firmly and
deliberately voiced his feelings on the matter. It made Gil shiver, and
quickly agree to abide by Nick’s wishes.
He tried it in bed, too. Drawing his actions out, teasing more than he
ever had before. He worked tongue, lips, teeth and hands over
Nick’s body; stringing him along, playing him, testing, stretching and
pushing his breaking point. All so he could hear those incredibly
powerful words.
“Gil! Now!”
Your wish is my command, Gil thought, and gave
himself completely over to Nick’s wishes. Their combined
satisfied moans filled his ears and soothed his soul long after they
had both collapsed in breathless, satisfied heaps.
There was no doubt in his mind anymore. He knew what he wanted. The
problem was in how to ask for it. It was not a new problem for him. He
never had the words; especially not when he needed them the most.
It was one of the reasons he and Nick were so perfectly matched; why
they worked so beautifully together. Gil never had
to ask. Nick always knew. Everything. Anything. Whatever Gil wanted, it
was like Nicky had already researched it and become the newest expert.
So it stayed just a thought; a wonderful, exciting idea that he couldn’t find a way to broach.
* * *
They were sitting on the couch, watching TV, in what had become one of
Gil’s favorite positions ever; the human pillow. He was sitting between
Nick’s legs, his back against Nicky’s chest; enjoying the low-intensity
intimacy.
“Hand me the remote, would ya, Gil?” Nick asked, and Gil saw an
opportunity. He picked up the remote, turned to look at Nick and raised
a teasing eyebrow. He held the remote out of reach.
“Hey, c’mon,” Nick protested. “Give it here.” Gil smirked and refused.
“Gil, I mean it,” Nick’s voice became plaintive, bordering on
frustrated. “I really don’t want to watch this.” Gil glanced at the
screen. Something about caves and bats was starting. “It really creeps
me out,” Nick added.
Ah. Not the time to be playing this game. He handed the remote to Nick, who switched off the TV.
“What’s with you, lately?” Nick said, trying his best to look Gil in the eye.
“What do you mean?” Gil asked, innocently.
“All this shit you’ve been pulling,” Nick answered. He didn’t sound
angry. Mostly confused. “You trying to get a rise out of me or
something?”
Gil grinned. “I’m always interested in getting a rise out of you,
Nicky,” he said, and wriggled meaningfully. Nick laughed, albeit
briefly, at that.
“Yeah, well, there are better ways of doing that,”
he said, swatting Gil on the back of his head. “So what are you after?
You trying to tell me something?”
Yes, I am, Gil thought. But still, he didn’t have
the words to make Nick understand. He didn’t even know what,
exactly, he was asking for.
“If something’s wrong, Gil, we can work it out,” Nick said. He sounded worried.
“Nothing’s wrong,” Gil assured, quickly. “It’s just…” he couldn’t think of a way to finish that.
“Just what? Talk to me, Gil.”
And that was almost enough. Close enough to an actual command that Gil
almost had the words. Almost had them forced out of him without
thinking. Almost.
“I’m… not sure I can explain,” he said, finally. Hesitantly. Nick hugged him.
“Well try. It’s not like I’m going to laugh at you and leave, is it?”
No, it wasn’t. Nick was in this for the long haul. It had taken Gil a
while to believe that, but he did now. It was why he trusted him so
much. Why he was willing to trust him with this. He
closed his eyes and leaned back against Nick, pressed his forehead
against Nick’s cheek, felt Nick’s breath on his face, and felt so at
ease, so comfortable, so safe.
“Make me,” he whispered.
“What?” Nick asked, doing a fabulous job of maintaining his composure
even though he was very obviously surprised out of his mind. “Make you
do what?”
Gil turned around as much as he could to look at Nick straight on.
“Anything,” he said, and suddenly he had the words. “Anything at
all. I’ll do it.” He didn’t think Nick was going to laugh
at him, but he still wondered if he was making himself clear.
“I’m not sure I follow you,” Nick said. Gil pressed his tongue between
his teeth, thinking, trying to find a way to express what he’d
discovered about himself.
“I need,” he began, chewing his lip a little. “No, let me say this
better. I get tired of being in charge; at
work, keeping my life together, everything.” This wasn’t
easy. Not as bad as he’d been afraid it might be; it helped being
so close to Nicky, pressed so close together, but freed from the need
to meet his eyes.
“Sometimes, I…need a respite. I need someone else to make the decisions; to be in charge.”
“Gil,” Nick said, taking Gil’s hand and hugging him a little tighter to
his chest. He sounded worried. “I’m sorry if I’ve been
slacking or something. I never wanted you to feel like you had to
take care of me-”
Gil raised a hand, cutting him off and shaking his head. “No,
Nicky, that’s not it. I don’t feel like that at all.” He
gave Nick’s hand a squeeze and turned his head, pressing his face
against Nick’s collar bone. “You’re a perfect partner,” he said,
softly, with a little more reserve.
“We don’t need to ‘fix’ anything,” he continued. “What I’m asking
for is…” he looked at the ceiling, searching for the word. “An
indulgence,” he decided, looking back at Nick.
For a few seconds there was only the sound and feel of Nick’s breath
against his cheek. “Okay,” Nick said at last, very quietly.
“Okay, I think I can work with this.” He sat them up, moving Gil
off him a little so they could look at each other. “Just what are
we talking about, exactly?”
Gil smiled, feeling suddenly relieved. “I’m not quite sure yet,”
he said. “What I do know, is that when you’re giving orders,
you’re very sexy. It’s quite the turn on.”
Nick stared at him, open mouthed. “Oh,” he said, quietly. And slowly,
his expression changed. It started as puzzlement, and then all of a
sudden, he looked as though he had gotten the best present he could
ever have asked for. Something in Gil swelled in joy and pride with the
knowledge that he had put that look on Nick’s face.
“We can definitely work with this,” Nick said.
He was still grinning broadly. He tipped his head back, thinking for a
few minutes, and when he looked down again, he was nearly laughing.
“God, that makes sense!”
Gil blinked at him. “It does?”
“Yeah, it does! Everything! How you-” he shook his head, suddenly.
“Never mind. I’ll tell you later, if you want, let’s just…figure this
out for now.”
They talked about it for a long time. Even if Gil couldn’t quite
articulate it, Nick seemed to be asking the right questions. It was
part of why he loved Nick, after all. Nick could read him.
* * *
Coming home had never felt so good. It would have been better if it
could have happened two hours ago like he’d planned; staying late if he
was actually working was fine, but staying late spinning his wheels in
a battle of wills with Ecklie and Atwater…well, that was enough to make
him want to go home and stay there. For an indeterminate period of
time. It didn’t matter that, eventually, he’d swayed them to see it his
way.
All he wanted now was to lay down with a drink. Preferably with his head in Nicky’s lap.
The house was quiet when he walked in. Odd, Nick had left the lab on
time, and his truck was parked in the driveway. He’d expected to see
him when he walked in. Maybe he’d already gone to bed. Gil hung up his
jacket and headed to the kitchen.
“I was wondering when you’d get home,” Nick said from behind him. Gil
reached the refrigerator and opened it, taking out a bottle of water
without turning around.
“Sorry, Nick,” he said. “Ecklie and Atwater were-”
“What did you call me?”
Gil froze.
Oh. So that’s how it was. His blood
rushed just a little louder and hotter at that particular combination
of inflection, timbre and intent in Nick’s voice. It captured and
held every part of Gil at complete attention. It had taken time,
experimentation and practice before they got it just right, but now
Nick could find it at will.
Gil turned around, slowly, to look at Nick. The sight nearly knocked
him to his knees, but he maintained himself. That comes
later, he thought with a delightful shudder.
Neither one of them had been terribly keen on elaborate apparel, but
had quickly discovered that a little light costuming brought out
hitherto unknown bravado in Nick. And Gil had been more than
happy for the excuse to get Nicky into a pair of tight, black leather
pants. The blue silk shirt, worn open with no undershirt, only added to
the visual appeal. But the boots were the real prize, and the way Nick
was leaning back, propping his feet up on Gil’s desk, showed them off
beautifully.
Gil had run across them and bought them, knowing that Nick never would
himself, but that he would love them. And look fabulous in them. They
were black, shiny, came up to his knees, and buckled in three places.
The soles were thick, almost platforms, and had tiny silver spikes
across the arch.
They were boots that meant business. And so did Nick when he wore them.
Gil realized, suddenly, that Nick was waiting for an answer. Much as
he’d like to stand and ogle his lover for a while, he’d best do as he
was expected. He had to re-wet his lips to speak; his whole mouth had
gone suddenly dry.
“I’m sorry,” he breathed, “sir.”
Nick nodded and stood up, swinging his legs off the desk. The boots
made a thick, heavy, satisfying thunk on the bare floors as he came
into the kitchen. “That’s better,” he said. He didn’t look overtly
pleased, but neither did he look upset either. Nick had developed a
decent poker face since they’d begun this ritual. Gil probably could
have logged his tells and learned to read him, but the surprises were
so much more fun.
He took his time coming to stand in front of Gil, and when he got
there, he leaned lazily against the bar. Gil hadn’t budged an inch
since he’d first laid eyes on Nick. He was barely breathing, but his
pulse was fluttering with excitement. Nick nodded at the bottle of
water he was holding.
“Give me that,” he said. Gil handed it over before he’d completely
registered Nick’s words. That wasn’t unusual. Something about Nick’s
voice overrode the part of his brain that evaluated validity of orders.
It was a little like being drunk, or hypnotized. And Nick
wouldn’t ask him to do anything unreasonable.
He watched Nick open the bottle of water and take a long drink; admired
the curve of his lips around the bottle and the way the muscles of his
throat moved as he swallowed. Every motion he made seemed slowed down
and deliberate.
“You thirsty?” he asked. Gil nodded. Nick reached out his hand to take Gil by the arm.
“Come here.” He pulled Gil forward, turning him around and hugging him close, Gil’s back to his chest.
“Relax,” he whispered. “I’ve got you.” Gil sagged a little bit, letting
his body give in the way his mind already was; letting Nick support
him. Nick raised the water bottle to Gil’s lips and tilted it for
Gil to drink. He was mouthing Gil’s ear as he drank, and Gil would have
sighed if he could have. Nick kept at it after he took the bottle away
and set it on the counter. Both his arms came up around Gil, as much an
embrace as holding him still.
“I asked Catherine about your meeting,” he whispered. Even for its lack
of volume, the intensity and proximity of Nick’s voice made him shiver.
“She told me what was up with Ecklie and the Sheriff.” His mouth moved
across Gil’s jaw, and down his neck.
“They want you to do things their way, don’t they?” he said into the
hollow of Gil’s throat. Gil couldn’t nod with Nick in the way, and
couldn’t quite bring himself to talk, but made an affirmative noise.
Nick smiled.
“I’m guessing you wouldn’t back down, would you?” Gil shook his head,
muttering a “no.” Nick slid around to stand in front of him, hands
coming up to cradle his head. He was smiling in a knowing, proud,
proprietary way.
“They can’t get you to do what they want,” he said. “Only I get to do
that, am I right?” Gil shivered again, despite the fact that he
suddenly felt much warmer than he had moments ago. Nick
was right. It was true. So wonderfully true.
“Yes,” he whispered, smiling. Nick’s eyes narrowed, focusing intense energy into Gil’s.
“Yes, what?” he asked, warning in his voice.
“Yes, sir,” Gil answered. He liked saying it; he got
a delicious rush from it. But it was even better when Nick
made him say it.
Nick grabbed him by the shoulders and spun him against the
refrigerator, pinning him in place. “That’s better,” he said, and
kissed him. It wasn’t a gentle kiss.
His hands moved down Gil’s arms, taking his wrists and pinning them
over his head. Gil tried to kiss back, but Nick wasn’t interested in
making this a mutual sharing experience. It was full of force,
and teeth, and tongue and Nick’s own agenda, which didn’t involve any
give. Just take;. It was times like this that
Gil was suddenly reminded of just how strong Nick really was. Not
overpoweringly so, but easily enough that he could assert his own will
by physical means.
When Nick released his mouth they were both breathing heavily. “This is
what you need tonight, isn’t it?” Nick asked. Gil nodded.
“Yes, sir,” he answered. Odd how the same words could have so many
different meanings. They were almost a plea now. Nick grinned.
“Thought so,” he said. “Go into the bedroom, get undressed and wait for
me,” he instructed, stepping back and freeing Gil. Gil nodded and left
the kitchen.
Nick would probably take his time, but then again, they were still
mostly making this up as they went along. He might take choose a
different tactic this time and follow immediately. In any case, he was
best off doing exactly as he was told. There was a high backed wooden
chair in one corner of their bedroom. He stripped quickly and went over
to kneel on the carpet in front of it.
Some part in the back of his mind sat back and watched all this, and
wondered at it. It wondered why he didn’t feel ridiculous like this;
why it was turning him on. Other than the fact that Nick looked damn
good in leather, and commanded sexual energy strong enough to power
their whole house when he did this. And he whispered back to that part
of his mind, that it felt so good.
He heard Nick enter the room, heard the tinkling of ice as he sipped
his drink, but Gil didn’t look up. “Good,” Nick said, and began
circling him; inspecting him. Gil was sure he could feel Nick’s
gaze, it was that strong; almost a caress over his bare skin.
“But even better would be…” Nick murmured, thinking out loud. “On
all fours. Facing the wall,” he ordered, coming to a stop behind
him. Gil hurried to comply, feeling excited and curious at the
same time. This could mean any number of things… He shushed
the thought; it was much better to wait and find out than speculate.
Finally, Nick took a seat in the chair, and Gil waiting, heart pounding
in anticipation. After several eternal seconds, Nick swung his
feet up and rested them on Gil’s back, crossing them at the ankles, and
relaxed completely in his seat.
“So tell me about it,” Nick said.
“Sir?” Gil asked, suddenly feeling terribly off
balance. He’d never been made to be Nick’s footstool before, and
they’d certainly never chatted about work while engaged in a
scene. He wanted to look up, get some kind of reading from Nick’s
face, but there was no chance of that.
“Ecklie and Atwater. Tell me about it. What did they want?”
Gil still didn’t understand what Nick was getting after, but he
shrugged inwardly and started speaking. “They’re concerned about my
‘efficiency,’” he made a face at the word.
“They think I take too long to close a case. I told them cases
get done when they get done. I’m not about to cut corners to fit their
agendas.” He thought he heard Nick laugh, just a little at that.
“Why do you think that upsets them so much?” Nick asked. Gil
didn’t answer. He had no idea what Nick was
driving at with this. He was sure there was an answer Nick was
expecting, but he’d be damned if he could figure it out.
“Gil?” Nick said, and shifted, reaching down to pick something up off
the floor. “I can practically hear you
thinking,” he said, and Gil realized what Nick had picked up seconds
before the riding crop swatted him lightly, but still reprimandingly,
on the backside. “None of that. Just answer me.”
“I don’t know,” Gil said. It was the only honest answer he could give.
Nick made a disgusted sound. “You know better than that,” he said, and swung his legs off Gil’s back and sat up.
“Sit up,” he said, his voice suddenly more firm. Gil shifted
positions quickly, and then the crop was under his chin, lifting his
head. “Look at me,” Nick said, and Gil raised his eyes.
“Why does that upset them so much?” he asked again. Gil sighed. He
wondered that himself, so very often. Why his best efforts were always
reprimanded.
“Gil?” Nick asked, leaning forward and pressing his palm against Gil’s
face. “Don’t keep me waiting. I don’t like it,” he said, tracing
his hand over Gil’s cheek, sliding through the hair at his temple. He
still didn’t know how to answer; nothing about the situation made any
kind of sense in his world.
“Maybe they expect better from me,” he suggested.
Nick back handed him. Not hard, it didn’t even hurt, but it was
surprising. He gasped, blinking, and looked up in confusion. Nick was
glaring at him. “Don’t lie to me, Gil,” he said, leveling a finger at
him. “You know that’s not true. So what’s the answer? Really?”
Now he understood. Nick was using his current position to make a point.
Gil sighed. “I make them look bad,” he said, using the words that Nick
had so often spoken. As he said them, something inside him knew they
were true, and he felt a warm rush of gratitude at being made to say
them.
“That’s right,” Nick said, his voice instantly gentle again. “You
need to trust me, Gil. There are some things that I just know
better than you do.”
“Yes, sir,” Gil said. It had never felt so good to lose an argument.
“Good,” Nick said, and leaned forward. “I’m proud of you,” he
said, and held his right hand out in front of Gil’s face. Gil
responded to the signal instantly, and didn’t need instruction.
He took Nick’s hand in both of his and kissed the back of it; paying
homage to his lord.
Nick cupped his face, fingers stroking his jaw. His thumb slid
across Gil’s cheekbone he opened his mouth when it reached his
lips. He sucked and licked gently, cradling it between his tongue
and the roof of his mouth. Nick hummed, contentedly, but drew his
hand away far too soon for Gil’s liking.
He sat back again, and Gil dropped his eyes, listening to him take
another sip of his drink. Scotch, probably. Nick had adopted
Gil’s taste in single-malts shortly after they’d begun seeing each
other.
Gil stared at Nick’s boots and waited for the next move. He wondered
what it would be like to lick them. They’d never discussed that idea
before, and it had never occurred to him before now, but suddenly he
was insatiably curious. Still, he didn’t want to make the decision
himself. He’d wait until he was told.
“So what should I do with you, tonight?” Nick mused. It was a
rhetorical question. He’d be more direct about it if he wanted Gil to
answer. Gil stared down, waiting. “You look good enough to eat,” he
continued. “Is that what I should do?” The riding crop returned,
lifting his chin again.
“If that’s what you want,” Gil answered. “Sir,” he added.
“What I want,” Nick said, thinking. He sipped his drink again. “I want
a show,” he said. “Touch yourself,” he ordered, sitting back and making
himself comfortable.
The mild arousal that had been simmering since Nick had pinned him
against the refrigerator suddenly heated to a boil. Hardly aware of
what he was doing, he slid his hand from where it rested on his thigh
over to his groin.
“Slowly,” Nick cautioned. “Fingertips only.” Again, that heated shiver
seized Gil. His fingertips drifted over his cock, eyes closing at the
sensation.
“Eyes open,” Nick commanded. “Look at me.” Gil’s eyes flew open,
seeking Nick’s. He drew his other hand over his balls, breathing harder
now, both because of the sensation and the expression on Nick’s face.
Nick wasn’t meeting Gil’s eyes. He was focused lower on Gil’s body,
completely enraptured in a ravenous, possessive way.
His hands kept the same, slow, purposeful pace; tracing the length,
rolling over the head, sliding down to caress his balls again. He had
to fight to keep his eyes open, and his breathing was labored and
interspersed with soft moans.
Nick sipped his drink.
It wasn’t that Nick was disinterested, that much was easy to tell. His
eyes were lust-black and the focused stare was almost giving off
physical heat. And the leather pants weren’t hiding anything, either.
Observing Nick’s reactions prompted the most intense rush in Gil. It
almost distracted him from his own needy state. Almost.
He needed more than just this scant teasing. He whimpered, very softly, but Nick heard it.
“That’s enough,” Nick said. “Stand up.” Gil did, with difficulty. He
was a ball of tension and shaking just a bit. Nick took a final sip of
his drink, finishing it, and stood up. He ran his hand over his mouth,
looking Gil over carefully. Then he started to circle, deliberately
tapping the riding crop in his other hand.
“I’d like to keep you like this all the time,” he whispered in Gil’s
ear. “You look incredible.” He reached down and wrapped his hand around
Gil’s cock. “How long can you stay like this?” he asked. “Do I need to
help you out?”
Helping would mean a cock ring. And while that could be fun, it would
encourage Nick to draw this out longer than Gil thought he could take
tonight. He shook his head. “No, sir,” he said. Nick stroked him a few
times, humming to himself in thought.
“You’re sure?” he asked. “You can control yourself?” Gil nodded, barely restraining a shudder.
“Yes, sir. I can.” Nick kissed his shoulder.
“Good.” He started circling again. Gil wished he could turn his head to
watch, but kept looking forward, enjoying the tingle of uncertainty
when Nick disappeared from his line of sight. Nick stopped again, just
off his left shoulder, and tapped the riding crop across his back. It
tickled. And teased.
“Whadya say we try something new, hmm?” Nick asked, and a second later
the crop sliced through the air and landed on his back. It wasn’t very
hard, but it made him jump. They’d never discussed flogging, although
he’d wondered about it. Pain had never struck him as a great
aphrodisiac, but this was something different. Nick landed another
blow, no harder than the first, and his skin prickled; coming to life
in response and anticipation.
“Do you like that?” Nick asked, circling again.
“Yes, sir,” Gil answered with no small amount of awe. Nick grinned knowingly.
“I thought you might.”
Nick disappeared behind him again, and Gil tensed, waiting for the next
blow. It still surprised him. So did the next, coming so quickly on the
heels of the previous one. Nick came to stand in front of him again.
“Do you know why I’m doing this?” he asked.
“Because you want to,” Gil answered instantly, and with great
appreciation. It felt so good, so wonderful, being subject to
Nick’s whims.
The crop came up and caught him under the jaw, turning his head and
holding it in place, inches away from Nick’s face. “Not quite,” he
said, leaning closer. Their lips were almost touching. Gil wanted to be
kissed so badly. “Say it, Gil,” Nick insisted.
“Because you love me,” Gil said, and Nick kissed him. He brought both
hands up to hold Gil’s face, and this time he let Gil be an active
participant. Nick could play at control and indifference all he wanted,
but Gil knew better and right now he was being vindicated. Nick was
starving, trying to take as much of Gil as he could in one go.
“On the bed,” he ordered when he pulled away. “On your back. And close your eyes.”
Gil had a pretty good idea what was coming next, and he lay down, eyes
closed and arms over his head. And indeed, Nick pulled the restraints
out, cuffing Gil’s hands to the headboard. He kissed him again,
briefly, then started trailing his mouth down.
And then he was gone. He chewed his lip, puzzled and frustrated,
but didn’t open his eyes. Almost before he really had the chance
to miss Nick, the bed dipped and he was back.
Something cold touched his chest, and he almost yelped, but instead
just gasped in surprise. It was the ice from Nick’s drink.
Nick dragged the cube across Gil’s flushed, heated skin, causing Gil’s
already labored breathing to wheeze and occasionally stop
entirely. And then - and this was nearly too much entirely - he
bent to lick the trail of ice and scotch from Gil’s chest.
Gil lifted off the bed, whimpering, gasping, nearly choking, but
keeping his eyes shut and his vocal chords still. Nick chuckled,
and evil, intoxicating sound, and ran the ice cube over one of Gil’s
nipples.
Gil’s blood was humming; the high frequency vibrating his entire body,
while Nick maintained a slow, steady pace to this gratifying
torture. By the time all the ice had been melted, and summarily
licked away, Gil had long sense forgotten who or where he was. It
was all he could do to stay aware of Nick’s hands and Nick’s voice.
“I love that you let me do this,” Nick was saying into his skin. “Love that you get off on it.”
Gil hadn’t noticed when he’d gotten the lube, and didn’t care when
Nick’s fingers worked their way inside him. He gasped and arched,
trying to make the angle better, to hurry this along. He heard a
zipper, and moaned.
“Open your eyes,” Nick whispered. Gil did, and looked down to see
that Nick wasn’t bothering to get undressed. His pants were open and
his cock was out and Gil thought he might burn up.
“You ready? You want it now?” Nick asked.
“Yes, sir,” Gil gasped. “Please.”
Thankfully, Nick was done being a tease. With a little maneuvering to
get Gil into position, he was inside and moving hard. The metal zipper
was surprisingly cold against his skin, but the feel of the leather
against his thighs was more than an even trade. Nick’s hands were
grasping hard on his hips, pulling him up and forward for greater
leverage and Gil felt overwhelmingly, liberating, helpless.
When Nick wanted to, he could be downright wicked. And he wanted
to now. Even as strung out as they both were he started slow, building
speed and anticipation. He still hadn’t laid a hand on Gil’s
cock, although that was probably just as well; the strain of holding
on, waiting for Nick’s permission to come had nearly grated through all
of his reserves.
But that didn’t mean that his hands were idle. He pinched as much
as he caressed and stroked; soothing and aggravating Gil’s skin in
almost the same instant. And Gil was almost too far gone to care. All
he had to do was wait; hang on for a little longer. When Nick
decided the time was right it would be wonderful. Glorious. Well worth
his patience.
“Let it go,” Nick gasped, finally, finally, wrapping
one hand around Gil’s cock, and Gil did. He let himself be
overcome by the sensation, the significance, and by Nick himself. He
thought he shouted when he came, but the haze of overpowering stimulus
blinded and deafened him. He barely noticed when Nick came, although it
did spark an echo of pleasure in his own heart.
As soon as Nick recovered, and Gil was in no condition to gauge how
long that took, he reached up and unfastened Gil’s restraints, kissing
his hands as he pulled them down.
“Thank you,” Gil said, kissing Nick’s cheek.
“Mmm,” Nick said, flopping onto the pillow, one arm draped over Gil’s
chest. It took a while for their breathing to return to normal. When it
did, Nick made a frustrated sound and sat up, quickly.
“What?” Gil said, rolling over to look at him.
“Gotta…” Nick grunted, “get these off.” He struggled with the
buckles on his boots. “Now!” Gil suppressed a chuckle as Nick growled
and wrestled with one then the other. “There,” he said, tossing them on
the floor. “Damn things.”
Gil rubbed a hand over Nick’s back. “They look good on you.”
“Yeah, I bet,” Nick said, standing up to remove his pants and shirt.
“You’ve got the easy part of this deal, you know,” he teased, now
struggling to get the tight leather over his hips. “You should try
getting into all this.”
“You want some help?” Gil offered, sitting up. Nick shook his head.
“Nah, I got it.” And he did. He crawled back onto the bed, pulling the
blankets up over both of them. Gil put an arm around him, hugging him
close. It was a perfect moment; full of contentment, pleasure,
joy and gratitude. As physically tired as he was right now, it
felt as though his soul had been rekindled; washed, cared for, and put
back lighter and cleaner than before.
He wished there was a way to explain the feeling to Nick. He settled for kissing him instead.
“So,” Nick asked, after a while. “What’s for dinner?” Gil laughed.
“Whatever you want. I’m not cooking. I don’t think I’m moving for another few hours.”
“Right. Take-out it is,” Nick said. “Should I decide?” Gil looked up at him, blinking innocently.
“Whatever you want,” he said, smirking. “Sir.”