Love, i hear ( Read more... )

Forum is open and i now can reclaim my life....except i dont really have one anymore, but whatever ( Read more... )

i had such an urge/need/burning desire to get some stuff out of my head today while i was at work that i wrote on a napkin. (so pathetic, i could cry from laughing at myself...) but it felt good to actually write it out ( Read more... )

people dont choose their pain.

if they did, they'd pick something they could deal with.

i cant deal.

i woke up this morning feeling worse than i ever have in my entire life. i literally felt as if an alien was going to explode from my stomach. i thought i would pass out from pain. i thought i was dying. and there was aboslutely no compassion in my house. none. no one cared. i only got flack because i was holding them up. eggcellent. thanks mom. ( Read more... )

i think my toe is getting better. or maybe its just in my head. either way, im going home in 20 minutes...excitement abounds.

p.s. my birthday is a month from today. i dont know why im excited... there really isnt anything exciting that happens when youre 19... but hey, one more year down - im happy :)

im always happy these days :)

ummmmm suddenly not in the best of moods.. shame too, cuz ive been constantly cheery without the glimmer or a frown or bad mood for darn close to two weeks now ( Read more... )

im at work. dear.god. im bored. im sitting in a cubicle with a phone and a computer. clearly, i have the internet but there is absolutely nothing to do. gah. this is painful. hey, i have an idea - everyone should call me 'direct line' and entertain me. (703)236-3034 ( Read more... )

its been so dull up here. i went to my high school's senior talent show the night before graduation to see all my little theatre kids do their thang. it was wonderful - i think i cried more at their affirmation than i did at my own. i also went into Senior Clubhouse and saw a picture of me taped to the wall. Yes, they have a photo of me on the wall ( Read more... )

all my friends are so heavy. everyone has deep issues. this is both comforting and frightening, because for awhile i thought i was the only one. but if others are struggling, the last thing i want to do is dump my problems and concerns all over them. i tried talking to alana about my craziness and she wasnt there for me. that's never happened ( Read more... )