Comments | greygirlbeast: "I won't let you let me down so easily."

greygirlbeast

"I won't let you let me down so easily."

Jun 29, 2012 12:51

Awaking from an especially horrible nightmare this morning, maybe an hour and a half ago, and I still haven't shaken it off. For a long time, they weren't an issue, but the Lamictal can make them more vivid, and I recently upped the dosage to 350 mg. So, for now, the vivid dreams are back. My past rains down on me while I sleep, the might have ( Read more... )

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martianmooncrab June 29 2012, 17:16:16 UTC

The world is afraid of ennui

...I even have a chaise lounge to indulge it on..

greygirlbeast June 29 2012, 17:22:09 UTC

As do I. Though I tend to have ennui in my office chair. And I don't consider it an indulgence.

martianmooncrab June 29 2012, 17:27:13 UTC

Puritanical upbringing demands that all deviancies from normal suffering be considered Indulgences, and sometimes a Weakness of Character. I did however have the chaise upholstered in UltraSuede rather than the mandatory horsehair.

highway_west June 30 2012, 00:35:28 UTC

What is that icon from?

I just ordered a limited edition since I start my new awesome job tomorrow.

whiskeychick June 29 2012, 19:45:59 UTC

You getting your labret piercing makes me want my nose piercing back. I've been thinking about it for a few months now. It will have to be something I work up to, as for some stupid reason I'm fighting with my inner marysue who thinks I'm too old to have it again.

I have learned over the last year that embracing the feelings regardless of its spectrum (negative to positive) is one of the incredible things we have as humans. Pain into pleasure, as you said above. You cannot have motivation and determination and drive without its opposites. Ennui for the win.

My son is on Lamictal. I know he has told me about some fairly vivid dreams, too. But as side effects go, it is tamer than other pills for ills.

Can't wait to hear about the project once you're allowed to disclose it.

opalblack June 30 2012, 03:48:00 UTC

The nightmares are worse when they're not plain old frightening. When it's heartbreak or despair, or some other crushing emotional force, it makes me wish it was just fear. That I was just being chased by invisible monsters, or hiding from burglars, or whatever. Waking up frightened is easier than waking up grieving, waking up hopeless, waking up uncertain.