I got your trigger right here.

[greygirlbeast]

This is going to be short. I just want to get something down, and then I can go back to trying to wake up. It's a sunny day here, a deceptively sunny day. You might almost believe the sun out there is at least a tiny bit warm. Warmish, at least. But no. It's only 46˚F. This mood I'm in, I need 85˚F

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[corbelled]

It's 31˚F (wind chill 27˚F) and deceptively sunny in Maine, too, and I love you. I wish that were enough to help.

[everville340]

I got your trigger right here.

Amen to that.

They should be worn like a badge of honor, all "nobody puts Trigger in a corner" and whatnot.

[ext_3285138]

When I'm depressed I always think of how I don't have it as bad as Marilyn Monroe. Not that I'm a Marilyn fan, but after I watched a documentary on her bizarre life and family situation, I felt better about mine.

Also, good antique stores and thrift stores always seem to help me. These kinds of places offer perspective on time and place.

As far as your saliva goes, you might want to have your blood sugar checked when you get a chance. High blood sugar often causes people to have a metallic taste in their mouth.

When the baby turns 50.

[ext_3135323]

Don't freak out, because it's a full moon.

Addiction, depression, not enough sleep, resolution, sobriety, suicide.

[faffinz]

Me too. All that. I teeter on the edge sometimes. 52 years old.

What keeps me going is wanting to see how the movie ends.

The young people with courage and integrity that see what's wrong with the world and are trying to change it.

The octogenarian catholic priest who listened to my AA 5th step - still doing interesting, rewarding and useful things - 30 years older than me.

The possibility that I will be able to turn enough of this around to have a life I enjoy. I've done a lot of research, and now I'm slowly doing the work.

I hope you survive to get your ass out of Providence. I hope you try, even if you have to do something like GoFundMe.