Comments | greygirlbeast: "I feel numb. I feel numb in this kingdom."

greygirlbeast

"I feel numb. I feel numb in this kingdom."

Feb 06, 2016 12:22

It snowed until about 5 p.m., I think. And there's talk of more on Monday and Tuesday, maybe another winter storm. So, today we have to make it to the market, which means slogging through the ice and snow and slush all the way to the East Side. Currently, it's 31˚F. The sun is blindingly bright off all the snow ( Read more... )

endings, edward gorey, snow, sobriety, jigsaw puzzles, not enough sleep, the glamourous life of a writer, steinbeck, william s. burroughs, withdrawal

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setsuled February 6 2016, 17:21:53 UTC

As of tonight, it will have been three days. Which is the longest I've been clean in...years.

Well done, I imagine that was even more difficult than your words convey. And your words make it sound pretty fucking hard.

Some part of me questions the wisdom of writing about this in public, for the public

Well, it's certainly in the spirit of Burroughs and the beat writers. Anyway, I worry about you and it's nice to have some idea what's happening.

And it is one of the few up sides of being a freelance author that no one's gonna give me a bad reference next time I apply for a job.

I do wonder sometimes how many jobs and relationships Google has cost me. Though in terms of relationships I'm probably better off.

Really nice photos. I hope what you're going through isn't the kind of thing that lasts a long time.

sovay February 6 2016, 20:16:27 UTC

As of tonight, it will have been three days. Which is the longest I've been clean in...years.

Congratulations.

Just before sunset, the sun broke through the clouds, that low-to-the-southern-horizon, highish-latitude sun, and set the treetops and rooftops on fire

The quality of light in the second-to-last of the sunset photographs is amazing.

ext_3285138 February 6 2016, 22:11:09 UTC

By day 7 I was feeling pretty solid. Sincerely, watch out for roughly day 30. That's when I felt confident and would play with the idea of a fairytale "vacation".

tziedel February 7 2016, 04:22:48 UTC

It's hard, but it's worth it. Rooting for you, Cait.

everville340 February 7 2016, 19:49:11 UTC

Sometimes the saying sounds like a bunch of trite crap but it really is 'one day at a time'. I can only speak from my own experience, but it's easy to get caught up in the finality of succeeding or failing at it. No matter what choices tomorrow may bring, that you decided to try will always be the buried treasure in the cloud of today you can hold on to.

I wish I had my own words for "Study for an Electronaut's Ovid (AD 2052)", but you put it perfectly when you said it might be the best thing you've written in some time. It certainly is.
The Bowie is strong in you.