Creating Space

[greenstorm]

This remains an uncomfortable space in which to write. I feel like my elbows will poke people, like my words won't ring. Ignoring that, I'm going to write in an attempt to take back space. I will allow myself to be personal again, and I'll remember that anyone who doesn't wish to read only needs to stop going out of their way to be here

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Smiles and hugs

[_greenwitch_]

I check onto livejournal every once in a while, when I realize that I so infrequently have a life or see people anymore (you know - 'notwork' people :), with my 11-hour days (damn that commute) and the whole living-in-Surrey thing. I'm also keeping things fairly quiet due to my father's cancer. The weekend at home is the time I have reserved, somehow, to cry and feel guilty and lost. I just wanted you to know that I think of you when I see chickweed and dandelions (Adrian won't eat them willingly), that upon receiving my first order of seeds, thought how you would understand why I hugged the box to my chest and giggled. I have my name in for two dwarf Rainier cherry trees, and still need to plant the four apple trees from UBC's Applefest (a Belgian fence with some pears). I hope to go to Seedy Saturday - maybe I'll see you then? I'm glad that you're sensing renewal and love and energy. I'll be starting perennials this weekend :)
*hug*

Re: Smiles and hugs

[greenstorm]

It is important to have that time reserved, I know. I'm reminded of my two hours of angst. It's also important to give yourself permission to feel those things (hard as it is to hear of a friend in that bad space).

Will you eat some chickweed for me, even if he won't?

Ranier is my favourite! I'll come help you eat them when they start producing in a big way.

Are you going to the seedy saturday at VanDusen? I really do hope to see you there.

What are you starting? I keep putting things off outdoors because I don't know where I am.

Re: Smiles and hugs

[_greenwitch_]

The cherries might take a couple of years before they really get started :) I was so happy to find out Gardenworks has 'local-grown' grafts coming in, that I didn' ask about age or price! The apples are just whips right now - that I'll have to cut back after transplant. I'm thinking about adding Bartlett and Anjou pear, and a couple of crabapples to make a cordon against my chainlink garden fence. Maybe a Transparent

Re: Smiles and hugs

[greenstorm]

I know they might. I'm not goin anywhere in particular.

I know what youy mean about garden expenses, though it seems I've shifted over to rats. I'd love a list of your seeds! We should see abotu splitting packets of things we get there, too.

I missed that mention, but I'd be happy to help you out. You're thinking weekend-daytime, is that right?

I think so, yes.

[joyousandjuicy]

I'll continue to reclaim my body. I won't use 'well, you've always let this person touch you before' as a reason to permit physical contact that I don't want. I will continue to have sex only when I want to have sex, and not because I think it's the only currency I own.

I will practice being a friend rather than a sex goddess. I won't latch in to exchanging that sort of energy with someone if it's not my intention, regardless of how innocent on paper the situation may be. Harder yet, I will try to be up-front about my interest level when it's low.

I will dance more. I will get a skipping rope, and a bed frame to which ropes can be attached.

Thank you for these reminders.