Comments | greatbearmd: Back to the grind

greatbearmd

Back to the grind

Jul 18, 2006 00:29

Today marked the return to work and hopefully a bit of normalcy for me. People at work were very understanding, they had a nice card and small collection waiting for me when I got in. I realized that I jumped the gun with regards to painting everyone there as being insensitive; it only appeared that way because so many were on vacation at the time ( Read more... )

daily life, work, healing, mom

Comments 18

sfmini July 18 2006, 05:08:55 UTC

I'm glad to see you are holding up as well as you are. You have been in my thoughts every day for the last couple of weeks. Not a damned thing I could do, but I do care. Just keep moving, eventually the pain finds it's place.

greatbearmd July 18 2006, 05:12:59 UTC

Not a damned thing I could do, but I do care.

Ah, but you contradict yourself. Just knowing that someone cares helps more than I think anyone knows. And I thank you and everyone else who cares.

orange_groves July 18 2006, 08:18:49 UTC

MASSIVE HUGS

barak July 18 2006, 05:12:38 UTC

One Day at a Time.... Thats all you can do. It was all I could do for a long time too.

Don't be afraid to talk up someone if you need to. And find something like an activity to help channel your routine aroune the grief, that helps too.

Hugs.

greatbearmd July 18 2006, 05:15:07 UTC

That's precisely how I am doing it. One day at a time.

As far as the activities, I am practically manic in finding them. A lot is getting done around here. It's a lot of little, stupid shit in many cases, but it's all part of a greater, grander scheme I suppose.

Moofy thanks to ya. :)

bc_bigguy July 18 2006, 05:25:46 UTC

What you're experiencing is normal and its one of the first stage of grief.

My uncle had lung cancer and taking care of him was very similar... I cried myself to sleep for an entire year after he passed. I missed him so much... For the first month or so.. I would think I would have to go visit him in the hospital.. and then realize he was gone....

Be patient with yourself.. and if it gets too much for you.. go for counselling.. sometimes its nice just to unload with a complete stranger...

Anyways.. You take care of yourself.. and remember to patient with yourself during this time.

furrbear July 18 2006, 05:50:31 UTC

Phil, it's OK to cry. Don't worry about holding back the tears. Let them out. Trying to suppress them makes it worse.

I've been wondering about you and I'm glad to see you back.

Be Well.

PS: Late night wiring? I can identify. After my dad's death, Dave got up at 3 AM to find me rewiring a bothroom fan that hadn't worked correctly since we moved in. Other times it would be plumbing related.

in_fin_i_ty July 18 2006, 10:08:30 UTC

*HUGGYPILE* :)