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i'm pretty much worn out. it's been a long past few days. now it's time to stay sober for a few days and work on moving this week. all the delays have really taken their toll on my resolve. whereas about three or four weeks ago, i was full-on hellbent on making this work, now i'm plagued by doubts and worries - it's too late to turn back, though.

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[janezanaddict]

You just keep your head up my friend, I PROMISE you the good times (and making of good memories) will start rolling in once you get the hell out of there. The percentage of cracker ass bitches is almost NIL here in Fayetteville. I went out last weekend and had such a great time! It is so nice to have conversations with people about stuff other than "getting fucked up, going to jail, being raped" or other stories that are pretty redundant down in South AR. It is a WHOLE different world up here my friend. I give you 2 weeks of living here and you WILL NOT want to leave...ever. As soon as you get here, get focused on finding a job. It will bring the money in AND help you meet new people up here. You are going to do JUST FINE....don't back out! Then you can have the pride of being able to say "I got away!!!!"

[miikkadoesit4me]

I think, from all I've heard, that you are definately doing the right thing. Whenever I have been in a situation where things were bad and I needed to forget about them, I put as much distance between myself and the offending person/place/thing. I didn't stop thinking about it and trying to work it out, but I did put as many obstacles in my way as I could so that I wouldn't be weak and return. Remember that you are ending the madness (doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.)

I've been meaning to post to you and say thank you for your kind words the last entry I wrote here. I really appreciated them. You are a smart and insightful fellow. I think you will be just fine.