When I Loved The Sea (Lay-centric, various Lay pairings, PG-13)

[goseum_dochi]

Title: When I Loved The Sea (And She Loved Me)
Pairing: fem!Lay/fem!Luhan, fem!Lay/fem!Sehun, fem!Lay/fem!Chen
Rating: PG-13
Words: ~2400
Warnings: instance of an asexual character having sex
Summary: Yixing knows what she's supposed to do, but eventually she learns what she wants.
Author's Note: Fill for prompt #2 from this post at the femmexo challenge

Comments

[aru_wee]

wow this is really cute ;w; i'm just sad yixing is kind of leaving seyun just like that T_T i mean, you didn't imply she would never visit her again, but in my mind it sounded like a definite departure and... im sad ;;

[latinaeinstein]

i remember promising i'd comment on this when i read the gdoc for it because i was so affected
and then i never did and i'm terribly sorry for that ;;

this is just an update to let you know that i'm still so affected

you're such a beautiful writer and this is so poignant??? and im so very in love with yixing's coming of age. also seyun as her constant????

this line, too

“I’ll be back as much as I can,” Yixing promises this time, so you don’t get lonely. So I can protect you. So you can protect me, from people who want more from me than I can give

i liked this a lot
i made a very soft noise at this line

because ahhh the awkward, stumbling navigation of life but seyun making her feel like she's okay and not wrong for this. like it's okay to say "no thank you" and we can protect each other in this world that doesn't understand us

but ahhhhhhhh junghee as the kind of final affirmation/resolution. her no longer needing protection, no longer needing to change parts of herself????

but yes this is very beautiful
after all this time

[chestexplosion]

bc of twitter just now and the fact that i was looking over the past femmexo challenges--i forgot i needed to comment on this (also guilt) bc i recced it and it resonated with me and i'm in love with it.

you capture being ace really well, and it hits me right in the chest of what growing up was like(!!)

its so pretty how Yixing growing up is really about learning what she wants, and her eventually finding Junghee as she's older It’s supposed to happen like this.

Seyun as a merperson is really really important (also childhood!), because they help Yixing come to realize what she wants and doesn't want and ahhhh

and Lu Hua too shows her what she doesn't want, but still she is someone /important/

i dunno, this is just very beautiful to me and got under my skin easily and in a good way. i think about this often and the simplicity of it too

thank you so much for writing this, you have no idea how important it is ;-;

[fairyminseok]

This is so beautiful?? I don't know why but it actually made me feel like tearing up and wow you're a beautiful writer and this is beautiful please excuse my little hedgehog I must Read EVERYTHING now

[assukko]

i read this fic about a year ago but i never left a comment. this is really beautiful and as an asexual i really appreciate this. i loved the "no thank you". it's actually really simple to say that.