tomorrow=volleybal which=hell, i may just keel over and die afterwards(not really)double sessions are a bitch, but who knmows if i can even practice i didnt get a physical(thanks mom i ask you to one thing while im gone)i guess she forgot cause all that is on her mind is her jerk of a boyfriend, im not even gonna get started on that, im most likely ( Read more... )

ok so im home and i'm happy...maybe not the happy i expected but happy none the less, i've come to the conclusion i have few friends but i except it and don't think i'd have it any other way. arizona cured me in a way, i feel i've changed and to know who my true friends really are, i'm starting to except myself more and more and know i need a ( Read more... )

i've been stabbed in the back to the biggest degree and i only cared for like an hour...then i got over it...i guess its cause im soi used to betrayal and rejection...i just started to finally trust her and i enjoyed spending time with her...i stood up for her and i helped when she needed it...how could someone do something like that to her own ( Read more... )

ok so i've` been in arizona for a week. it's beenfun and boring because i know no one..but i really don't mnd it..i've watched a ton of movies and tv but i lay out too...i never realized how hard it is for my skin to get color...god damn, i went to some baseball games and bowled and played darts and i get to ride an atv on sunday(yes ( Read more... )

off to arizona....feel free to call or email me...the emails in the last entry

yeah..so my last full week in eroc has been so incredible and last night was amazing(lol)im running on like less then 5 hours of sleep heck yes im cool ( Read more... )

(x) smoked a cigarette ( Read more... )

ok...so i guess i have a job at staples...yay and not yay at the same time, yay for the money and not yay cause who wants to work over the summer...especially someone with half a summer...oh well i'll live it's not like i have very many people to hang out with...hell i could meet new ones so thats a plus....so i guess i'll call and see when they ( Read more... )

ill be gone from e.r. in 18 days...screw all the drama....screw my messed up emotions...screw it all, i just want to have fun, i don't need love if its gonna screw me up this bad, all i need are my friends, no more sitting at home, no more being an asshole,im sorry to anyone if i hurt your feelings, my emotions have been getting the best of me...my ( Read more... )

i just really don't care anymore ( Read more... )