so had a first last night.. my first drunk call ( Read more... )

calm now ( Read more... )

what a night!

to not concentrate on the what was or the what will be, but to focus on the what is. to really start to enjoy life for the moment... while it lasts.

let's just see if I can make it through the day, through soccer, through my next class.

what a terrible weekend.

trying to find something positive, but this task seems to be getting harder by the hour.

been sleepy all day long, but soccer always helps. gets the adrenaline going, I guess. had a nice chat with leslie to end my shift at the library. tried going the whole day without meds, but ended up half-asleep the whole time. sent this e-mail to coach explaining some concerns and thoughts that i had. he was un sure of why i was so worried and ( Read more... )

hopes dashed and stepped upon once again ( Read more... )

so i spent 7 hours in the er today. not for myself, mind you. i think that was the first time that i was in an er for someone other than myself. i was the cool, calm, and collective one which was a nice change - and had incredible patience which was strange ( Read more... )

so had a complete breakdown this week, but I am doing better.

medication is still my friend. just awaiting a call from the doc.

had first class today. spanish. nothing new, yet. my spanish really improved over the summer.

wow.. like a whole class of high schoolers came in all loud saying to each other "shhhh... this is a library". what punks!

I ( Read more... )