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6th: The Revulsion of Haruhi Suzumiya

Feb 23, 2011 18:55

( explanation )

saint valentine: probably a mind-warper, and thus starts a long and dark road, what we call a 'breaking point', sokka should feel lucky :|, winry and my relationship is not awkward, stupid spoiled whore; video play set, self disgust is on high, @sokka, @leon d.s. geeste, this counts as introspective, what we're growing up to be, @rena ryuuguu, this entry depressed me to write, @winry rockbell

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[Voice | Filtered] 1/2 crytearsofjoy February 23 2011, 23:57:12 UTC

Where have you been?

[Voice | Filtered] crytearsofjoy February 23 2011, 23:59:54 UTC

[No, forget that. She doesn't care about that. What's more important is:] Where are you now?

[Voice | Filtered] godbent February 24 2011, 00:03:00 UTC

[...Concerned, she's concerned after she- after she. Haruhi feels the bile rising up in her throat again, and there's a distinct pause as she swallows, willing herself not to shut the book right now. To run away again. She wants to. She wants to with... but.]

...Ho- [it's not home] house #10.

[Her voice sounds so ragged]

[Voice | Filtered] crytearsofjoy February 24 2011, 00:06:05 UTC

[She notices. Something... something awful happened, didn't it?]

If I go there, will you still be there?

Re: [Voice | Filtered] godbent February 24 2011, 00:14:29 UTC

[Yes.

No.

Maybe?

No. No no no no no a million times no. But where can she go? Where is there to go? She's just... a dumb stupid slut and just- Forget she wants to forget everything. So after a long pause]

...Yeah. Yeah, okay.

[Voice | Filtered] crytearsofjoy February 24 2011, 00:17:16 UTC

I'll see you soon.

[ a c t i o n ] godbent February 24 2011, 00:23:35 UTC

[She doesn't answer that. Instead she wills herself to get out of her bed... it's a rough process. She's barely eaten in two days (she can't keep anything down, the minute she thinks about how wrong everything is, and she doesn't have much appetite besides) and today she never even got out of bed.

But she does... and she event gets dressed. She shuffles down the hall and when she gets to the front door she just leans up against the wall there and slides to the ground, curling up in a fetal position. There to tell Winry to come in, but willing herself to disappear more than that.

Her eyes are still somewhat bloodshot, and she generally just looks like hell]

[Akshun] crytearsofjoy February 24 2011, 00:45:08 UTC

[The blond doesn't even knock this time. Her hand goes straight for the the door knob. Will it be unlocked?

More importantly, what happened to Haruhi? Did she fall in love with someone she hated? Or did her love during the experiment treat her like crap? If that happened, then maybe she needs to make a head or two roll.]

[Akshun] godbent February 24 2011, 00:47:23 UTC

[Yeah, it's unlocked. And she's seated right here next to the door, looking at her knees. She looks up briefly by way of acknowledgment, but quickly averts her gaze. How can she even look at Winry right now?]

Hi.

[Action] crytearsofjoy February 24 2011, 01:00:48 UTC

[With a small click she shuts the door behind her. Why was the girl on the floor? She kneels down, and sits shoulder to shoulder with the other girl. When she speaks, it's soft.]

Hey, there. You look tired.

[Action] godbent February 24 2011, 01:02:51 UTC

... It's- ["fine" But it's not fine, nothing's fine. She's just a stupid slut and... She wraps her arms around her waist, willing the world to vanish. Maybe if she wishes hard enough, a Closed Space will hurry up and form]

Not bad.

[Action] crytearsofjoy February 24 2011, 01:13:47 UTC

Don't lie. You know I don't like it when you lie. [She brushes her shoulder against Haruhi's.]

You look horrible.

[Action] godbent February 24 2011, 01:17:04 UTC

[The contact makes he wince. She doesn't deserve this. She needs to hurry up and say the only thing she can say. Do the only thing that... She wants this to end and she wants to]

...I want to go home.

[Maybe that's the first time she's ever said that here. She can't remember]

[Action] crytearsofjoy February 24 2011, 01:25:08 UTC

Ha - Haruhi... [At this Winry pulls her into an embrace. Comforting, protective.]

It's hard to be here. We'd all agree it's never easy. But remember what you told me?

[Action] godbent February 24 2011, 01:29:02 UTC

[She trembles in the embrace. More than ever she feels dirty, and the bile is rising up again. Her eyes threaten to moisten. All the air in the room is gone and she feels like she could just drop dead right now. She makes no move to reciprocate or to... do anything other than tremble and try to hold together. She doesn't even make a sound of acknowledgment]

[Action] crytearsofjoy February 24 2011, 01:39:34 UTC

You told me that all the people here are strong. You have to be to keep up in this place. You did it, didn't you? For so long, too.

I think... No, I believe that you can be strong. Even if it doesn't feel like it. Haruhi, I - [well, here it is; even if this word can have many different meanings] - I love you. And I want to help you be strong. [She holds and open palm for Haruhi to place her hand. Will she take it?]

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