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6th: The Revulsion of Haruhi Suzumiya

Feb 23, 2011 18:55

( explanation )

saint valentine: probably a mind-warper, and thus starts a long and dark road, what we call a 'breaking point', sokka should feel lucky :|, winry and my relationship is not awkward, stupid spoiled whore; video play set, self disgust is on high, @sokka, @leon d.s. geeste, this counts as introspective, what we're growing up to be, @rena ryuuguu, this entry depressed me to write, @winry rockbell

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[Voice | Filtered] 1/2 crytearsofjoy February 23 2011, 23:57:12 UTC

Where have you been?

[Voice | Filtered] crytearsofjoy February 23 2011, 23:59:54 UTC

[No, forget that. She doesn't care about that. What's more important is:] Where are you now?

[Voice | Filtered] godbent February 24 2011, 00:03:00 UTC

[...Concerned, she's concerned after she- after she. Haruhi feels the bile rising up in her throat again, and there's a distinct pause as she swallows, willing herself not to shut the book right now. To run away again. She wants to. She wants to with... but.]

...Ho- [it's not home] house #10.

[Her voice sounds so ragged]

[Voice | Filtered] crytearsofjoy February 24 2011, 00:06:05 UTC

[She notices. Something... something awful happened, didn't it?]

If I go there, will you still be there?

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markofthewise February 24 2011, 00:41:01 UTC

[Sokka's been spending most of his time prepping for the draft, skimming over any messages that don't seem relevant. He nearly glosses over this one, because honestly, how often does Haruhi have anything to say about things that matter? But one of those messages is meant for him. After listening to it and taking in the shock of it all (and the utter lack of emotion in it), he listens to the other open message. He stares at the other filters for awhile, contemplating sticking his nose in to see what it's all about, but that would be a waste of time he doesn't have. Besides, it's not exactly his business.]

Uh, you're welcome. Anytime. [Wait, he told her he wasn't available to help. Oops, oh well. After a moment's pause he adds:]

Are you okay?

[He meant in general, less so because her being nice like this is so unheard of.]

godbent February 24 2011, 00:45:43 UTC

[No, no she's not. But... Sokka isn't something she can talk to about it. Really, no one is, but him and his sister in particular are some of the least applicable on her long list of people to not talk to about this. But he confirmed and... well. Seems Katara was right. There is a short sigh and-]

You need to prepare for that draft.

[She can't even bring herself to lie, but she's sure the boy has things he considers more important anyway so it's not like he'll bug her]

markofthewise February 24 2011, 00:50:25 UTC

[Well, she's got a point. And these kind of talks aren't really his thing. But he can't help that think, maybe even mistakingly so, that she would tell him this now when there was so many opportunities before.]

I've got three days still.

[In other words, yeah, he's in no rush.]

godbent February 24 2011, 00:55:53 UTC

[Nonono it's not supposed to be like this, it's not supposed to be like this. She tries to get mad, but the result fails. There's no fire. Instead, her tone just gets - well she's going for dismissive, but in practice it's just distant, with that same tired, emotionless note]

Oh, right. [what does he want to know?] Katara told me to.

[Maybe that'll shake him.]

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[voice | filtered 100%] /matches your mini-novel book_of_chaos February 24 2011, 01:28:49 UTC

[Leon fixes the filter out of habit, even before he really thinks about how Haruhi's message comes across. He's been preoccupied, definitely, with the draft and the idea of going out there lost in that massive list of residents. Every time a draft rolled around, the list seemed to get bigger, and they... They were more likely to get lost in the fray. Or that was his fear.

He had noticed, distantly, that Haruhi hadn't been in the best of moods following the experiment. Few of them were. He still didn't know what to feel about Yuzu, and he hadn't gotten up the nerve to talk to her. But Haruhi was Haruhi, and for every emotional outburst Haruki had ever gone through, it felt like things would just be exponentially worse for her. Because she'd already been dealt a cruddy blow ending up with people who didn't remember things as she did. Because she wanted to tell him something, and she was holding herself back--and he didn't know why ( ... )

[voice | filtered 100%] this is a tragic series godbent February 24 2011, 01:34:08 UTC

[The silence, oh the silence. Haruhi sees the reply come in, sees the little picture of Leon and sees what she thinks is a contemplate face, or an upset one... it's hard to tell from a little picture. But she stares at it - willing, hoping he'll understand. Wanting him to tell her to shut up and stop. Wishing that he could somehow fix things, like he did when Usagi died. But that's not fair, of course it's not fair. He was just there, the last one. He wasn't the first, he wasn't the most important, probably, he was just the last.

And then, some parts of her - more of her than she expected, based on yesterday - wish the opposite. Because if he and the others don't stop her, who can? She can erase this world. Get rid of everything. And so what if it's not perfect? So what if the Malnosso ruin it yet again or if she isn't potent enough to save everyone- anything, anything is better than this.

She swallows when his voice finally comes through. Licking her lips, she presses for a reply]

Yeah, of course.

[voice | filtered 100%] book_of_chaos February 24 2011, 01:55:54 UTC

[He can feel his face twisting at the short reply. He feels numb, depressed, angry, and upset all at the same time. He's thinking too much. Reading into things she isn't saying. Reading into the things she is saying--to other people. He knows it's stupid, and he knows it's not her fault.

It was his, for just ... thinking too much.

His voice is a little rough as he exhales and manages to speak.]

You'd tell me if something was wrong, right?

[voice | filtered 100%] godbent February 24 2011, 01:57:48 UTC

I... [...] would.

[...]

Something is- ...nothing's right, right now.

[She's surprised she could even say that]

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[voice/filter] flower_of_hell February 24 2011, 02:35:24 UTC

[Much as Rena enjoyed standing by and watching the vast majority of Luceti fall madly in love with each other, it's things like this that make her remember experiments like that are the worst ones of them all.

It's was frightening, looking back and realizing you had no control over yourself. Realizing that it felt so real.]

...Okay.

[voice/filter] godbent February 24 2011, 02:36:44 UTC

["Who were you with?"

"Keiichi-"

"I'm sorry-"]

...Good.

[voice/filter] flower_of_hell February 24 2011, 02:43:27 UTC

[She has a rough idea of what happened, considering the past week, but most of it is merely speculation. Rena certainly doesn't know how serious or deep it had gotten for the three of them.

The important thing, is making sure Haruhi will be all right.]

Is there anything you need me to do? Rena wouldn't mind.

1/2 godbent February 24 2011, 02:51:14 UTC

[Damn it. Damn it, Rena. Why do you have to be like this?]

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