Comments | goat_fetus: Why can't I be superhuman?

goat_fetus

Why can't I be superhuman?

Jul 27, 2006 03:28

The thought that I'm just another idiotic fuck-up doomed to make the same mistakes endlessly while completely oblivious to what I'm doing wrong makes me want to break down and cry. I don't want to be like all the rest. I don't want to be so weak. Have all these years of introspection really done me any good, or have I just tricked myself into ( Read more... )

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the_kimmit July 27 2006, 20:30:27 UTC

not to be mean, but introspection isn't the same thing as experience, and experience in serious, long termish relationships is something you lack. yet, they are the relationships (v. friendships etc) that really teach you whole new sides or parts of yourself (think about it..you're probably way more open and intimate with your girl than with craig or john haha) just go with the flow and when shit happens try to figure out why or what you could do to stop it from happening again. or if you start to feel that something is going to happen that you can control the outcome of in your own way, do it, dont let the same stuff happen over and over and not learn from it.

goat_fetus July 28 2006, 00:48:41 UTC

Well to be honest, I'm as open with my closest friends as I possibly could be, especially John Pomeroy. I don't really keep any secrets and I'm glad I don't have to. The problem is that there are things that I don't know how to control, and if I did, I would do everything in my grasp to avoid a bad outcome. I don't want to let myself be what I hate.

It's this that really bothers me - when I was younger, girls wouldn't give me the time of day. That I tend to attract women now is still a fairly new thing to me. I would always see guys in relationships treating the girls like shit and I would hate them for it. Inside I felt that if I were in their situation, I would be the greatest boyfriend I possibly could and would give everything to the girl.

Now I'm in a relationship with someone who I love more than anyone and I couldn't be more happy with, and I feel like just another asshole. It kills me.

its kim.. anonymous July 28 2006, 11:40:10 UTC

thats what i mean though, if john or someone had a gallery opening...you might be there, but chances are it wouldnt mean as much to him for YOU specifically to be there as it would to your gf. its a different relationship with different expectations than a friendship. i know you were like that, think of the time i was with aj and you hated him cause he was a douchebag...shit happens though but look at the relationship i have now...i learned my lessons from aj and moved on. i guess im just using that example to reiterate that it is different and that you can only be good at it by having some relationships and really learning from the mistakes. im sorry you're feeling down. you can call me anytime to talk about stuff you know.

Re: its kim.. goat_fetus July 28 2006, 16:02:35 UTC

Eh, I'm alright now, actually. I talked to Alaina and she was just acting crazy because of all the stress and stuff. Of course I know it's a different relationship as well. I was just trying to state that I'm a very open person.

Re: its kim.. the_kimmit July 28 2006, 20:52:50 UTC

yea you open youre legs to everyone...whore. hahahaha.

Re: its kim.. goat_fetus July 29 2006, 00:27:27 UTC

Don't act like you don't like it.

kissmedeadlyxxx July 29 2006, 14:29:30 UTC

Oh god. this turned sexual in no time . . . . . . . . .

goat_fetus July 29 2006, 16:20:39 UTC

Don't act like you don't like it.