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[gnome003]

I can't believe how much things have changed (in toronto) since I've been here, which really hasn't been that long. It frustrates me not being able to really be there for the friends that are going through tough times, to the point where I feel selfish, as though I abandoned everyone. 
and I hate this stupid time difference! fuck!

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[arson_black]

It would be selfish of us to keep you where we wanted you like a commodity. You had to get away and try something different. It was a healthy decision, not a selfish one at all.

And plus, when you come back from France, all your experiences will make you more equipped to deal with our problems again ♥

See you in a few weeks :D

[gnome003]

Oh Gint. Your optimism makes me smile and be at ease, but not for long I'm afraid. I can't wait to talk to you face to face.. I had a momentary freak-out/breakdown a few minutes ago and wanted so badly to call you but seeing as you're already uncomfortable on the phone, I didn't think a sobbing incoherent me would help.
Anyway, as they say in french
vivement la fin d'octobre!

[arson_black]

Ohhhh now I feel bad. I feel like I should have been more supportive.
I just can't talk on the phone easily. ahusfhjadskghsgdshg <-- I haven't done that in a while.
When I told my parents I might want to go to France next year for school, they were all "get ready to feel isolated" which might be what you're thinking or feeling.
I'm looking forward to the visit. I hope doesn't ressurect my grief from your last goodbye. But then again, it's never really 'Aurevoir', it's more 'À bientôt'

[gnome003]

No no, don't worry about it. I'm sure one night during my visit it'll all come back to me and you can support me then :)
Oh yeah your parents are soo right. But you're very social, and you won't have an over-protective dad around who won't let you go out at night. Geez he doesn't even want me to smoke cigarettes when I go out, because it'll attract psychos who'll kill me if I don't give them smokes or money. ugh.

You're right. It is à bientôt. I know I'll be devastated (well, even more so than the first time) 'cause I won't be home for another 9 months after that. Maybe if my visit ends badly I won't be so sad. So, be a dick? lol actually no please don't.

[cottonblend]

EMILY thank GOD I read this, I GOT A JOB AND NOW I CAN PAY FOR A FUCKING PASSPORT!!! And I can get CHEAP airlfare.. AHHHH!! I couldn't remember for the LIFE of me what I said I'd buy with my first paycheque. Like before I got a job I know I was like " I need to buy a ______ first when I get a job" And now I remember it was a passport. Like I swore to myself. I'll totally visit you even if it's just for like a few days or something I'll still come. So don't feel bad, it's totally not selfish of you to have taken on a huge challenge in your life like this. If anything, feel proud of where you are and like how accomplished all of this will make you feel in the end.
can't wait to see you for real
-nicole :)

[gnome003]

nicole!! omg that'd be sooo great please do it! :D
where do you work now? i saw sherway from your screen names but what do you doo?
aw i'm excited to see you in just a few weeks. and i'll be visiting see too, so.. SEE YOU SOON ;)

[cottonblend]

it's woodbine centre lol... i'm one of the people at the like.. mall info desk haha