Adommy Fanfic: Can't help falling for you 8/?

Feb 20, 2011 15:50

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Chapter eight


“I think we have some paps on us.” Adams voice sounds nerved. He was really not happy to be seen with Sauli. All those speculations about them are really annoying. It doesn’t make things easier when they doesn’t have the freedom to find out what they are or what they could be. “I don’t care, honey!” Sauli tries to smile. “But I do! I just want to be with you without the eyes of the fucking press on us. I can’t believe that they are more interested in who I’m dating then in what I’m doing.” Adam is really angry now. And Sauli looks sad. “Sorry, I just wanted to see you, Adam. But if you…” Adam interrupts him. “Stop! This is not your fault, it’s somehow mine. I just forgot that I can’t go in the public with you without beeing seen. Sorry about this. I am really happy to see you, I just don’t want them to be around.”

Sauli sighs. “We could go to my hotel room and get some food from room service and just stay there. Look, I just want to spend some time with you. We don’t have to go out. We can just… I don’t know. Maybe watch a movie?” Sauli is smiling. And Adam feels stupid. This should be a day he enjoys and now he is angry because of some paps. “You are right. Let us go to the hotel.” He takes Saulis hand. “I am really sorry for being so bitchy. I will make it up, I promise.” And he gives Sauli a seductive look before they leave the café.

“So what do you want to see?” Sauli closes the door behind them. But Adam doesn’t answer. He just turns around and takes Sauli in his arms. And kisses him. He wanted to do this since he came to San Francisco. But he couldn’t until yet. And Sauli moans in his mouth and kisses back. And they stay like this for a while. Then Adam pulls away and looks at Sauli. “Hi. Nice to see you. I have been missing you.” And he gives Sauli a peck on his lips. And Sauli smiles back at Adam. “Hi. I am happy too.” And they kiss again. And Adam feels really good.

Then they ordner food and sit down on the couch. Some movie is flickering on the screen, but they don’t really care. They enjoy their reunion and kiss and talk. And it’s just easy and nice and Adam forgets about the paps. Then they eat and they talk. Everything seems to be ok and Adam likes it that way.

After a while they are making out on the couch. Their kisses are starting to get hotter and their tongues are fighting while they kiss. Clothes are taken within minutes and they are almost naked. Adam is kissing over Saulis neck and stroking over his body. And Sauli moans and is holding onto Adam. They move against each other, feeling their hardness between them. And Adam pulls away to look at Sauli. “You are so hot like this. Do you know that?” Sauli smiles and they kiss. But when Saulis hands are wandering down to Adams underwear Adam stops him. “Sorry, but I don’t want to rush things like that.” And Sauli looks up in Adams eyes. “It’s ok, we have time.” He kisses Adam and giggles. Adam looks at him and there is something in Saulis eyes, he can’t define.

“What do you think, honey?” The moment the question is out of his mouth, Adam regrets it. Sauli looks deep in Adams eyes and strokes over his cheek. Then he cupps Adams face and says. “I am thinking about how much I already do love you.” And Adam feels bad, because he didn’t expect this and he can’t say it back. So he kisses Sauli. And he doesn’t answer, he just kisses him. And Sauli doesn’t seem to care about this, because he doesn’t say anything. And they don’t talk about it when they go to bed and neither when they say goodbye the next day. They are just holding each other in the hotel room and they kiss. And then Adam leaves. And when he sits in the cab to airport he can’t believe how relieved he is. And this is such a wrong feeling in so many ways.

Then he is back in LA. And he is feeling awful. Sauli told him that he is in love with him and he just couldn’t answer. And now this confession is standing between them and he has to find out how to get over that. And he has to talk with somebody. His first thought is to call Tommy, but something inside of him is telling him that this is a wrong idea. He doesn’t even know why, but he gets the feeling that he can’t speak about this with Tommy. And this is a strange thought because Tommy is like his best friend. And they already talked about Sauli. And Tommy was ok with this. But still…

Adam calls Brad and they make an appointment to meet in the evening.

Adam is somehow nervous and doesn’t know why. He can’t wait until Brad is here. And then he just spits out: “Sauli told me he is in love with me.” Brad raises his eyebrow. “Hello to you too. I am happy to see you. How was your day?” Adam blushes slightly. “Sorry. I am just… it had to get out before I choke on it. But you are right, come in, take a seat. And I am also happy to see you.” And he gives Brad a small hug. And Brad is grinning while he sits down on Adams couch. “I was joking, it’s ok. You are just a little excited. So, is it good or bad?” Adam shrugs. “Don’t know.” Brad keeps his eyes on Adam. “And what did you say?” Adam sighs and sits down on the other side of the couch. “Nothing.” “Ok, so his confession was not good. And how are things now?” Adam leans back in the couch. “I don’t know. We didn’t talk about it. It was somehow strange. He told me that he loves me and then I was acting like nothing happened.” Adam looks on the ceiling.

“This is not good but maybe not as bad as it seems. I mean he didn’t act angry or something?” Adam shakes his head. “So maybe he just wanted to say it without getting an answer.” Brad doesn’t sound like he would mean it. Because honestly who is saying something like that without expecting an answer? And Adam knows that Brad is just trying to comfort him. “I don’t think so. I mean, we haven’t seen each other for a cupple of days. And I am really enjoying beeing with him, but it’s too early for anything that serious. And it’s somehow annoying me that he had to say this now. He should have waited, until I will be ready. I mean, this is too early. Fuck!” Adam is upset. “It was so easy between us and now it’s not. Now I am forced to think about what I feel.” Brad tries to get in eyecontact with Adam while Adam is looking around the room. “Adam, calm down. Look at me.” And then Adam does it. “So, you are not in love with Sauli?” Adam shrugs again “Not yet. I mean, I like him and I could fall for him. But right now, no I am not in love.”

Brad shakes his head. “Is this here about the thing we talked some weeks ago?” Adam is confused. “Are you acting like this because of Tommy?” And Adams eyes are wandering back to the ceiling. “No, this is not about Tommy. You know Tommy is straight. There is no chance for us.” “And so you decided to take a chance on this cute gay guy to forget the cute straight guy?” Adam looks back to Brad. “When you say it like that it sounds like I am an asshole.” Brad rolls his eyes. “Honey, you ARE an asshole. Sorry, but it’s true. You have a crush on your straight best friend. Did you really think it would be a smart idea to date Sauli to forget about Tommy? Very grown-up. You can’t heal your broken heart by breaking someone elses heart. This is not right and you know that. And you fucking know, that Sauli is a sweetheart and you knew he would fall for you.” Brad is angry. And Adam knows he is right. And he has no clue what to do now. “You have to fix it, Adam. You know that. Damn!”

But then he sees tears in Adams eyes. He gets up and takes Adam in an embrace. “It’s ok, honey. It’s ok. You just have to talk things out with Sauli. You like him, so take a chance and fix it or let him go.” And he kisses Adams forehead. And he is holding Adam for a while in his arms.

lambliff, romance, adommy, adam/tommy, hurt

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