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Don’t wake up!
Title: Don’t wake up
Type: Romance
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Adam/Tommy
Words: about 950 (this chapter)
Warnings: a bit of angst, lot of M/M
Disclaimer: it's just my imagination, I don't own the guys, even if I really would like to ;-) But I own the story. Don’t tweet this to any of the persons I am just borrowing here.
Summary: What happens when Adam and Tommy wake up in one bed?
Chapter 9
Adam was so hoping that Tommy doesn’t want to go back to being just friends. But he had to offer this option. Because he cared so much for Tommy. He would rather go on being just friends than trying to be more and hurting Tommy. He was afraid that Tommy wasn’t ready for it. He was afraid because if Tommy would agree to be more without being ready it would break him and tear them apart. He wanted Tommy to really want him. He knew that there was a huge pressure as he said to Tommy that he could only have all or nothing. But Adam was that kind of guy. He couldn’t live with a taste of something, he wanted all. And that was what he wanted to give. He wanted to give Tommy all. And be everthing for him. Nothing less.
His heart was breaking a little as Tommy asked him if they could go back. And he knew that his answer was only partly true. “We would maybe need some time to get over the idea of being more. But I think we could get back. After a while. After healing. After forgetting.“ The truth was that Adam didn’t believe he could go back without an irreparable loss. For sure he would try, because he wanted Tommy in his life. But he felt like he crossed a line which didn’t allow him to go back without losing his soul. So he had to hope that Tommy wouldn’t want to go back.
And then Adams world stopped and it started to turn around at the same time. He felt like he would explode and concurrent as all his pieces were putting together in a way they never did fit better. Perfectly. Tommys confession made him weak and strong and he wanted to cry and laugh and jump and just lay down on Tommys side. Hearing Tommy say “But, I think that going back is not the right direction for us.” was like touching heaven. And then Tommy went on and Adams senses were about to kill him. And he could really feel as the time stopped as Tommy pulled him closer touching his chin telling “Yes. Yes I want to be with you.”
Adam could see himself sitting behind Tommy while Tommys body was partly turned in his diraction. He saw himself shiver under Tommys touch while his soul was dancing around them and watching them. He could feel his own answer building in his body and creeping through his veins towards his lips. He felt like he would choke while the words crowled up his throat into his mouth. It seemed like it took him forever to react. Suddenly he could feel the answer on his tongue and he opend his lips to let it out. And even though he thought it would be a loud and strong answer he just whispered against Tommys face. But his words were clear: ”Tommy, I want this too, so fucking much! I want to be with you!”
And Tommy smiled and this smile was even more worth then the words Adam heard before. Because this smile was pure affection. And Tommy turned completely around to face Adam. Adam leaned against the head of the bed and Tommy was sitting with crossed legs in front of him. They just looked at each other. And knowing that there was need to hurry and no expectations which wouldn’t be fulfilled made the whole situation just nice. The pain was washed away, even if some fears stayed. But they backed away from the pure light of love and faith and hid in the darkest corner of Tommys heart.
And Tommy reached out and took Adams hands. He kissed every finger, then traced the lines on Adams hand with his mouth. Then he let one of Adams hands go and began to kiss up the left arm. First he started to lick around Adams wrist. Slowly and gently. He could feel the pulse react on him. And he smiled against the skin. Then his tongue went on and he left a wet trace up to Adams elbow and further over his upper arm to his shoulder. He left whispered kisses all over Adams shoulder and then he bit slightly along his collarbone right to the other shoulder. Then he traced the right arm down to the wrist, over Adams tattoos and then he left a kiss in Adams right palm.
Adam was under fire and it was hard to just stay calm and let Tommy work his magic. And every piece that was touched by Tommys lips was burning alive. He felt like every kiss would awake something under his skin. Something that started to shake his body and he could feel the trembling all over. And then Tommy kissed his right palm and took both his hands and lanced their fingers in front of his chest. And while he was doing this he looked Adam in the eyes and Adam looked back. And then Tommys hands just let his hands go and he cupped Adams face. And Adams hands fell down on Tommys arms.
Tommy stroked Adams hair out of his face and then his face moved closer. Bit by bit. Slowly. But without hesitation. It was almost painful that Tommy was moving so slowly, but Adam resisted the urge to rush. He was waiting. And Tommys breath carressed his lips long before his lips touched Adams lips. And before they met, Tommy looked once again up into Adams eyes ans then back down on his lips. With a breathy “I love you” Tommy closed the distance between them and as their lips finally met, Adam knew, he has never been kissed before in his entire life.