Fic: Don't wake up 5/18
Adam was shocked and speechless. Did Tommy just admit that he would feel something for him? Does this mean they could be more than friends? Adams mind was spinning around questions and possible consequences. He was touched by the confession of Tommy and feelings started to overfload him. He thought he would lose his mind knowing that there is a slight possibility to be with Tommy.
He looked at Tommy with disbelief and somehow just amazed. This beautiful man in front of me can feel ME! This is like a dream! It felt so right and he wanted to cry. He pulled Tommy closer to feel him, to feel his body, to feel Tommy. Tommy put his arms around Adams neck. And the feeling of belonging was so strong that Adam could feel tears forming in his eyes. But through the tears he could see that Tommy was getting unsecure. I have to say something! Tommy was waiting for an answer and he was obviously afraid of what the answer would be.
Adam decided he had the be honest and to take the risk of being rejected. So he took a deep breath, looked Tommy deep in the eyes and said:
“I feel you too, Tommy. To be honest right now I can’t feel anything else but you.”
And in this moment he felt like a weight of tones of stones was lifted from his shoulders. He felt freed and for one second he didn’t really care what Tommys reaction would be. He was happy about the possibility to just let it out. The feelings were eating on him since weeks, maybe even since months. And now he could just look at Tommy and wait what would happen. And he couldn’t stop himself from smiling.
Tommy hold still. He wasn’t able to move and almost too frozen to breathe. He was confused about the feelings he had towards Adam and he was not sure if they were good or not. But his body didn’t have any doubts and was getting bolder. His hands left Adams neck and they were running down Adams back and then under Adams shirt. And much to his surprise he found that the feeling of Adams bare skin calmed him down. And he wanted more of that calming feeling. So he pulled Adams shirt over Adams head and over his arms. Then he took his own shirt off. And finally he pulled himself close to Adams naked chest. And as he could feel his skin on Adams skin and as his heart was right on Adams heart, he forgot the pain and felt just nice. He laid his head on Adams shoulder and closed his eyes.
Adams breath stopped as Tommy pulled his hands under his shirt. It was like Tommy had lighten a fire on his skin. And he felt hot and cold at the same time. And it was such a good feeling that it hurt just to hold on and to feel it. But before he could get used to that feeling Tommy pulled his shirt over his head and then he saw that Tommy took his shirt off and that was the moment he almost got completely lost. And then Tommys skin was on his skin and he felt like he would be able to melt into Tommy right now. His skin was hungry for this and his body cried for more. He wanted more. But he also didn’t want to scare Tommy. So he watched Tommy as he laid his head on his shoulder. And he really wanted to wait and let Tommy take the next step. But he failed. He failed badly.
Tommy was so calm and so happy on Adams shoulder. He was smelling Adam and he was feeling his body heat and he was just ... complete. And then he could feel Adams hands on his shoulders. And Adam was pulling him up. And he couldn’t do anything else as to let it happen. And then he opened his eyes. And Adams face was right in front of him. And while he asked himself what he should do next, Adam just kissed him on his lips.