sometimes i figure something out, and even if i'm not going to act on my findings immediately i know that i will soon and i feel better. after the fest i might chill out with the booze and whatnot for a little while. just because i am always really productive when i'm not so concerned with...well...booze and whatnot.

last night was cool. allison and i beat the shit out of each other. if you think i'm kidding, well, you're wrong. i love whiskey and i love green cup. that place is like the ideal place to hang out and see/play shows in every way. i'm in a good mood, and i think i might be playing at cave9 by myself tomorrow if all goes according to plan. more

+/-seeing japanther tonight ( Read more... )

i've been told more than once that i don't question myself(my behavior, decisions, etc.) very often and i can't disagree with that. but recently i have, and i've come to realize that i know a lot of people who don't question themselves. it's hard to look at things from every angle, but it sounds fucking asinine to make bold, dogmatic statements ( Read more... )

mary stephens, man. she always has good ideas and when you have a shitty day she'll show up with a bottle of aristocrat and not let you talk too much about it and laugh at your jokes and its just what you needed ( Read more... )

i hate my brain and the fact that i ignore it sometimes. i got knocked off the cerebral high horse. i am 19, vulnerable, and fucking stupid. just like everybody is.

Some dull morning we were wearing sheets ( Read more... )

i really miss kayhan right now. and tuscaloosa kind of feels like hell on earth. i complain so much these days, i hear myself talking to people and the things that come out of my mouth would make me want to hit me. i guess i can't help myself.

if i ever get married i want it to be to someone like kurt cobain. elusive, suicidal, and a genius. tonight was one of those nights though.

i'm like a prisoner in this situation i created. i hate being in school, i kind of hate being in tuscaloosa, and i really hate bending to the volition of everyone around me. i guess that's why i've been avoiding everyone i know except allison and mary. and danny too, but he's really far away ( Read more... )