Paper Cranes 16/??
Title: Paper Cranes 16/??(Sequel to Paper Cuts)
Author: giveitupjessica
Rating: PG-NC-17 (depending on the chapter)
Pairings: 2min, onkey, jazzhyun (read paper cuts to know about this one), taemin/sulli
Genre: AU, romance, comedy, pregnancy, angst
Summary: Lee Taemin was everything Minho wanted in a lover. He was the boy he wanted to come home to. The kind of boy that he never wanted to leave. The kind of boy that makes Minho want to give him everything. And finally it seemed like that he was finally going to get what he wanted. Taemin was breaking up with Sulli to be with him. He couldn't be happier. But just how long will their happiness last? Minho knew the kind of storm that would brew once Taemin broke up with Sulli, but he didn't care. He was going to stay by Taemin, no matter what. As long as the younger's heart was beating next to his, he didn't care. (sorry I suck at summaries)
A/N: So I've decided to speed things up because I really want to get to the good stuff. Haha. Sorry for this chapter though. I'm sure you're all going to hate me at the end of it all, but trust me... it's all for the best. I gotta make this happen so I can write what I plan on writing. So please don't hate me too much. *does Heechul bow* On another note altogether. I got my special edition JYJ album in the mail today. WOO!!!!
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
“DADDY!” I yell as I enter his office. He’s sitting at his desk looking over papers.
“Sulli, what have I told you about bothering me at work?” he asks, eyes never leaving his desk.
“But Daddy, I’m your baby girl,” I whine.
“Yes, but I’m at work and I need to focus on work.”
“But.”
“Just tell me what you want and be on your way.”
“I came to talk about Taemin,” I say and sit down in the chair in front of his desk.
He lets out a sigh and looks up at me, “I told you that I’m working on it Sulli.”
“But you’re taking so long. You’ve never taken this long to give me what I want,” I pout and cross my arms in front of my chest, “I miss him Daddy. I want him now!”
“He’s a person Sulli not a purse. It’ll take some time.”
“Well you have until the end of the week.”
“Are you giving me a deadline?”
“Yes. I want him back and I want him back NOW!”
“You want him that badly?”
“Yes. I’ve never wanted anything so badly in my life,” I smirk to myself when I think of how heart broken Taemin will be.
“Well I have a meeting with his father today. I’ll see what I can do.”
“Don’t see what you can do, make it happen.”
“How did you grow up to be so demanding?”
“Because you spoil me.”
“That I do. I really should say ‘no’ to you.”
“That’s not going to happen and you know it Daddy.”
“Is that all you wanted to talk about Sulli?”
“Yes.”
“Well like I said, I’ll talk to his father when I see him.”
“Make it happen Daddy. I know you can,” I smile sweetly at him before making my way over to him and placing a kiss on his cheek, “I’ll see you later. Love you!”
“Love you too. Don’t slam the door on your way out!” he yells just as I slam the door while skipping out the office. It was only a matter of time before I had Taemin’s broken heart in the palm of my hand.
*~*
“What do you want to do now baby?” I ask her as we finally settle into our hotel room after a long day of sight seeing. My brother definitely did a good job in booking this little vacation for us. This room was amazing. It had a huge bed, which we broke in the minute we got here, the bathroom had a tub with jets, and the view of the ocean was breath-taking. It was just what we needed.
“I don’t know. Let’s just rest a little before dinner,” she says to me and I hold out my arms for her to come and sit in my lap. She gives me a smile and does just that. I hold her close to me and inhale the scent of her hair. White gummi bears.
“That sounds good to me,” she nuzzles her body closer to mine and I hold her tighter.
“Did you thank your brother for me?”
“I thanked him for the both of us,” my hand is on the small bump on her belly. I gently rub it and smile. Our baby was growing wonderfully, healthy at every check up so far. I couldn’t wait to find out whether it was a boy or girl. I want a girl.
“I’m glad that we’re here.”
“Me too baby. Me too. Get some rest now okay? We had a busy day. No doubt you and our baby are tired.”
“Okay.”
I watch her eyes close and enjoy the feel of her in my arms. I feel like I haven’t held her like this in forever. I didn’t realize just how much I missed her until we left for vacation. I’ve been so busy trying to please my father so he would leave me the fuck alone, that I’ve been neglecting her. I was too busy being the good, obedient son that I forgot to be her boyfriend. But I was going to make it all up to her on this trip. And I started the moment we left. I did nothing, but stay by her side. She complained a lot saying that I was suffocating her, but I didn’t care. I wanted to make it clear that she was more important to me than anything else.
It takes a few minutes, but I finally hear her breathing even out and I look down to confirm that she’s fallen asleep. I carefully stand up and walk over to the bed, carrying her bridal style, trying to hold back my smile. I place her on the bed gently and am about to climb into bed as well when my phone goes off. I look down at her to make sure she’s still asleep before I walk over to the table and grab it. It’s my brother.
“Hello?” I say, bringing the phone up to my ear.
“Dad’s on his way.”
“What?!”
“Dad’s on his way.”
“What do you mean he’s on his way?”
“What don’t you understand?”
“Why is he coming?”
“He apparently has something urgent to tell you.”
“And you told him where I was?”
“No, I told him I sent you to Jeju Island for business, he found out where you were on his own.”
“When did he leave?”
“Not too long ago.”
“How much time do I have?”
“Couple hours?”
“Shit.”
“I tried to convince him to wait until you came back in a couple days, but he said it couldn’t wait that he had to talk to you now.”
“Double shit.”
“I tried.”
“I know and you were the one who set this up so I can’t be mad at you. Thanks again hyung. For everything.”
“You’re welcome.”
“Fuck. What am I going to do though?”
“I don’t know. But I wanted to warn you before he was knocking on your hotel door.”
“Thanks.”
“No problem. I gotta go now. I have some contracts I need to go over.”
“Okay. Don’t work too hard.”
“I’ll try not to. Try to be safe.”
“I’ll try.”
“Bye.”
“Bye.”
FUCK!
*~*
“So it’s back on then?” I say solemnly into the phone.
“I’m sorry son. I tried my best.”
“I know appa.”
“I wish I didn’t have to ask you to do this.”
“I know appa.”
“But your mother and I worked too hard on this company to let him take it down.”
“I know appa.”
“Can you say anything else besides ‘I know appa?’”
I silently wipe away the tears that are falling down my cheeks, “I don’t know what else to say.”
“Taeminnie, you know I wouldn’t be asking you to do this if there was another way right?”
“Yeah.”
“Don’t worry though, your umma and I will keep trying to figure out a way to get you out of his. Like she said before, we can’t steal your happiness away from you. As you parents we want nothing more than for you to be happy. But right now we feel like we’re failing as your parents because we’re the ones who are taking away your happiness.”
“Appa, don’t be like this. I know why I have to do this and as your son I can’t be selfish. I can’t just do things for me. I have to think about you and umma as well. I just wish I didn’t have to give up the one thing that I can’t live without.”
“You’re breaking my heart saying these things son.”
“I don’t mean to, I’m just…” I have no idea how to finish the sentence as more tears fall from my eyes. I was glad that Minho was at practice and I had the apartment to myself for the next few hours. I didn’t want him to see me like this. I didn’t want to worry him.
“Look, if you can keep it a secret. You two can still date. Just you’ll have to pretend to be Sulli’s fiancé in public.”
“I thought about that. I thought long and hard about it. I can’t ask Minho to do that. We already did the secret dating while I was still engaged to Sulli before.”
“What?”
“Appa, now’s not the time for me to explain that. Just know that I’ve been with Minho longer than you think. I can’t ask him to go back to that though. I can’t ask him to hide our relationship after we were just freed to be open about it. It wouldn’t feel right. I’d feel guilty.”
“So you’d rather not have him at all?”
“I…” I want to say ‘no’, but I can’t. I can’t be selfish and tell my dad that I don’t want to be without Minho, that I don’t want to hide how much I love him, that I don’t want to with Sulli whether real or pretend.
“Taeminnie. I want you to think long and hard about this. I want you to think about just how much you love him. If you can’t be without him. We’ll understand. Your umma and I will be able to get through this.”
“No, you’re my parents. You’re more important to me.”
“Are you sure?”
Again, I want to say ‘no’, but can’t find the strength to do so. I needed Minho as much as I needed my parents.
“Taeminnie,” my dad’s voice is low and gentle, “You can be honest with me.”
“I wish I didn’t have to choose,” is the safest thing for me to say.
“I wish I didn’t have to make you choose.”
“But you’re my parents. If it weren’t for you two, I wouldn’t even be here today.”
“I promise, we’ll find a way around this soon.”
“I know appa.”
“I love you son.”
“I love you too appa.”
“I’ll talk to you soon?”
“Yeah.”
“Oh and Taeminnie,” my dad says just as I’m about to end the call.
“Yeah?”
“We’re sorry, we hope you can find it in your heart to forgive us one day.”
“I know appa,” and with that I push the end button and curl up in a ball on the bed. I pull Minho’s pillow towards my chest and inhale his scent. This doesn’t help as the tears begin to fall at lightning speed. I don’t bother to wipe them away and just let them pool on the pillow.
My heart was officially broken and beyond repair at this point. I reach over and grab the remote for the stereo. I needed something to drown out my sobs. Listening to them made everything too real in my head and more importantly in my heart. I faintly hear music begin to play and drop the remote on the bed. The first few songs are upbeat and happy, normally I would be up and dancing, but I don’t have the energy. I pull my knees into my chest in hopes of stopping the pain that’s been building up in it.
Cherish - Moment In Time
Found at: FilesTube
A/N: Please play the song. It will go really well with the rest of the chapter.
I hear a familiar opening of a song and hold my breath. I knew exactly which song that was just starting. I knew that I should have grabbed the remote and turned off the stereo or at least changed the song, but I didn’t have the energy to. I was also afraid that if I let go of my legs that I would completely break and there would be no going back. My tears that had stopped just moments before were back again. This time they felt bigger and heavier as the song progressed. I listened to each and every word as I continue to cry.
I really ain’t missing you
I’d rather be kissing you
Don’t know what I would do
If I couldn’t make love to you
Over, and over, and over I wish
That I could live this moment in time
*~*
I stare at her in shock. I can’t believe the words that escaped her beautiful mouth. The very mouth that I just kissed and kissed me back just hours ago. I turn my attention to the door, the door that my father just left through. The argument we just had playing over and over in my mind.
“What. What did you just say?”
“Let’s end this.”
I still can’t grasp the words as they float around me for a second time. This can’t be happening. This seriously cannot be happening. This is some weird, cruel, fucked up dream that my mind is making up. It had to be. There was no other explanation. This wouldn’t, couldn’t, happen in real life. This was all just a dream.
“Jazzy,” I say shakily, “You can’t be serious. Tell me you’re joking.”
“I’m not joking,” she says with a straight face.
“Then tell me this is a nightmare and wake me up.”
“You’re not sleeping Jjongie.”
“Why are you doing this?”
She looks at the door and I follow her gaze to the door again, “You’ve got to be shitting me! Because of my asshole of my father? Jazzy, you can’t break up with me because of him. You can’t! I won’t let you.”
“I can’t keep fighting him Jjongie.”
“You don’t have to. I’ll fight him for the both of us. Just don’t break up with me.”
“I… I can’t. I can’t put you through that. Through this. I can’t keep putting you through this. I’m not worth it.”
“You are,” I rush over to her and gather her in my arms, “You’re worth it all and then some. You and our baby are worth it. I will go down fighting if I have to.”
“I don’t want it to come to that. And I’m scared that it will happen sooner rather than later if we stay together. So let’s just end this here and now after our lovely vacation together. Let’s end it while we still have beautiful memories in our heads and hearts,” she slowly backs away from me and I feel my heart going with her. This seriously could not be happening.
“Jazzy. Baby, please. Don’t do this to us. To our baby.”
“I still want you to be a part of our baby’s life. Just, not mine.”
“Don’t,” I step to her again and wrap my arms around her, “Don’t talk anymore. Take it all back please. Just take it all back.”
“I wish I could. We can’t keep this up forever Jjongie. Your appa is strong than the both of us. He’s already created a hole within us in such a short period of time. I don’t want him to ruin us even more.”
“He won’t. I won’t let him. Just stay with me okay?”
“As much as I want nothing more than to stay with you, I can’t.”
I tighten my grip on her small waist as I realize that she’s made up her mind. Knowing Jazzy, as stubborn as she is, there’s nothing I can say to change her mind. She’s breaking up with me and I can’t do anything about it. If I could I’d hold her forever, never letting go just so she can’t leave me.
I pull back and stare at her, “Then just stay with me for one more night.”
“I…” she begins but I place my lips over hers.
“Just one night,” I murmur into her mouth as I feel her tears begin to fall and her mouth respond to mine.
I don’t realize I’m crying as well until I feel both our tears mix as they make their way down our cheeks, a few drops falling onto our lips. I pick her up, never breaking the kiss, bringing her to the bed. Our tears never stop as we make love for the last time. It seems like a pretty sadistic thing to do, but we didn’t care. I fell asleep to her in my arms, holding her close. I woke up alone, a small note on her pillow in her place.
I’m sorry
*~*
I throw the glass of water I was holding against the wall. I watch as it shatters and falls to the ground to join the broken pieces of my heart that were already there. Frustrated tears mix with the pain filled tears that are falling down my face. The memory of last night runs through my brain for what feels like the hundredth time.
“What?” I try not to yell.
“Sulli’s dad is threatening to take down the company if I don’t agree to marry her again,” he tells me, expression unchanging.
“But she doesn’t love you!”
“I know.”
“Why is she doing this?”
“I don’t know.”
“You’re not going to agree are you? You can’t. You love me. You belong with me!”
He says nothing. Just turns his gaze away from me.
“Minnie! Don’t do this to us.”
“I can’t just let all my parents hard work go down the drain Minho. I can’t be selfish. This is my family we’re talking about.”
“And what am I? Am I nothing to you?”
“No,” he looks at me, eyes wide from shock, “No. Don’t even think that. You’re not nothing to me. If anything, you’re my everything Minho.”
“Then why are you doing this?”
“Because there’s no other choice. Do you know how many people, how many families, will be affected if Sulli’s dad makes good on his promise? I can’t have that kind of guilt on my shoulders.”
“Taemin.”
“Minho, if there was any other way.”
“But you don’t love her. You love me!”
“I do love you, more than anything.”
“Then tell her dad to shove it and that it’s not going to happen.”
“Minho.”
“I can take care of the both of us.”
“What about my parents?”
“I can take care of them too.”
“And all the employees that will be out of a job.”
“They can come work for my family’s company.”
“Minho.”
“Taemin,” I walk over to him and grab onto his shoulders, “I’m not going to let you go this easily. I’m not. You mean too much to me. I love you too much to just let you walk out of my life like this.”
“You don’t have a choice in the matter.”
“Yes I do. I know you don’t want to do this Taemin. I know that you don’t want to break up with me,” I wipe the tears that are falling from his eyes with my thumbs.
“Of course I don’t want to break up with you. Do you realize how much my heart is screaming at me not to do it?”
“Then listen to your heart.”
“It’s not that easy.”
“Yes it is. We can just forget about all of this and go into our room. Make love until morning and forget about all of this.”
“Of course, you’d tempt me with sex,” he let’s out a little laugh.
“I’m not trying to tempt you.”
“Oh? ‘Make love until morning’ isn’t supposed to be tempting?”
“Taemin. I just don’t want to lose you. What do I have to do to keep you here with me? What will it take to keep you in my life?”
“Let go of me.”
“What?”
“Let go of me.”
“Taemin,” I bring my arms around his shoulders and pull him to my chest.
“To keep me in your life. Let go of me,” he says into the fabric of my shirt.
I pull away from him to look at his face, “What?”
“I can’t let go of you this easily either Minho. I can’t be without you.”
“Then why are you doing this?”
“If I have to be without you for just a little bit just so I can be with you in the end. I’ll do it.”
“You’re not making any sense.”
“We just can’t be together right now,” he places his hand on my cheek and I raise mine to meet his.
“Minnie,” I whisper.
“Wait for me?”
“Forever.”
“I love you.”
“I love you too.”
He places a soft kiss on my lips before leaving my grasp on him. I watch him walk to the door and grab his bags. He said he’ll be staying with his parents for the rest of the year. He couldn’t ask Onew and Key for his apartment back, he’d feel bad. I told him he can stay here, but he said it’d be too hard. The soft click of the door closing has never been so loud before. And with that one little noise, I collapsed to the floor.
I look up when I hear the door opening. Hoping to see the top of his blond head peak around the corner. I get even more hope when I hear a bag drop to the floor. But my hope falls when I don’t see his tiny frame round the corner. Instead it’s Jazzy, holding up a bag, trying to smile. Her eyes are red again. I figure my eyes don’t look any better.
“You look like you could use this as much as me,” she pulls out a tub of ice cream from the bag.
“The duct tape of food,” I murmur as I walk over to grab us two spoons. When I see her walking closer to the kitchen, I yell, “Careful!”
She stops in her tracks and looks down to the ground I’m pointing at, “You really need this. Probably more than I do.”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“Wasn’t going to ask, as long as you don’t either.”
“Wasn’t going to.”
I carefully step around the broken glass and towards her.
“You’re not going to clean that up?”
“It can wait.”
“You sure.”
“Are you telling me I need to clean it up?”
“Trying to.”
“I don’t need an ‘umma’ right now Jazzy, I need my best friend.”
“Fine. I’ll clean it up. Lazy ass,” she pushes the ice cream into my hand and goes to grab the broom from the pantry.
“Jazzy, don’t.”
“No, I can’t just let this glass lay here. What if Onew oppa comes? The last thing we need is for him to trip and fall into this glass. You know how dramatic he gets when he gets a cut. Even a little paper cut and he’s crying like a baby.”
I laugh at the memory of the last time Onew got a cut and how many tears fell from his eyes.
“Look all clean,” she says as she dumps the glass shards into my trash, “And it took like a minute to clean.”
“You’re such an umma now.”
“Let’s just go and sulk on the couch and eat ice cream now.”
“Sounds good to me.”
“God! How many times did you two do it on the couch?” she exclaims before taking a seat.
“What are you talking about?”
“There’s clearly a dip in the middle of the couch now.”
“That’s always been there.”
“It has not always been there. That is there because of the constant weight of someone or rather someones on that particular spot.”
“Shut up.”
“You two are worst than rabbits.”
I shove ice cream in her mouth to shut her up.
“I thought we weren’t going to talk about it.”
“My bad. What do you want to talk about? Quantum physics?”
“That’s better than what you were talking about.”
“Sucks for you because I know jack shit about quantum physics.”
“Then don’t talk and just eat your ice cream.”
“It’ll be too quiet though.”
“Then we’ll turn on the TV.”
“Where’s the remote.”
“On top of the TV.”
“Go get it.”
“No you go get it. You’re the one who wants noise.”
“You’re the one who suggested turning on the TV. Go get it.”
“Get it yourself. You have two legs.”
“I’m lazy.”
“So am I.”
“Minho!”
“Oh well, guess you’ll have to deal with the silence,” I shove more ice cream in my mouth and she sticks her tongue out at me.
Author: giveitupjessica
Rating: PG-NC-17 (depending on the chapter)
Pairings: 2min, onkey, jazzhyun (read paper cuts to know about this one), taemin/sulli
Genre: AU, romance, comedy, pregnancy, angst
Summary: Lee Taemin was everything Minho wanted in a lover. He was the boy he wanted to come home to. The kind of boy that he never wanted to leave. The kind of boy that makes Minho want to give him everything. And finally it seemed like that he was finally going to get what he wanted. Taemin was breaking up with Sulli to be with him. He couldn't be happier. But just how long will their happiness last? Minho knew the kind of storm that would brew once Taemin broke up with Sulli, but he didn't care. He was going to stay by Taemin, no matter what. As long as the younger's heart was beating next to his, he didn't care. (sorry I suck at summaries)
A/N: So I've decided to speed things up because I really want to get to the good stuff. Haha. Sorry for this chapter though. I'm sure you're all going to hate me at the end of it all, but trust me... it's all for the best. I gotta make this happen so I can write what I plan on writing. So please don't hate me too much. *does Heechul bow* On another note altogether. I got my special edition JYJ album in the mail today. WOO!!!!
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
“DADDY!” I yell as I enter his office. He’s sitting at his desk looking over papers.
“Sulli, what have I told you about bothering me at work?” he asks, eyes never leaving his desk.
“But Daddy, I’m your baby girl,” I whine.
“Yes, but I’m at work and I need to focus on work.”
“But.”
“Just tell me what you want and be on your way.”
“I came to talk about Taemin,” I say and sit down in the chair in front of his desk.
He lets out a sigh and looks up at me, “I told you that I’m working on it Sulli.”
“But you’re taking so long. You’ve never taken this long to give me what I want,” I pout and cross my arms in front of my chest, “I miss him Daddy. I want him now!”
“He’s a person Sulli not a purse. It’ll take some time.”
“Well you have until the end of the week.”
“Are you giving me a deadline?”
“Yes. I want him back and I want him back NOW!”
“You want him that badly?”
“Yes. I’ve never wanted anything so badly in my life,” I smirk to myself when I think of how heart broken Taemin will be.
“Well I have a meeting with his father today. I’ll see what I can do.”
“Don’t see what you can do, make it happen.”
“How did you grow up to be so demanding?”
“Because you spoil me.”
“That I do. I really should say ‘no’ to you.”
“That’s not going to happen and you know it Daddy.”
“Is that all you wanted to talk about Sulli?”
“Yes.”
“Well like I said, I’ll talk to his father when I see him.”
“Make it happen Daddy. I know you can,” I smile sweetly at him before making my way over to him and placing a kiss on his cheek, “I’ll see you later. Love you!”
“Love you too. Don’t slam the door on your way out!” he yells just as I slam the door while skipping out the office. It was only a matter of time before I had Taemin’s broken heart in the palm of my hand.
*~*
“What do you want to do now baby?” I ask her as we finally settle into our hotel room after a long day of sight seeing. My brother definitely did a good job in booking this little vacation for us. This room was amazing. It had a huge bed, which we broke in the minute we got here, the bathroom had a tub with jets, and the view of the ocean was breath-taking. It was just what we needed.
“I don’t know. Let’s just rest a little before dinner,” she says to me and I hold out my arms for her to come and sit in my lap. She gives me a smile and does just that. I hold her close to me and inhale the scent of her hair. White gummi bears.
“That sounds good to me,” she nuzzles her body closer to mine and I hold her tighter.
“Did you thank your brother for me?”
“I thanked him for the both of us,” my hand is on the small bump on her belly. I gently rub it and smile. Our baby was growing wonderfully, healthy at every check up so far. I couldn’t wait to find out whether it was a boy or girl. I want a girl.
“I’m glad that we’re here.”
“Me too baby. Me too. Get some rest now okay? We had a busy day. No doubt you and our baby are tired.”
“Okay.”
I watch her eyes close and enjoy the feel of her in my arms. I feel like I haven’t held her like this in forever. I didn’t realize just how much I missed her until we left for vacation. I’ve been so busy trying to please my father so he would leave me the fuck alone, that I’ve been neglecting her. I was too busy being the good, obedient son that I forgot to be her boyfriend. But I was going to make it all up to her on this trip. And I started the moment we left. I did nothing, but stay by her side. She complained a lot saying that I was suffocating her, but I didn’t care. I wanted to make it clear that she was more important to me than anything else.
It takes a few minutes, but I finally hear her breathing even out and I look down to confirm that she’s fallen asleep. I carefully stand up and walk over to the bed, carrying her bridal style, trying to hold back my smile. I place her on the bed gently and am about to climb into bed as well when my phone goes off. I look down at her to make sure she’s still asleep before I walk over to the table and grab it. It’s my brother.
“Hello?” I say, bringing the phone up to my ear.
“Dad’s on his way.”
“What?!”
“Dad’s on his way.”
“What do you mean he’s on his way?”
“What don’t you understand?”
“Why is he coming?”
“He apparently has something urgent to tell you.”
“And you told him where I was?”
“No, I told him I sent you to Jeju Island for business, he found out where you were on his own.”
“When did he leave?”
“Not too long ago.”
“How much time do I have?”
“Couple hours?”
“Shit.”
“I tried to convince him to wait until you came back in a couple days, but he said it couldn’t wait that he had to talk to you now.”
“Double shit.”
“I tried.”
“I know and you were the one who set this up so I can’t be mad at you. Thanks again hyung. For everything.”
“You’re welcome.”
“Fuck. What am I going to do though?”
“I don’t know. But I wanted to warn you before he was knocking on your hotel door.”
“Thanks.”
“No problem. I gotta go now. I have some contracts I need to go over.”
“Okay. Don’t work too hard.”
“I’ll try not to. Try to be safe.”
“I’ll try.”
“Bye.”
“Bye.”
FUCK!
*~*
“So it’s back on then?” I say solemnly into the phone.
“I’m sorry son. I tried my best.”
“I know appa.”
“I wish I didn’t have to ask you to do this.”
“I know appa.”
“But your mother and I worked too hard on this company to let him take it down.”
“I know appa.”
“Can you say anything else besides ‘I know appa?’”
I silently wipe away the tears that are falling down my cheeks, “I don’t know what else to say.”
“Taeminnie, you know I wouldn’t be asking you to do this if there was another way right?”
“Yeah.”
“Don’t worry though, your umma and I will keep trying to figure out a way to get you out of his. Like she said before, we can’t steal your happiness away from you. As you parents we want nothing more than for you to be happy. But right now we feel like we’re failing as your parents because we’re the ones who are taking away your happiness.”
“Appa, don’t be like this. I know why I have to do this and as your son I can’t be selfish. I can’t just do things for me. I have to think about you and umma as well. I just wish I didn’t have to give up the one thing that I can’t live without.”
“You’re breaking my heart saying these things son.”
“I don’t mean to, I’m just…” I have no idea how to finish the sentence as more tears fall from my eyes. I was glad that Minho was at practice and I had the apartment to myself for the next few hours. I didn’t want him to see me like this. I didn’t want to worry him.
“Look, if you can keep it a secret. You two can still date. Just you’ll have to pretend to be Sulli’s fiancé in public.”
“I thought about that. I thought long and hard about it. I can’t ask Minho to do that. We already did the secret dating while I was still engaged to Sulli before.”
“What?”
“Appa, now’s not the time for me to explain that. Just know that I’ve been with Minho longer than you think. I can’t ask him to go back to that though. I can’t ask him to hide our relationship after we were just freed to be open about it. It wouldn’t feel right. I’d feel guilty.”
“So you’d rather not have him at all?”
“I…” I want to say ‘no’, but I can’t. I can’t be selfish and tell my dad that I don’t want to be without Minho, that I don’t want to hide how much I love him, that I don’t want to with Sulli whether real or pretend.
“Taeminnie. I want you to think long and hard about this. I want you to think about just how much you love him. If you can’t be without him. We’ll understand. Your umma and I will be able to get through this.”
“No, you’re my parents. You’re more important to me.”
“Are you sure?”
Again, I want to say ‘no’, but can’t find the strength to do so. I needed Minho as much as I needed my parents.
“Taeminnie,” my dad’s voice is low and gentle, “You can be honest with me.”
“I wish I didn’t have to choose,” is the safest thing for me to say.
“I wish I didn’t have to make you choose.”
“But you’re my parents. If it weren’t for you two, I wouldn’t even be here today.”
“I promise, we’ll find a way around this soon.”
“I know appa.”
“I love you son.”
“I love you too appa.”
“I’ll talk to you soon?”
“Yeah.”
“Oh and Taeminnie,” my dad says just as I’m about to end the call.
“Yeah?”
“We’re sorry, we hope you can find it in your heart to forgive us one day.”
“I know appa,” and with that I push the end button and curl up in a ball on the bed. I pull Minho’s pillow towards my chest and inhale his scent. This doesn’t help as the tears begin to fall at lightning speed. I don’t bother to wipe them away and just let them pool on the pillow.
My heart was officially broken and beyond repair at this point. I reach over and grab the remote for the stereo. I needed something to drown out my sobs. Listening to them made everything too real in my head and more importantly in my heart. I faintly hear music begin to play and drop the remote on the bed. The first few songs are upbeat and happy, normally I would be up and dancing, but I don’t have the energy. I pull my knees into my chest in hopes of stopping the pain that’s been building up in it.
Cherish - Moment In Time
Found at: FilesTube
A/N: Please play the song. It will go really well with the rest of the chapter.
I hear a familiar opening of a song and hold my breath. I knew exactly which song that was just starting. I knew that I should have grabbed the remote and turned off the stereo or at least changed the song, but I didn’t have the energy to. I was also afraid that if I let go of my legs that I would completely break and there would be no going back. My tears that had stopped just moments before were back again. This time they felt bigger and heavier as the song progressed. I listened to each and every word as I continue to cry.
I really ain’t missing you
I’d rather be kissing you
Don’t know what I would do
If I couldn’t make love to you
Over, and over, and over I wish
That I could live this moment in time
*~*
I stare at her in shock. I can’t believe the words that escaped her beautiful mouth. The very mouth that I just kissed and kissed me back just hours ago. I turn my attention to the door, the door that my father just left through. The argument we just had playing over and over in my mind.
“What. What did you just say?”
“Let’s end this.”
I still can’t grasp the words as they float around me for a second time. This can’t be happening. This seriously cannot be happening. This is some weird, cruel, fucked up dream that my mind is making up. It had to be. There was no other explanation. This wouldn’t, couldn’t, happen in real life. This was all just a dream.
“Jazzy,” I say shakily, “You can’t be serious. Tell me you’re joking.”
“I’m not joking,” she says with a straight face.
“Then tell me this is a nightmare and wake me up.”
“You’re not sleeping Jjongie.”
“Why are you doing this?”
She looks at the door and I follow her gaze to the door again, “You’ve got to be shitting me! Because of my asshole of my father? Jazzy, you can’t break up with me because of him. You can’t! I won’t let you.”
“I can’t keep fighting him Jjongie.”
“You don’t have to. I’ll fight him for the both of us. Just don’t break up with me.”
“I… I can’t. I can’t put you through that. Through this. I can’t keep putting you through this. I’m not worth it.”
“You are,” I rush over to her and gather her in my arms, “You’re worth it all and then some. You and our baby are worth it. I will go down fighting if I have to.”
“I don’t want it to come to that. And I’m scared that it will happen sooner rather than later if we stay together. So let’s just end this here and now after our lovely vacation together. Let’s end it while we still have beautiful memories in our heads and hearts,” she slowly backs away from me and I feel my heart going with her. This seriously could not be happening.
“Jazzy. Baby, please. Don’t do this to us. To our baby.”
“I still want you to be a part of our baby’s life. Just, not mine.”
“Don’t,” I step to her again and wrap my arms around her, “Don’t talk anymore. Take it all back please. Just take it all back.”
“I wish I could. We can’t keep this up forever Jjongie. Your appa is strong than the both of us. He’s already created a hole within us in such a short period of time. I don’t want him to ruin us even more.”
“He won’t. I won’t let him. Just stay with me okay?”
“As much as I want nothing more than to stay with you, I can’t.”
I tighten my grip on her small waist as I realize that she’s made up her mind. Knowing Jazzy, as stubborn as she is, there’s nothing I can say to change her mind. She’s breaking up with me and I can’t do anything about it. If I could I’d hold her forever, never letting go just so she can’t leave me.
I pull back and stare at her, “Then just stay with me for one more night.”
“I…” she begins but I place my lips over hers.
“Just one night,” I murmur into her mouth as I feel her tears begin to fall and her mouth respond to mine.
I don’t realize I’m crying as well until I feel both our tears mix as they make their way down our cheeks, a few drops falling onto our lips. I pick her up, never breaking the kiss, bringing her to the bed. Our tears never stop as we make love for the last time. It seems like a pretty sadistic thing to do, but we didn’t care. I fell asleep to her in my arms, holding her close. I woke up alone, a small note on her pillow in her place.
I’m sorry
*~*
I throw the glass of water I was holding against the wall. I watch as it shatters and falls to the ground to join the broken pieces of my heart that were already there. Frustrated tears mix with the pain filled tears that are falling down my face. The memory of last night runs through my brain for what feels like the hundredth time.
“What?” I try not to yell.
“Sulli’s dad is threatening to take down the company if I don’t agree to marry her again,” he tells me, expression unchanging.
“But she doesn’t love you!”
“I know.”
“Why is she doing this?”
“I don’t know.”
“You’re not going to agree are you? You can’t. You love me. You belong with me!”
He says nothing. Just turns his gaze away from me.
“Minnie! Don’t do this to us.”
“I can’t just let all my parents hard work go down the drain Minho. I can’t be selfish. This is my family we’re talking about.”
“And what am I? Am I nothing to you?”
“No,” he looks at me, eyes wide from shock, “No. Don’t even think that. You’re not nothing to me. If anything, you’re my everything Minho.”
“Then why are you doing this?”
“Because there’s no other choice. Do you know how many people, how many families, will be affected if Sulli’s dad makes good on his promise? I can’t have that kind of guilt on my shoulders.”
“Taemin.”
“Minho, if there was any other way.”
“But you don’t love her. You love me!”
“I do love you, more than anything.”
“Then tell her dad to shove it and that it’s not going to happen.”
“Minho.”
“I can take care of the both of us.”
“What about my parents?”
“I can take care of them too.”
“And all the employees that will be out of a job.”
“They can come work for my family’s company.”
“Minho.”
“Taemin,” I walk over to him and grab onto his shoulders, “I’m not going to let you go this easily. I’m not. You mean too much to me. I love you too much to just let you walk out of my life like this.”
“You don’t have a choice in the matter.”
“Yes I do. I know you don’t want to do this Taemin. I know that you don’t want to break up with me,” I wipe the tears that are falling from his eyes with my thumbs.
“Of course I don’t want to break up with you. Do you realize how much my heart is screaming at me not to do it?”
“Then listen to your heart.”
“It’s not that easy.”
“Yes it is. We can just forget about all of this and go into our room. Make love until morning and forget about all of this.”
“Of course, you’d tempt me with sex,” he let’s out a little laugh.
“I’m not trying to tempt you.”
“Oh? ‘Make love until morning’ isn’t supposed to be tempting?”
“Taemin. I just don’t want to lose you. What do I have to do to keep you here with me? What will it take to keep you in my life?”
“Let go of me.”
“What?”
“Let go of me.”
“Taemin,” I bring my arms around his shoulders and pull him to my chest.
“To keep me in your life. Let go of me,” he says into the fabric of my shirt.
I pull away from him to look at his face, “What?”
“I can’t let go of you this easily either Minho. I can’t be without you.”
“Then why are you doing this?”
“If I have to be without you for just a little bit just so I can be with you in the end. I’ll do it.”
“You’re not making any sense.”
“We just can’t be together right now,” he places his hand on my cheek and I raise mine to meet his.
“Minnie,” I whisper.
“Wait for me?”
“Forever.”
“I love you.”
“I love you too.”
He places a soft kiss on my lips before leaving my grasp on him. I watch him walk to the door and grab his bags. He said he’ll be staying with his parents for the rest of the year. He couldn’t ask Onew and Key for his apartment back, he’d feel bad. I told him he can stay here, but he said it’d be too hard. The soft click of the door closing has never been so loud before. And with that one little noise, I collapsed to the floor.
I look up when I hear the door opening. Hoping to see the top of his blond head peak around the corner. I get even more hope when I hear a bag drop to the floor. But my hope falls when I don’t see his tiny frame round the corner. Instead it’s Jazzy, holding up a bag, trying to smile. Her eyes are red again. I figure my eyes don’t look any better.
“You look like you could use this as much as me,” she pulls out a tub of ice cream from the bag.
“The duct tape of food,” I murmur as I walk over to grab us two spoons. When I see her walking closer to the kitchen, I yell, “Careful!”
She stops in her tracks and looks down to the ground I’m pointing at, “You really need this. Probably more than I do.”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“Wasn’t going to ask, as long as you don’t either.”
“Wasn’t going to.”
I carefully step around the broken glass and towards her.
“You’re not going to clean that up?”
“It can wait.”
“You sure.”
“Are you telling me I need to clean it up?”
“Trying to.”
“I don’t need an ‘umma’ right now Jazzy, I need my best friend.”
“Fine. I’ll clean it up. Lazy ass,” she pushes the ice cream into my hand and goes to grab the broom from the pantry.
“Jazzy, don’t.”
“No, I can’t just let this glass lay here. What if Onew oppa comes? The last thing we need is for him to trip and fall into this glass. You know how dramatic he gets when he gets a cut. Even a little paper cut and he’s crying like a baby.”
I laugh at the memory of the last time Onew got a cut and how many tears fell from his eyes.
“Look all clean,” she says as she dumps the glass shards into my trash, “And it took like a minute to clean.”
“You’re such an umma now.”
“Let’s just go and sulk on the couch and eat ice cream now.”
“Sounds good to me.”
“God! How many times did you two do it on the couch?” she exclaims before taking a seat.
“What are you talking about?”
“There’s clearly a dip in the middle of the couch now.”
“That’s always been there.”
“It has not always been there. That is there because of the constant weight of someone or rather someones on that particular spot.”
“Shut up.”
“You two are worst than rabbits.”
I shove ice cream in her mouth to shut her up.
“I thought we weren’t going to talk about it.”
“My bad. What do you want to talk about? Quantum physics?”
“That’s better than what you were talking about.”
“Sucks for you because I know jack shit about quantum physics.”
“Then don’t talk and just eat your ice cream.”
“It’ll be too quiet though.”
“Then we’ll turn on the TV.”
“Where’s the remote.”
“On top of the TV.”
“Go get it.”
“No you go get it. You’re the one who wants noise.”
“You’re the one who suggested turning on the TV. Go get it.”
“Get it yourself. You have two legs.”
“I’m lazy.”
“So am I.”
“Minho!”
“Oh well, guess you’ll have to deal with the silence,” I shove more ice cream in my mouth and she sticks her tongue out at me.