His Mind, His Attention
Title: His Mind, His Attention
Author: girldevil
Pairing: yoosu
Genre: romance, fluff,
Rating: pg
Length: long oneshot
Summary: Yoochun has a boyfriend
A/N: 7th part! I can't believe this one became the longest oneshot ever. I wrote this while having no plot in mind and I'm glad it came out well. Tell me what you think! Happy reading!
“Yoochun? You’ve been spacing out a lot…” Junsu pouted.
“What? Oh, I’m sorry…” Yoochun said apologetically but his expression didn’t change. The seriousness was still displayed on his face and his frown was deep.
It was a Monday night and Yoochun had taken Junsu out for a dinner date in a casual Spanish restaurant. Ever since Yoochun arrived at Junsu’s place to pick him up, he was unusually quiet. He had only inquired on how Junsu’s day was and Junsu has been the one to make conversations but to no avail, Yoochun was still quiet.
Their waiter shortly arrived with their food and placed it down in front of them on the table. Yoochun didn’t make any movement; he just sat silently with his arms crossed on his chest.
“Is everything complete?” the waiter asked after placing their food and drinks.
“Yes, thank you,” Junsu said and the waiter bowed before making his leave.
Junsu shrugged at the sight of Yoochun and looked away, feeling somewhat bothered by his boyfriend’s behavior. He wanted to know what was in Yoochun’s mind but he didn’t want to push it and make Yoochun tell him. Even though they have been dating for a few months now, one factor about their relationship is that they respected each other’s privacy. He wished he could change that a bit, he wanted them to tell each other everything. He just wanted to feel more secure with their relationship.
Junsu looked down on his laps, pondering on what might have been in Yoochun’s mind the whole time.
‘Could he be thinking of someone? I never knew if he dated someone before…’ Junsu thought and glanced at Yoochun at the corners of his eyes. Yoochun was still the same, almost as if he was ignoring Junsu’s presence.
‘Is he getting tired being around me? I know he told me that he is only interested with me but…what if…’ He couldn’t bear to think of the ‘what if’s’ knowing that it will make him feel worse.
He let out a sigh and leaned back on the chair. The food no longer looked appetizing to him and for once, he wished Changmin was with them to lighten the mood or eat his food so it won’t go into a waste.
It has been nearly over 20 minutes and Yoochun hasn’t said a word to him and Junsu’s mood was starting to feel low.
“Yoochun!” Junsu tried to get his attention but Yoochun didn’t budge.
He balled his fists in irritation. His patience was already running low and it was as if he was on a date with a soulless person.
‘The heck! This is killing me, I can’t stand him ignoring me!’ Junsu could feel his eyes getting watery and he felt blaming himself for being a weak person, not being able to control his emotions.
“That’s it! If you are not going to talk to me, I might as well leave you here!” Junsu was at his wit’s end and stood up hastily.
Yoochun finally broke his trails of deep thoughts and focused on Junsu, he was surprised to see a peeved looking Junsu. However, he was more surprised to see that Junsu was close to tears.
“Su? Why?”
“What do you mean by why? You have been ignoring me the whole time!”
Yoochun felt guilty, he didn’t mean to ignore Junsu and he was even unawareness that he was too caught up with his own thoughts.
“Please sit down Su, I didn’t mean to ignore you…I’m sorry,” Yoochun said guiltily.
Junsu shook his head, “I’m not hungry anymore and I just want to get out of here,” he stated.
Yoochun opened his mouth but shortly closed it deciding it was best to save it for later. He glanced around and called for the waiter instead.
“Can you have the food wrapped and can I have the bill please,” Yoochun told the waiter. Junsu only stood and watched with confusion as the waiter pick up all their food and left.
“What-”
“You said you wanted to leave. Please sit down first while we wait then we can go,” Yoochun said gently, not wanting make Junsu feel any worse. Junsu hesitantly sat down and kept his eyes on his laps. He was on the verge of tearing up and tried so hard to control his tears. But he couldn’t and the tears were starting to trail down on his cheeks. Junsu hastily wiped them away with the back of his hand.
The waiter returned with the packed food and the bill. Yoochun placed the exact cash for the bill and stood up. Yoochun felt like hitting himself for making his boyfriend cry.
“Su? Let’s go?” Yoochun asked softly, holding his hand out for Junsu to take. Junsu ignored his hand and got up from his seat and made his way to the door. Yoochun followed behind and when they got near to his car, Yoochun grabbed Junsu by the wrist. Junsu stopped walking but didn’t bother to look at Yoochun.
“Please look at me Su.”
Junsu made no move to turn around but only to wipe his eyes away. “Can…can you take me home now?” he said in an almost inaudible voice.
“But…”
“Please,” Junsu begged and Yoochun could only comply.
“Okay…” Yoochun said dejectedly.
They both got into Yoochun’s car and when Yoochun glanced at Junsu, he was looking out of the window and he could hear him sniffing silently. Yoochun put the car into drive and made their way back to Junsu’s place. The whole drive was silent and Yoochun realized how Junsu felt earlier.
‘I will never ever try to hurt him again even if I didn’t mean to,’ Yoochun thought to himself. Few minutes later, he pulled the car into the driveway of Junsu’s place.
“Su, please look at me,” Yoochun pleaded and grabbed Junsu’s hand.
Junsu didn’t pull his hand back but didn’t look at Yoochun.
“I didn’t mean to ignore you and I’m really sorry, please forgive me?” he apologized again.
“Tell me honestly Yoochun, are you getting tired of me?” Junsu faced him with teary eyes. “Don’t lie to me please,” he begged.
Yoochun felt a pang of hurt when he saw Junsu’s eyes. He reached out to wipe Junsu’s eyes but Junsu flinched when he touched him.
“Junsu…” Yoochun sighed and grabbed both of Junsu’s hands, holding them tight in his own hands. “First of all, I already told you that I am only interested in you, please trust me on that and I would never lie to you. I’m not thinking of someone else and in case if you were thinking, you are my first. This is my first relationship with anyone and I intend to make this one last. Second, I’m really very sorry for ignoring you the whole time and I really didn’t mean to. I was not even aware that I was too occupied thinking-” Yoochun stopped himself, in fear of blurting out what he was planning.
Junsu frowned at him with confusion, Yoochun sighed and brushed Junsu’s cheek with his thumb, “Please, trust me Su. I never intended to hurt you. Next time I hurt you, you are free to do anything with me. Hit me or kill me, it’s all up to you.” Yoochun added.
“Oh no, I would never do that to you,” Junsu said with wide eyes.
Yoochun chuckled softly, “just in case you know,” he smiled at Junsu, who bit on his lower lip and nodded his head.
“Forgive me?” Yoochun asked.
Junsu sighed and nodded his head, “I hate being ignored Chun, please don’t do it again,” he mumbled.
“I promise I won’t ever try to hurt my baby again,” Yoochun said cheekily with a grin.
“Cheesy,” Junsu chuckled.
“Come here you dolt,” Yoochun pulled Junsu into his embrace and hugged him tight while receiving a protest from Junsu for being called a dolt.
“You are the only one Su, believe me on that okay?” Yoochun whispered softly.
He only heard Junsu’s growling stomach in return and could not help but laugh at Junsu’s embarrassment.
“Dolt,” Yoochun grinned and leaned in, giving Junsu a sweet kiss before pulling back.
“Come on, I need to feed my hungry dolt!” Yoochun joked as they got out of the car with the packed food in his hand.
“I’m not a dolt you idiot!” Junsu protested but laughed heartily.
“I’m your idiot, you’re my dolt,” Yoochun stuck his tongue out at him.
Junsu chuckled, “fine. Idiot,” Junsu stuck his tongue back at him.
‘No matter what is on my mind, it is always about you.’
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How was it? What do you think? And in case if you're wondering what was in Yoochun's mind, please guess! It has to do with the last part 'His Eyes, His Gaze'. If anyone guessed it right, I'll dedicate the next part to those who got it right. ^.^
Thank you so much for reading! ^.^
zkye~
Author: girldevil
Pairing: yoosu
Genre: romance, fluff,
Rating: pg
Length: long oneshot
Summary: Yoochun has a boyfriend
A/N: 7th part! I can't believe this one became the longest oneshot ever. I wrote this while having no plot in mind and I'm glad it came out well. Tell me what you think! Happy reading!
“Yoochun? You’ve been spacing out a lot…” Junsu pouted.
“What? Oh, I’m sorry…” Yoochun said apologetically but his expression didn’t change. The seriousness was still displayed on his face and his frown was deep.
It was a Monday night and Yoochun had taken Junsu out for a dinner date in a casual Spanish restaurant. Ever since Yoochun arrived at Junsu’s place to pick him up, he was unusually quiet. He had only inquired on how Junsu’s day was and Junsu has been the one to make conversations but to no avail, Yoochun was still quiet.
Their waiter shortly arrived with their food and placed it down in front of them on the table. Yoochun didn’t make any movement; he just sat silently with his arms crossed on his chest.
“Is everything complete?” the waiter asked after placing their food and drinks.
“Yes, thank you,” Junsu said and the waiter bowed before making his leave.
Junsu shrugged at the sight of Yoochun and looked away, feeling somewhat bothered by his boyfriend’s behavior. He wanted to know what was in Yoochun’s mind but he didn’t want to push it and make Yoochun tell him. Even though they have been dating for a few months now, one factor about their relationship is that they respected each other’s privacy. He wished he could change that a bit, he wanted them to tell each other everything. He just wanted to feel more secure with their relationship.
Junsu looked down on his laps, pondering on what might have been in Yoochun’s mind the whole time.
‘Could he be thinking of someone? I never knew if he dated someone before…’ Junsu thought and glanced at Yoochun at the corners of his eyes. Yoochun was still the same, almost as if he was ignoring Junsu’s presence.
‘Is he getting tired being around me? I know he told me that he is only interested with me but…what if…’ He couldn’t bear to think of the ‘what if’s’ knowing that it will make him feel worse.
He let out a sigh and leaned back on the chair. The food no longer looked appetizing to him and for once, he wished Changmin was with them to lighten the mood or eat his food so it won’t go into a waste.
It has been nearly over 20 minutes and Yoochun hasn’t said a word to him and Junsu’s mood was starting to feel low.
“Yoochun!” Junsu tried to get his attention but Yoochun didn’t budge.
He balled his fists in irritation. His patience was already running low and it was as if he was on a date with a soulless person.
‘The heck! This is killing me, I can’t stand him ignoring me!’ Junsu could feel his eyes getting watery and he felt blaming himself for being a weak person, not being able to control his emotions.
“That’s it! If you are not going to talk to me, I might as well leave you here!” Junsu was at his wit’s end and stood up hastily.
Yoochun finally broke his trails of deep thoughts and focused on Junsu, he was surprised to see a peeved looking Junsu. However, he was more surprised to see that Junsu was close to tears.
“Su? Why?”
“What do you mean by why? You have been ignoring me the whole time!”
Yoochun felt guilty, he didn’t mean to ignore Junsu and he was even unawareness that he was too caught up with his own thoughts.
“Please sit down Su, I didn’t mean to ignore you…I’m sorry,” Yoochun said guiltily.
Junsu shook his head, “I’m not hungry anymore and I just want to get out of here,” he stated.
Yoochun opened his mouth but shortly closed it deciding it was best to save it for later. He glanced around and called for the waiter instead.
“Can you have the food wrapped and can I have the bill please,” Yoochun told the waiter. Junsu only stood and watched with confusion as the waiter pick up all their food and left.
“What-”
“You said you wanted to leave. Please sit down first while we wait then we can go,” Yoochun said gently, not wanting make Junsu feel any worse. Junsu hesitantly sat down and kept his eyes on his laps. He was on the verge of tearing up and tried so hard to control his tears. But he couldn’t and the tears were starting to trail down on his cheeks. Junsu hastily wiped them away with the back of his hand.
The waiter returned with the packed food and the bill. Yoochun placed the exact cash for the bill and stood up. Yoochun felt like hitting himself for making his boyfriend cry.
“Su? Let’s go?” Yoochun asked softly, holding his hand out for Junsu to take. Junsu ignored his hand and got up from his seat and made his way to the door. Yoochun followed behind and when they got near to his car, Yoochun grabbed Junsu by the wrist. Junsu stopped walking but didn’t bother to look at Yoochun.
“Please look at me Su.”
Junsu made no move to turn around but only to wipe his eyes away. “Can…can you take me home now?” he said in an almost inaudible voice.
“But…”
“Please,” Junsu begged and Yoochun could only comply.
“Okay…” Yoochun said dejectedly.
They both got into Yoochun’s car and when Yoochun glanced at Junsu, he was looking out of the window and he could hear him sniffing silently. Yoochun put the car into drive and made their way back to Junsu’s place. The whole drive was silent and Yoochun realized how Junsu felt earlier.
‘I will never ever try to hurt him again even if I didn’t mean to,’ Yoochun thought to himself. Few minutes later, he pulled the car into the driveway of Junsu’s place.
“Su, please look at me,” Yoochun pleaded and grabbed Junsu’s hand.
Junsu didn’t pull his hand back but didn’t look at Yoochun.
“I didn’t mean to ignore you and I’m really sorry, please forgive me?” he apologized again.
“Tell me honestly Yoochun, are you getting tired of me?” Junsu faced him with teary eyes. “Don’t lie to me please,” he begged.
Yoochun felt a pang of hurt when he saw Junsu’s eyes. He reached out to wipe Junsu’s eyes but Junsu flinched when he touched him.
“Junsu…” Yoochun sighed and grabbed both of Junsu’s hands, holding them tight in his own hands. “First of all, I already told you that I am only interested in you, please trust me on that and I would never lie to you. I’m not thinking of someone else and in case if you were thinking, you are my first. This is my first relationship with anyone and I intend to make this one last. Second, I’m really very sorry for ignoring you the whole time and I really didn’t mean to. I was not even aware that I was too occupied thinking-” Yoochun stopped himself, in fear of blurting out what he was planning.
Junsu frowned at him with confusion, Yoochun sighed and brushed Junsu’s cheek with his thumb, “Please, trust me Su. I never intended to hurt you. Next time I hurt you, you are free to do anything with me. Hit me or kill me, it’s all up to you.” Yoochun added.
“Oh no, I would never do that to you,” Junsu said with wide eyes.
Yoochun chuckled softly, “just in case you know,” he smiled at Junsu, who bit on his lower lip and nodded his head.
“Forgive me?” Yoochun asked.
Junsu sighed and nodded his head, “I hate being ignored Chun, please don’t do it again,” he mumbled.
“I promise I won’t ever try to hurt my baby again,” Yoochun said cheekily with a grin.
“Cheesy,” Junsu chuckled.
“Come here you dolt,” Yoochun pulled Junsu into his embrace and hugged him tight while receiving a protest from Junsu for being called a dolt.
“You are the only one Su, believe me on that okay?” Yoochun whispered softly.
He only heard Junsu’s growling stomach in return and could not help but laugh at Junsu’s embarrassment.
“Dolt,” Yoochun grinned and leaned in, giving Junsu a sweet kiss before pulling back.
“Come on, I need to feed my hungry dolt!” Yoochun joked as they got out of the car with the packed food in his hand.
“I’m not a dolt you idiot!” Junsu protested but laughed heartily.
“I’m your idiot, you’re my dolt,” Yoochun stuck his tongue out at him.
Junsu chuckled, “fine. Idiot,” Junsu stuck his tongue back at him.
‘No matter what is on my mind, it is always about you.’
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How was it? What do you think? And in case if you're wondering what was in Yoochun's mind, please guess! It has to do with the last part 'His Eyes, His Gaze'. If anyone guessed it right, I'll dedicate the next part to those who got it right. ^.^
Thank you so much for reading! ^.^
zkye~