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gilraenfelagund

The rantings of a hormonal Erica...

Sep 07, 2006 22:56

This day shall be marked in the history books...as the day that I actually turned Derek down. Yup, Derek actually wanted to have sex, but I turned him down. Never done that before, and I felt absolutely wretched about it. I just...wasn't feeling up to it. Understand, please, that that is a VERY unusual feeling for me. But I'd been feeling "bleh" ( Read more... )

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angelfallentear September 8 2006, 16:35:02 UTC

that's what your LJ is for though hun.

It is weird when you're the one doing the turning down. I think I've done it a couple times...but it always makes me feel bad. You'll get used to it though.

Sagira is balancing on my chest and the table I keep Sephy on...and he's kneeding my elbow...he's sucha weird kitty!!! He's all...PURRRrrrrRRRrrrrrRRRRR!

anyway...I got side tracked...

gilraenfelagund September 8 2006, 16:50:25 UTC

NooooOooOooooooooooOo!!!
Haha, I almost cried!!!
Bah, stupidity...

angelfallentear September 8 2006, 16:51:23 UTC

I swear you'll be ok..you have to get used to saying no if y'all are going to be married...there will be times that you won't want to b/c...you're preggers...or you've been working and cleaning all day...or w/e...you'll be ok:)

gilraenfelagund September 8 2006, 19:05:48 UTC

Oh, I'm okay now...it's a little funny now to me.

My main worry is that Derek will get used to me giving it up whenever he wants it...because, really, that's kind of how it is, as my sex drive is usually higher than his. You know what I mean? Like...when I'm all raring to go, he'd be like, "Ehhh...not so much" and then, when he's FINALLY ready to play, of COURSE I will be too, ya know?

However, it hasn't been that way for a while. It used to be, and it was really frustrating. But, now it's better, and he initiates more now. It's cool. =)

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