every day i feel like i crash and rebuild. but i'll be fine, i swear to god.

in 46 days and 7 minutes i turn 18 years old.
holy fucking shit.

- helen.

my life turned from absolutely shitty to fucking AWESOME in a matter of hours on tuesday.

i can't save the whole world and that is fine. i can at least save my own.

- helen.

please don't leave me cold like this again.

- helen.

to think i was making my freshman first day post just a little over three years ago... such a long time ago.
i can't even believe it, this thing has watched me grow.

and now we have senior year.

homeroom: i have parrino and this is totally awesome. buuuuut because she was taking her littlest ragamuffin to kindergarten today, mr. muley was watching us ( Read more... )

i feel like everything in that last entry doesn't even matter anymore.

someone may be coming down to see me soon :).
i could not be any happier with my life at the moment.

if anyone still reads my hoo hah, i recommend you all the novel lilith by j.r. salamanca.
it's a story of a schizophrenic woman who creates her own world, people, language and gospel through her art, told through the eyes of occupational therapist ( Read more... )

i'm bipolar and i'm not sure why i do what i do or feel what i feel.

- helen.

edit: 0 to 180 in less than a second. wow.

three years ago today, teetering on the edge of middle school and the fissure that is high school, i made this journal.
i read through everything that happened.
ho-ly fuck how much i have grown.
and ho-ly fuck how much wiggle room i have, and always will have.

someone dreamed they kissed me a few nights ago.
i am sterling.

- helen.

he called me. holy shit yes.

we're all alright.
we're all alright.

- helen.

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