Comments | ghymoreid: Some thoughts from someone more eloquent than I, with some of my inane blether to follow

ghymoreid

Some thoughts from someone more eloquent than I, with some of my inane blether to follow

Sep 27, 2009 01:32

[T]herapy also helped me identify when my past would rear up and cause me to get self-abusive, with no trigger and no discernible, tangible reason. There’s just a lot of that shit built up, and it comes out in bits and pieces, usually whenever I feel happy and calm and nothing’s going on. BAM. Crippling depression. Because there’s no trigger, no ( Read more... )

depression, stupid shit people do, i'm an idiot, fuck this for a game of soldiers, love and other catastrophes

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amberite2112 September 26 2009, 20:30:54 UTC

thank you for posting this. it gave me some good insight into my short, currently ending, marriage. and some hope, too.
i'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time.

galacticchick September 26 2009, 20:53:10 UTC

I have discovered that some partners have the capacity to see past the fucked up shit as just being fucked up shit and are able to understand that it isn't really us talking, it's the abuse. I've been able to work through fucktons of old stuff because Michael doesn't see the stuff as me, it's just stuff someone else put there.Therapy in combination with the knowledge that you are truly, really loved might be the path to real healing: sometimes, as you wrote in this post, other people can say or interpret our stuff more eloquently/insightfully than we can, allowing us to express our stuff and move forward in a greater leap than we could have done thrashing around on our own. Skilled therapists can do that ( ... )

missedangel September 26 2009, 21:55:09 UTC

"I do love Cam. But I might have to go back in to therapy. How fucking messed up is that?"

Nope what would be more fucked up is if you had the expectation that just because you're in a relationship everything would be magically wonderful.

So on that count your doing better than some!

"...because, let's face it, I fucking am a heinous bitch, don't you people know anything?"

opps, sorry, nope hadn't ever noticed this you'll have to try harder ;)

**hugs**
P.S. (I did have a moment of clarity last night that went "don't get into a flexibility contest with a person with EDS".)

mammatash September 27 2009, 00:45:32 UTC

**hugs**
**love**

greenglowgrrl September 27 2009, 13:17:04 UTC

Seconding missedangel.

Actually, seems like a good time to go into therapy, because you have something good going that's a motivator to get stuff sorted.

More love and hugs.