My roommate put together a computer system in a flash because I was in some sort of a panic, and now I feel that she is really more generous and thoughtful than I gave her credit for; just an MIT computer head, like everyone else in Cambridge, and I guess I forget - it's just hard to remember because she's a girl. Speaks in commandments, lives to ' ( Read more... )

everyone has left for Thanksgiving and i am oddly relieved to be alone - but not for long. Chastity #1 is coming over to drink, but I might already be spent. I am thinking of going to my roommate's house for dinner tomorrow, but I think I might cry about missing His last Thanksgiving - pretty sure I will - and don't want to embarrass anyone. Trying ( Read more... )

I just had a heaving, extended, sob fest. I have a nasty cold. Cleaned me out a bit - feel better, after feeling damn sorry for myself over a solid few hours. Roommates pretended I was telling the truth when I said "I hit my head," just to see if I'd get away with it. Thing is, no one ever calls you on your shit when you petty your pain, because ( Read more... )

Despite several kindnesses of late, I have felt increasingly estranged and precarious amongst a cleaner species. I feel as though I am the only one who has pores - who leaks - a reaction to a hostile, changeable climate, in easier weather ( Read more... )

At 3:30 in the morning, after a 14 hour stretch of sleep the night before, I am the smartest woman ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVVVVVVVVVE ( Read more... )

Pulled a complete waste of an all-nighter in which I kept lucid napping for ten minutes at a time, only to awaken and write one line of the memo, nap again, re-write the one line, and repeat...no sleep, no memo. Trying to make up for crucial lost time from this weekend; Kiik came to visit and just left yesterday - extremely worth it and extremely ( Read more... )

I cried at school today. Jumped up and out to escape detection, but considering the incredible wind velocity and the big windows, all were probably watching California girl in her stupid billowing dress clutching her cell phone, wondering 'what's she doing....oh....nevermind..oh she's crying. Probably got yelled at in Property, the baby ( Read more... )

Completely plastered at a bar last night, I wander out of my awful pen of friends, find a ring of old guys to trophy myself into instead. As I'm mouthing off loudly, chewing down their cigars - my throat hurts - I finally realize I'm wasted and making dirty jokes with the Dean of Students. HA! Oh well. A pocket full of Deans. All of them were - ( Read more... )

My dad rode his motorcycle all over town with numb legs. Yesterday, he got in the car and drove himself several hours to a casino. Cancer patients gone wild, indeed. He says, tender voiced, "I have to do some things. It's important." My mother is terrible - not speaking to him, having money fits. I say again, I do not like the woman. I wonder if ( Read more... )

The house smells bad ( Read more... )