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[geekchick]

Found in comments in matociquala's journal, in her post linking to this wonderful post by yuki_onna. Go read at least that last link, I'll wait.

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After the Pyre, Li-Young Lee
(from Behind My EyesIt turns out, what keeps you alive

Comments

[brian1789]

Ouch. That's a zinger... for me, much of the past five years has been spent unlearning or turning-down the once-survival-skills that were keeping me apart from others. Thanks for helping me to crash those old walls.

And may I hold your hand? (soft smile)

[cyan_blue]

for me, much of the past five years has been spent unlearning or turning-down the once-survival-skills that were keeping me apart from others.

And you've been doing a really good job, there, beloved, of being brave and opening to new trusts.

[just_the_ash]

This absolutely resonates for me. Completely, totally, for reasons we've talked about and reasons we haven't yet -- but living with the Ex taught me paranoia, the art of not completely revealing oneself, the art of the double life, the cover story, looking innocent but not being that way. Needless to say, I'm sick of that shit.

You can has hug whenever.

[gipsieee]

Ow, ow, ow.
Yes, me too. I've been there. I'm still there. There are people who care and want to see what I really think. Who don't just want to be told whatever it is that they want to hear. Who want to actually see me.
It's a hard lesson, but living is worth it. I'm tired of simply going through the motions. Though at the moment I'm also tired of doing the work to build myself new models. Blessedly some of them are firmly enough in place that autopilot uses them instead of the old ones. It's worth it.