REAL.
Title: Didn't you guys notice it?
Pairing: G-Ri and the whole world
Summary: Kwon Ji Yong is fed up. He rants and rants and rants.
Warning: Unbeta-ed and definitely all over the place. That's G-Dragon to you.
Didn't You Guys Notice It?
You don't really understand why poeple don't get it. The world isn't a simple place where black is black and white is white. It ain't like that, okay? It ain't like that. The world is complicated with its many criss cross of woven truths and lies and in betweens, half truths and jokes and hidden messages. The world is like that, okay? Seriously people. Get a clue.
So just because you hug and kiss someone on screen, doesn't mean it's really like that in real life. Just because you hang on to someone on screen doesn't mean you hang on to them when the cameras aren't rolling. Maybe a casual arm around the shoulder, an innocent peck like a quick kiss, a head on the shoulder type of thing but never never more than friendship. Come on, why would you be doing that on screen if everything was real? If there's something more than friendship? Seriously, you have better self control than that, and common sense too.Think people, would Kwon Jiyong really risk getting caught red handed? He’s smarter than that.
Why do you do it then?
It's because you find doing these things with others safe. Very safe, as opposed to doing it with the one you really love and like. So you use each other and you use your friendship and the hidden messages are passed from member to member, the casual gestures magnified, the little glances tucked behind unknowing eyes. It’s a simple game: Hide The Truth From The World.
Because the truth almost got out. Almost. Really really close to being found out that the whole group panicked and he panicked and you panicked and as the leader, you had to do something, anything.
That’s when it all began. The drifitng apart. The proclamation of ownership stopped.The constant display of anything more than friendship stopped. Actually, you guess the two of you are taking it too seriously at times because there are moments when you would be downright mean and you’d have to say sorry to him and he'll smirk and you'll laugh and it will be all alright.. And anyway, it’s a good thing damage control was done before it got out of hand because damn if it did. You even got asked in an interview about it and the whole group thanked Dae for his quick save.
Ah, the good friend that is Dae.
He keeps you from being too showy and being too Seungri-minded. He provides the comfort that you need, the shoulder you can sling your arms around to, the person you can hug and squeeze during interviews. He keeps you entertained and most of the time you dote on him so much too. That when you get home, Seungri becomes really jealous and doesn’t speak to you for a week. Those times he spends with Bae.
Ah, the good guardian angel that is Bae.
Bae knows everything. Right from when it all started. Right from when he noticed the change in tone you use with the kid, nor the change in your eyse when you’re talking about him or talking to him, even the change in your actions towards each other. He noticed them all. Plus he’s a really good safe zone for Seungri where the kid can fall back and someone will surely catch him but honestly? You get jealous at times, seeing them be really close to each other while the cameras are rolling and you’re forced to antagonize the kid. But still, Bae is a good safe zone, just like how TOP is to you.
Ah, the great almighty TOP.
Hm, how do you say this? Hyung and you, you understand each other. There’s no awkwardness between the two of you and you’re safe like that. He’s okay with all the skinship and that’s what you need. Someone who is ready to make the girls swoon and giggle and have fangirls write fanfics and take screen captures of the many moments you hang on to him. Fanservice. It's so simple. Fanservice. It's like black is black and white is white. Fan service. Fan service. Unlike with Seungri.
Ah, the one you adore too much.
Seungri. Lee Seunghyun. The one you cannot catch up with. Cannot follow up with. The only person you have ever met who isn't and will not submit to you. The first time you met him you asked what he thinks of you and he wasn't intimidated by your popularity but said you've grown up a lot and you wanted to smack him cause he was being too straightforward but you also cannot help but admire him, for being someone you can stand equal with, someone who has got too much confidence in his eyes it's scary but you like it, like that fire, like that confidence, that sureness and you- just like him.
How do you describe the relationship between the two of you?
It's complicated. It's like a criss cross of woven truths and lies and in betweens, half truths and jokes and hidden messages. You and Seungri are like that. At first it was just simple, like black is black and white is white, it's just fanservice (but he really is just too cute) and it would have remained that way, should have remained that way if it didn't develop to something more. Bae noticed it first. Then hyung. Then Dae. It was awkward and weird and it was a crisis.
And that was when the damage control was done. It was an agreement, a sort of silent and half-spoken agreement that you and him = cannot be together. It became really complicated because you can see that he likes you too and it's very fucking obvious that you like him too but for everyone's sake, for the group's sake, NyongTory has got to die down. Disappear.
Didn't anybody notice it?
People, are you fucking ignorant? Didn't anybody notice it? You were all over Seungri and you were freaking telling the whole world that he's yours and he's somewhat returning the affection (reluctantly at times) but he returns it, yeah he does and then suddenly it stops. Pause. Stop. End. Fin.
Didn't anybody notice that? Seriously.
Didn't anybody find it strange? How can something so fucking real disappear all of a sudden? Coincidence? Growing up? Change of hearts? Change of appeal? Change? Change to something real? Something real that it has got to stop because it is not safe to show real when it's supposed to be just fanservice. Fanservice fan service.
And damn this whole world for making you want to scream and fuck it just effing hell. WHY IS THE WORLD SO COMPLICATED?
Can't you just fly away? Fly somewhere where you can hold Seungri in your arms again and he'll laugh and he won't protest because there are cameras around. Or where he won't move away from you because he knows that you've got to control yourself, himself and there shouldn't be any more scandals and any more reasons for the world to see a hole and poke at it and see Kwon Jiyong loves Lee Seunghyun.
Aish.
You hate this world and its principles and damn everyone one of them principles and damn. Damn damn damn.
And still, even if you need to step back, let NyongTory die (because it's now real), still you're kind of happy that the realness is somewhat there when it's just you and him and the group and no other people with pens and microphones and cameras or placards. Still you're the closest to him. Still you understand each other on a level too real and too high that the other members cannot climb on it and it's just the two of you up there, enjoying the world through NyongTory eyes nd it's so fucking beautiful.
Sometimes you slip, though. And you still do little stuff with him and the camera accidentally catches the moment and it's embarassing but mostly, you try to stay away.
For the sake of the group.
Because the world is complicated. It's a world where white is never just white but a million different shades of blue and red and green and yellow and Lee Seunghyun's smiles and laughs and his lips and your love for him and it's just so fucking real.
Real. Real. Real.
AN: So I was in a ranting mode and this just came out. Also, my sister (who's also a GRi fan) has been fuming about the lack of GRi these days. So yeah. The lack of GRi makes good fiction.
Pairing: G-Ri and the whole world
Summary: Kwon Ji Yong is fed up. He rants and rants and rants.
Warning: Unbeta-ed and definitely all over the place. That's G-Dragon to you.
Didn't You Guys Notice It?
You don't really understand why poeple don't get it. The world isn't a simple place where black is black and white is white. It ain't like that, okay? It ain't like that. The world is complicated with its many criss cross of woven truths and lies and in betweens, half truths and jokes and hidden messages. The world is like that, okay? Seriously people. Get a clue.
So just because you hug and kiss someone on screen, doesn't mean it's really like that in real life. Just because you hang on to someone on screen doesn't mean you hang on to them when the cameras aren't rolling. Maybe a casual arm around the shoulder, an innocent peck like a quick kiss, a head on the shoulder type of thing but never never more than friendship. Come on, why would you be doing that on screen if everything was real? If there's something more than friendship? Seriously, you have better self control than that, and common sense too.Think people, would Kwon Jiyong really risk getting caught red handed? He’s smarter than that.
Why do you do it then?
It's because you find doing these things with others safe. Very safe, as opposed to doing it with the one you really love and like. So you use each other and you use your friendship and the hidden messages are passed from member to member, the casual gestures magnified, the little glances tucked behind unknowing eyes. It’s a simple game: Hide The Truth From The World.
Because the truth almost got out. Almost. Really really close to being found out that the whole group panicked and he panicked and you panicked and as the leader, you had to do something, anything.
That’s when it all began. The drifitng apart. The proclamation of ownership stopped.The constant display of anything more than friendship stopped. Actually, you guess the two of you are taking it too seriously at times because there are moments when you would be downright mean and you’d have to say sorry to him and he'll smirk and you'll laugh and it will be all alright.. And anyway, it’s a good thing damage control was done before it got out of hand because damn if it did. You even got asked in an interview about it and the whole group thanked Dae for his quick save.
Ah, the good friend that is Dae.
He keeps you from being too showy and being too Seungri-minded. He provides the comfort that you need, the shoulder you can sling your arms around to, the person you can hug and squeeze during interviews. He keeps you entertained and most of the time you dote on him so much too. That when you get home, Seungri becomes really jealous and doesn’t speak to you for a week. Those times he spends with Bae.
Ah, the good guardian angel that is Bae.
Bae knows everything. Right from when it all started. Right from when he noticed the change in tone you use with the kid, nor the change in your eyse when you’re talking about him or talking to him, even the change in your actions towards each other. He noticed them all. Plus he’s a really good safe zone for Seungri where the kid can fall back and someone will surely catch him but honestly? You get jealous at times, seeing them be really close to each other while the cameras are rolling and you’re forced to antagonize the kid. But still, Bae is a good safe zone, just like how TOP is to you.
Ah, the great almighty TOP.
Hm, how do you say this? Hyung and you, you understand each other. There’s no awkwardness between the two of you and you’re safe like that. He’s okay with all the skinship and that’s what you need. Someone who is ready to make the girls swoon and giggle and have fangirls write fanfics and take screen captures of the many moments you hang on to him. Fanservice. It's so simple. Fanservice. It's like black is black and white is white. Fan service. Fan service. Unlike with Seungri.
Ah, the one you adore too much.
Seungri. Lee Seunghyun. The one you cannot catch up with. Cannot follow up with. The only person you have ever met who isn't and will not submit to you. The first time you met him you asked what he thinks of you and he wasn't intimidated by your popularity but said you've grown up a lot and you wanted to smack him cause he was being too straightforward but you also cannot help but admire him, for being someone you can stand equal with, someone who has got too much confidence in his eyes it's scary but you like it, like that fire, like that confidence, that sureness and you- just like him.
How do you describe the relationship between the two of you?
It's complicated. It's like a criss cross of woven truths and lies and in betweens, half truths and jokes and hidden messages. You and Seungri are like that. At first it was just simple, like black is black and white is white, it's just fanservice (but he really is just too cute) and it would have remained that way, should have remained that way if it didn't develop to something more. Bae noticed it first. Then hyung. Then Dae. It was awkward and weird and it was a crisis.
And that was when the damage control was done. It was an agreement, a sort of silent and half-spoken agreement that you and him = cannot be together. It became really complicated because you can see that he likes you too and it's very fucking obvious that you like him too but for everyone's sake, for the group's sake, NyongTory has got to die down. Disappear.
Didn't anybody notice it?
People, are you fucking ignorant? Didn't anybody notice it? You were all over Seungri and you were freaking telling the whole world that he's yours and he's somewhat returning the affection (reluctantly at times) but he returns it, yeah he does and then suddenly it stops. Pause. Stop. End. Fin.
Didn't anybody notice that? Seriously.
Didn't anybody find it strange? How can something so fucking real disappear all of a sudden? Coincidence? Growing up? Change of hearts? Change of appeal? Change? Change to something real? Something real that it has got to stop because it is not safe to show real when it's supposed to be just fanservice. Fanservice fan service.
And damn this whole world for making you want to scream and fuck it just effing hell. WHY IS THE WORLD SO COMPLICATED?
Can't you just fly away? Fly somewhere where you can hold Seungri in your arms again and he'll laugh and he won't protest because there are cameras around. Or where he won't move away from you because he knows that you've got to control yourself, himself and there shouldn't be any more scandals and any more reasons for the world to see a hole and poke at it and see Kwon Jiyong loves Lee Seunghyun.
Aish.
You hate this world and its principles and damn everyone one of them principles and damn. Damn damn damn.
And still, even if you need to step back, let NyongTory die (because it's now real), still you're kind of happy that the realness is somewhat there when it's just you and him and the group and no other people with pens and microphones and cameras or placards. Still you're the closest to him. Still you understand each other on a level too real and too high that the other members cannot climb on it and it's just the two of you up there, enjoying the world through NyongTory eyes nd it's so fucking beautiful.
Sometimes you slip, though. And you still do little stuff with him and the camera accidentally catches the moment and it's embarassing but mostly, you try to stay away.
For the sake of the group.
Because the world is complicated. It's a world where white is never just white but a million different shades of blue and red and green and yellow and Lee Seunghyun's smiles and laughs and his lips and your love for him and it's just so fucking real.
Real. Real. Real.
AN: So I was in a ranting mode and this just came out. Also, my sister (who's also a GRi fan) has been fuming about the lack of GRi these days. So yeah. The lack of GRi makes good fiction.