Mar 28, 2010 16:13
Chapter 16
During 1 Pound no Fukuin, 2008
Jin is still holding Kame in his arms while drawing soft circles on his back to make him relax, but his touches were making Kame shiver and getting nervous even more. Kame realized the position the two of them were and he regretted showing his tears to Jin and how weak he got. It made him more upset knowing that the latter has seen his effect on him. However, there was that awful sensation, the same one he felt that day. His senses became alert, smelling Jin’s shampoo, feeling the blood rushing in his veins from the latter touch, hearing his heavy breath, having butterflies in his stomach, feeling his heart loud and fast beats, feeling a familiar warmth which he missed and worst of all, wanting to feel more of Jin.
Kame panicked because images started to play around his head, images he wanted to forget and move on from. His shivers became bad that his body started to rock heavily which got Jin worried. When Jin checked Kame’s face, he was shocked to see tears dropping from his eyes. Kame was crying silently and his face showed hurt and shock expression. Jin knew that the only way to make Kame feel better is by unwrap his arms around him, but he didn’t want to. He missed this, having Kame in his arms. He doesn’t care whether the latter is happy about it or not because he is and that’s enough for him to keep holding on Kame and not let go. He was that selfish!
Kame regained his mind couple of minutes after and started to struggle, trying to push Jin away from him, but he couldn’t. It always puzzled him how strong Jin is. He thought he’s definitely stronger that he’s playing a boxer role now, but he isn’t against Jin. After couple of minutes from struggling, Kame got weaker and gave up.
Kame: *in a broke voice* why?
Jin: *Jin panicked, he didn’t expect this question and remained silent*
Kame: WHY? *Kame was shaking Jin’s body with his to answer him*
Jin: Will you believe me if I said because I loved you?
Kame: How can you say that? Don’t lie to me!
Jin: I’m not lying Kazu!
Kame: *cries from hearing his name being called just like the past*
Jin: I was stupid, young and selfish. I didn’t know how to act when I discovered my feelings toward you and instead of telling you how I feel, I was denying it till the point where I couldn’t control my feelings anymore. You don’t know how many times I tried real hard to tell you how much I love you. *Kame is in total shock that his tears stopped from falling* I even wrote letters, trying to confess in an old fashion way, but I couldn’t give them to you.
Kame: Then, why? Why couldn’t you confess, but was able to *gulp* take me so easily?
Jin: *smiles bitterly* you mean rape you Kazu
Kame: *tears start falling as the memory hunts him back again*
The Last Day of Real Face Tour, 2006
~Hotel Room~
Kame heads toward the door, but Jin push him away from the door, locks it and turn around to meet Kame’s gaze. Kame was annoyed and seeing Jin locking the door made him even more annoyed. He could never have imagined that Jin needed his help for this. For sleeping with him? He just didn’t get it. He always knew his best friend was dumb, but to ask something like this from him was just too low, confusing and unreal. “Does love even mean anything to him” Kame thought.
Jin walked toward Kame who got freaked out from seeing Jin’s eyes that was blank. He ran away from Jin heading toward the door again, but Jin caught him and held his tight grip on his hands.
Kame: ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?? LET ME GO!! *panic started to tear his heart and mind*
Jin: I will Kazu, but not now!
Jin pinned Kame to the wall and started kissing the younger boy. Kame was shocked, trying his best to push Jin away, but the latter have been always stronger than him, so he kept shaking his head avoiding Jin’s lips screaming his lungs out at the older boy to regain his senses since it seems like he lost all of it.
Kame: STOP!! JIN!! ARE YOU DRUNK??
Jin: I am…from your smell…I’m glad you wore this perfume...I always have loved it!! *gazes at Kame’s face*
Kame: JIN!! PLEASE STOP THIS JOKE!! IT’S NOT FUNNY ANYMORE!!
Jin: Who said anything about joking? I’m dead serious Kazu!! *bites and licks Kame’s neck*
Kame: *hiss in pain* STOP!!
Jin: It’s just for once Kazu…I swear, I’ll never ask you again!
Kame: NOO!! ARE YOU EVEN HEARING YOURSELF? THIS IS NOT A GAME!! THIS IS MY BODY YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT!! THESE THINGS SHOULD BE DONE WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE!!
Jin flinched from Kame’s scream which gave Kame a chance to escape. He started running toward the bathroom, but was stopped by Jin who reached him from behind and pushed him to the floor real hard. Kame hissed in pain and started yelling at Jin again threatening him that he’ll scream if he kept doing this, but the latter ignored all his protests and pinned him down on the floor. Kame started kicking Jin real hard on the stomach making the other groan in pain, but ignored it. Kame started punching Jin while calling him names like ‘BASTARD’, ‘JERK’, ‘FUCKER’, ‘LOWLIFE’, but the latter got a hold of his hands again and held them both with one hand while the other worked its way till it reached Kame’s pants.
Kame gasped and started yelling again and shaking his head, eyes filled with tears and mouth kept saying ‘NO’ like a hymn, but Jin slipped his hand inside of the other boxer and started stroking him. Kame’s tears started to fall; he hated his body for reacting, hated Jin for everything he is doing to him and he started weeping and shaking having no control on his body. He felt helpless, powerless and weak against Jin for not being able to stop him. He started cursing himself for having no power to stop Jin from doing this, to him. They were friends for god sake?? How can he treat him like this? Is he having revenge on him by humiliating him? But, he never hurt Jin, so why? Jin head rose up after hearing the sobs of the younger boy and started kissing his face and his eyelids when the younger boy slapped him hard on the face taking advantage of the loosen grip on his hands.
Jin got shocked from the slap and he came back to his senses cursing himself for what he has done. He wasn’t that drunk, but his heart and body screamed for him to do this. He acted without thinking again. Kame was his best friend, his childhood friend and like a younger brother that he have always cared about. How can he cause him to cry like this? But then, Kame was the one who drove him crazy. He was responsible for those sleepless nights weeping over how unfair life was to make him feel this way. To feel love toward Kame, his band mate.
After Kame slapped Jin, he tried to run away again which was very hard to do with his hard-on and pants sliding down stopping on his ankles. He gripped on one of the bed’s edge and started pulling himself up with blurry vision from the tears in his eyes and an ache he felt on his back from the hit he got previously on the floor. Jin was lost in his thoughts when he noticed that Kame has stand up, but in wobbly condition and when he called his name and tried to touch his shoulder, the younger boy flinched away in fear ending up stumbling on the edge of the bed till he fell down.
Jin panicked from Kame’s reaction. It shocked him when the other was electrified by his touch, flinching and stumbling on the bed looking at him as if he was his worst nightmare, a monster. He realized what a great mistake was this, asking Kame to try sleeping with him just to fill his curiosity; when in reality; he just wanted to make sure of his feelings. He didn’t have the courage to confess and instead, he made matters worse…He even mentioned Pi, not knowing why or how….Maybe he thought it would make this sound normal? Words just came out from his mouth like that and now he hated himself for talking in the first place. Seeing Kame looking at him like this broke something inside of him. He knew after this, nothing will be the same anyway; they will never be the same anyway, so why not continue? Maybe he will at least win his heart after he has him? Doesn’t that happen a lot in movies?
Kame felt Goosebumps all over his body once Jin touched him. He freaked out, body shaking badly, heart racing like a marathon, mind is a complete mess and he went totally blank. He couldn’t think anymore. He saw something in Jin’s eyes, fear mixed with regret, but he didn’t care. All he wanted to do is run away, far away from Jin. He always knew that he felt something toward the older boy, but that kiss they shared told him something. He truly loved Jin, but this doesn’t mean anything to Jin. He kept reminding himself that this meant nothing to Jin and Jin was only experimenting!
He gathered all the strength remained in his body and turned around. He lifted his body up by his hands support, but all his efforts went to dust once a hand started stroking him again. He grabbed the hand trying to push it away, but it had him in a strong grip almost hurting him and he yelped in pain. Kame’s other hand gave up on him and he fell terribly on the bed, ashamed, exhausted and powerless. However, what made him feel worse was the sounds that were coming from his throat, sounds he never heard before, sounds that made Jin hard and goes crazy from lust. But, Kame was trying to fight those sounds and silence his throat by using his hands to shut himself up, so Jin turned the younger boy around seeing the silent tears falling, his heavy breaths and his face that Jin loved to gaze at very much. He took the younger boy length on his mouth and started sucking him earning some cries of protest from Kame, pleading for him to stop, but his body betrayed him, moaning to the touches and the feeling. Jin was merely following his instinct, his heart and his lust for the younger boy at the moment and nothing could stop him anymore. He didn’t care about what happens tomorrow or after this is finished. He wanted Kame and wanted him now!
Kame was losing it. He kept crying and pleading for Jin to stop, but the latter wouldn’t stop. He hated himself because he couldn’t deny the pleasure that started creeping into him. Jin mouth was around him, he felt Jin’s tongue licking him and the noises Jin made while sucking him was killing him even more. He wanted to die, he wanted to disappear, he wanted to vanish right now, but he wanted to cum so bad.
Jin knew that Kame was close and started stroking him again, seeing how Kame was muffling his cries and moans with his two hands, sobbing his heart out and looking so ashamed and hurt. Jin was hard from the scene he’s seeing and the face Kame was making. Kame was truly beautiful, alluring and he couldn’t deny how hard he’s becoming just from seeing and hearing Kame’s reactions.
Seconds later, Kame came shooting his fluid in Jin’s hand. He could only see white, still in a daze and felt real dizzy from the aftershock of his orgasm not noticing Jin taking off his pants and boxer off, but what he felt later dropped him from the daze he was in to the reality again when Jin entered him.
Jin saw how dazed Kame was, still shaking from his orgasm and took it as his chance to complete what he started. He took off his pants and boxers and started coating his length with his hands that had Kame’s cum on it. He started entering Kame who screamed in pain and started sobbing from the foreign intrusion he felt. It hurts like hell and Kame felt pain spread all over his body, felt like he’s going to break in any moment and wanted to die. Why didn’t Jin just kill him before doing this? It would have been better because all he is feeling right now is pain and betrayal. He has been betrayed by his best friend and this is the end of their friendship.
Kame: OUCH!! IT HURTS!! IT HURTS JIN!! *sobs loudly*
Jin entered Kame slowly and freaked out when he saw the pain displayed on his face and heard his yells. Kame felt like dying, he felt so ashamed feeling Jin inside of him, feeling a burning sensation inside of him and pure pain.
Jin: Relax Kazu! God, you feel great! *kisses Kame passionately*
Kame tried to stop Jin kisses at the beginning, but gave up later and started melting in the kisses. He couldn’t understand what he was feeling at that moment. He couldn’t even answer Jin kisses back at the beginning, not until Jin started to move slowly inside of him, hitting a spot inside of him that made him go mad.
Jin went mad from the moment he entered Kame. The tightness surrounding him was amazing and he had to gather all his strength to control himself and not thrust into Kame like a maniac, but when he heard a small moan coming from the younger boy, he lost all his resolution and couldn’t control himself anymore. That moan stirred something inside of him, that moan made him even more hard than he is and that moan made him want Kame even more. He started aiming for that spot, keeping his angle and thrusting fast inside of Kame who tried to muffle his moans, but couldn’t keep up with Jin’s speed anymore.
Kame did feel pain, a horrible pain of having Jin inside of him, but with each thrust aiming for something inside him, he felt something else spread and it was pleasure which made him hate himself even more. What made Kame hate himself the most is the fact that a part of him wished for this and was happy it happened! He was happy about those kisses, those hot kisses…Jin tongue touching his hot cavern and Jin lips that felt so unreal. He wishes for this….in the back of his mind…..always……somehow….he wished for this man……but now having him…like this…….is confusing him…because the older boy is merely experimenting……he’s not feeling anything……he’s just doing this while feeling nothing and that alone made him cry so badly……made his tears fall……nothing hurt more than doing this with someone you love who doesn’t love you back….
Jin groaned loudly when he felt himself close to climax and started to fasten his pace till he finally felt the heavenly pleasure as if he was floating in the sky. He dropped down on Kame breathing heavily, but was shocked when he couldn’t hear any more cries or sobs or moans. He gathered his strength and pushed himself up looking at Kame who had his eyes closed, but tears were filling his face. He kept calling Kame’s name, but there was no answer. All he saw was little blood in the bed sheet.
End of Chapter 16
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So now you know why Kame hates Jin so much, or is it really hate more than the feeling of hurt. I hope you enjoy this chapter and I can't wait to read your comments. ^^
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