022 [Semi-accidental video]

[curious_copycat]

[The feed crackles on and we have a Polly, the wall of a jail cell behind her. Just kind of. Staring. Out at you.]

[Her expression is very serious.]

[She looks away, fidgeting, then back at you, mouth half open as if she's on the verge of SAYING SOMETHING and it's VERY IMPORTANT[Aaaannnnnnd looks away again, somewhere between being angry with

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[steelalchemy]

[It's Polly!]

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[steelalchemy]

A few weeks?! But it wasn't your fault!

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[curious_copycat]

I still killed people. I still hurt them, and set fire to things.

They said... if I'd done what I did on a planet, the people there would've held me for years.

So, really... it's okay.

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[steelalchemy]

[Ed was never one for legal details, but Polly is right about the planet. Things are much more lenient on the Thor.]

It's still not right...

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[curious_copycat]

[She shakes her head; she's never really going to agree with him on that.]

If I'd been able to accept that part of me... If I could've even acknowledged it...

Ed, I don't think it would've happened like this!

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[steelalchemy]

[Her statement rather reminds him of Shinjiro, and he makes a mental note to see if maybe he'll come talk to Polly.]

Sometimes it's hard to realise it's there, and even harder to acknowledge it. Sometimes... you don't know what kind of anger you're capable of until something sets you off.

[He looks down at his hands.]

I had a friend once, a little girl named Nina. I was using her father's library, looking at his research. She just wanted to play, she was so lonely... Her rather was always busy with his research and her only companion was her dog Alexander.

Her father... he used her in an experiment. When I realised what he'd done... I hit him. And I kept hitting him... because I knew there wasn't anything I could do to save Nina. Al finally pulled me off of him. But when I heard he'd been murdered the next day... there was a part of me that wasn't at all sorry he was dead.

I know it's not the same... but what you went through, I wouldn't have wanted to remember it either.

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[curious_copycat]

[She listens, genuinely horrified.]

That's awful...!

I thought fathers were... different--like Mr. Hughes!

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[steelalchemy]

Some of them are like Lieutenant Colonel Hughes. My friend Winry, her father was really nice. Some people though... some men don't deserve to be fathers.

[Does he mean Hohenheim as well? Not really. Hohenheim just isn't on any 'father' list at the current time. Shou Tucker though... he made 'WORST FATHERS EVER' list.]

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[curious_copycat]

[She nods, frowning.]

It's like mothers, then...

I wonder... I wonder if mine did...

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[steelalchemy]

If you don't know, then just believe what you want to believe. There's little point in 'what ifs' and 'maybes'. And really... it's more often complicated than not.

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[curious_copycat]

... That's true.

Then, I hope he was someone nice.

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[steelalchemy]

You had to have gotten your nice-ness from somewhere.

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[curious_copycat]

[She gives a mildly startled blink, then flushes pink.]

I-I...

From you all... A lot of it.

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[steelalchemy]

Maybe we helped bring it out, but it would have already been there to start with.

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[curious_copycat]

Maybe. I dunno... There was no one to be nice to...

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[steelalchemy]

Well, people that have to learn how to be nice, it takes a while.