You're doing a great job. Please keep the growth going. It's a shame Cowlip can't see their way to doing the same. At least we can live off your story!
I put on a good front, but underneath I'm a fucking coward… And I can't face the truth about myself. That I'm fucking lonely and miserable a lot of the time. I say that I value honesty over everything else, but if you can't be honest with yourself...." Brian paused. There was a tightness in his throat. "I'm trying. But it's difficult."
And where the hell did you get your hands on the unpublished ‘Brian Kinney Operating Manual’?? To me this isn’t schmoopy. It’s more like a post S5 Brian at 34 or 35. Brian isn’t succumbing to the fakey Victorian romance of the inn, but to the reality of the moment with Justin. In the ECS, Justin grew up too fast. This Justin is still innocent, but smart, and could really get his heart broken. He doesn’t know he authored the book in another stream.
Mmmm….purr… actually I do dogs but they don’t make identifiable satisfied sounds.
This was really an amazing break through for Brian to admit that he was afraid of change. This was a beautiful chapter. I really liked Brian hanging his head as Justin scolded him about hating everything. It was so like the little boy he is inside. m
I loved the way Justin just let the remark about Brian's "trick" sail right on by like the eagle soaring in the wind. It wasn't worth commenting on...just a snarky statement by a very insecure Brian.
I can't seem to find the words to describe how I felt when Brian revealed his deepest thoughts, his cowardly behavior with his Mom, and his darkest fears by admitting it's those " 'that I can't control' ." Validated, relieved, moved????
Maybe all of those emotions tumbling into one big sigh.
Now I'm kvelling......"Brian felt a warmth moving through him. Like something that had been frozen for a very long time was thawing deep inside."
OTP.....Brian and Justin.....making each other stronger and more secure to face the world outside that idyllic retreat.
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how he slowly allows himself to feel, almost
against his will.
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And where the hell did you get your hands on the unpublished ‘Brian Kinney Operating Manual’?? To me this isn’t schmoopy. It’s more like a post S5 Brian at 34 or 35. Brian isn’t succumbing to the fakey Victorian romance of the inn, but to the reality of the moment with Justin. In the ECS, Justin grew up too fast. This Justin is still innocent, but smart, and could really get his heart broken. He doesn’t know he authored the book in another stream.
Mmmm….purr… actually I do dogs but they don’t make identifiable satisfied sounds.
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this season, I found it and have been using
it for my own non-evil purposes.
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This chapter was incredible.
I loved the way Justin just let the remark about Brian's "trick" sail right on by like the eagle soaring in the wind. It wasn't worth commenting on...just a snarky statement by a very insecure Brian.
I can't seem to find the words to describe how I felt when Brian revealed his deepest thoughts, his cowardly behavior with his Mom, and his darkest fears by admitting it's those " 'that I can't control' ."
Validated, relieved, moved????
Maybe all of those emotions tumbling into one big sigh.
Now I'm kvelling......"Brian felt a warmth moving through him. Like something that had been frozen for a very long time was thawing deep inside."
OTP.....Brian and Justin.....making each other stronger and more secure to face the world outside that idyllic retreat.
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