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[fuyuzare]

//REAL LIFE STUFF//I've been kind of up and down the last few days... I feel a bit happier today but its been quite difficult recently. The main problem is that whenever I'm even vaguely upset, my mother freaks out. I don't know if anyone remembers, but my uncle died in late June or so, I posted about it... Anyway, a week after I found out he died

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[zekkai]

-dies from your screencaps- XD

-hugs you-

[fuyuzare]

Yayz~~!! XDDD I totally enjoyed those OVAs, omg. And even though I understand most of what they're saying, it's so much more fun to have them saying what I want them to say... XDD ::is a humungous dork::

And thanks ::hugs back:: ♥

[disutansu]

*paws for the next episode* I need, I want. [/random]

[fuyuzare]

I know!!! Hyoutei are so great, I'm totally enjoying the anime again now d(^o^)b And next time is Inu!Kai~~!! ♥ Gah. Throw in some Silver Pair and I'm going to explode with the Power of Squee XDD

[disutansu]

I can't wait for more InuKai doubles match. *is just a wee bit obsessed*

[jania_monster]

Oh, Hattie... :( *presses you into a hug*

I'm so sorry to hear that. So, life got too heavy for him...

I can understand how your mom would be on edge about you right now, but she is handling this completely and totally wrong. *firm nod* She should not be saying things like that to you. Perhaps she's just controlled her feelings too much before, and now it's all bursting out. But still she she should take a moment to think a little bit about what she says to her own daughter

[fuyuzare]

She's being a lot more rational now. Today she picked me up from school early and is being really supportive. It's just hard for her to see me upset. She's just like me, so she gets angry easily, but she's trying so hard at the moment, that alone makes me feel happier. So we'll see how it goes from here ^^

Haha ^^ Sorry, it's all rambling, really. I use LJ as my anime!squee output place because no one in Real Life will take it =D

[jania_monster]

Well, that's a very nice thing to hear! :D Tell her you love her or something else sappy like that!

I'm so happy for you both, that she's making the effort. ^___^ We only have one mom...

(Except for Link_Worshiper, of course. XP )

[scrat_squirrel]

"And so now whenever I'm upset, my mother starts shouting at me, asking if I'm going to kill myself like him. Which I'm not. It makes it quite a lot harder. But anyway."

I don't know. The way you've been acting and what you've been doing to yourself would get anyone worried. And i think that's the only way she can express her emotions, in that she doesn't want to lose you. Maybe she's just trying to get you to realise that you do mean something to her, but she doesn't really know how to express it? So it comes out as shouting, and especially with all that has happened recently in your family loosing you would be a huge huge thing. I'm not saying you're going to kill yourself or anything like that. I think she's worried about you. In fact, I'm very worried about you. I don't think you'll talk to anyone about how you feel. It is very hard to talk to anyone about how you feel. And i don't think you'll talk to me. But even though i don't show it at school or wherever, i do think about you and worry. Lots of *hugs* anyway. xxx

[fuyuzare]

Yeah, I know. I feel so sorry for her all the time. But we're being a lot more supportive of each other. And I'm going to try hard to get over this depression. I think I've just outgrown this lifestyle... I need to start again somewhere totally new. Guess I've only got a few more months before I can do that...

Anyways, thanks so much ::hugs:: I know you're always there for me, Stelly-pon. That thought always makes me feel better. ♥

[scrat_squirrel]

Just remember that you can't just 'get over' depression like writing something down and then throwing it in the bin. It'd be so amazing if all issues could be sloved like that but stupidly enough, no. I know exactly what you mean about going somewhere new though. I think a lot of people at school feel the same way, for different reasons as well. Try and be a bit more positive :) You only have these years once. Going forward is all well and good but you can't go back as easily.

Anyway, as i've said, i'm here for you.

I do realise that this is a realativly late comment but stuff i only just read lj

[_windigo_]

I'm not gonna give advise or tell you "i understand" and all that claptrap because you know it all already and that's one of the reasons you are trying to fight the depression i know.
So all i say is
*HUG*
and i can listen very well when it's needed, honestly i do shut up occasionally and actually listen to others i'm not a doctor yet!! so just poke me when you need to.

loooooooove!!!