Dear World,

This entry will have an everlasting impression on those who thought I was dead.  This entry also yields numerous justifications to hate, love, satisfy, self-victimize, pre-dominize, and be hella glad I'm not anywhere near them.

the truth is, the breakup was preplanned long before it happened.  Becca started to lose interest in me after our very first breakup.  She personally even told me so.  More proof?  How about being so sick of me that you cannot see me for two days in a row.  I didn't try to kill you so don't fucking spread false shit but then again, you couldn't ( Read more... )

Greetings my beloved electronic readers!

I am currently typing from a computer somewhere in the city of Prato (a city in Italy).  I arrived to the wonderful place 2 days ago and woke up with the most mind-splitting headache known to mankind.  I crashed at my friend Fulvios house.  I stayed up until 5am playing a bunch of drunk games with my new ( Read more... )

It is so much easier to be against something than to be for something.  The reason I haven't been writing much anymore is because I have become overpowered by a strong wave of depression.  This is not a self-pity trip so I would like all thoughts acting accordingly to seize activity now!  I have become very apathetic and nihilistic towards life in ( Read more... )

i went to rapids yesterday

barely any niggers

overpriced food

extensive lines

but i had i a good time for the most part

although i now hate rapids

no i am not scared of the fucking slides

i'm just too lethargic to deal with it all

i suffer from depression

not bi-polar disorder

because the hapiness part of bi-polar disorder seems to never occur

no euphoria ( Read more... )

                                                                                          pride and angst

cutting down the lines of communication

we are one we are the youth of a nation

raiding schools

riots in the streets

playin' the tools

rockin' your seat

we are right
because
you never proved us wrong

the youth of a nation to which we belong

drugs, sex ( Read more... )

tell me all the courageous things you've done that justified the fight for your right and then compare them to mine

let's compare action v.s. thought

tell me all the pain and suffering you've been through

then tell me all the pain and suffering i've been through

look me straight in the eye

and call me a pussy

at least I made an attempt

at least I have the ( Read more... )

the past is renewed ( Read more... )

one day 
far away
you will see
the angel is me
what seemed a crux
was just a spook
i observed from there
i wasn't fair
but now i've changed
no longer deranged
do not be afraid
i'm no longer for trade
i saw the void
your trust destroyed
but i will remain here waiting
while you are contemplating
weather or not my love is true
because my definition of love
is being ( Read more... )

its pillsy:  its fine dude
its pillsy:  damn dude
its pillsy:  i can teel u love her a lot