Isn’t it funny how the more money you make the more bills and expenses you have? Or maybe I’ve just been paying off too much of my debt at one time? Anywayz, I need to budget better. The extra bartending night on Sunday should help out though…. And then Puerto Rico in March… vahooooo!!!!!! Yah, I know… Sunday is supposedly dead. But in the heart of ( Read more... )

I like today… regardless how my bebz looks at it. All I have to say to you is this … Muahz… I love you hun…. Happy B-day! Yah, I think I’m more excited than she is. I’m happy cause 22 years ago today someone up there decided to give me a soulmate… someone who’ll give me reason to smile and a reason to want to get up in the morning (cause we all ( Read more... )

Hey.. well, it's me.. in the flesh... or rather the text... 4:12 in da morning... haven't been able to sleep. I had a really bad dream this Saturday afternoon... yeh... I napped... I do that every so often. Actually my bebz and me napped... hehehe... what a wonderful way to spend a Saturday afternoon eh? Wish I could sleep now... I dunno what I'm ( Read more... )

Tuesday... thank god it's a new day Lord knows my weekend sucked. Well.. it started off okayz, but it just ended really badly. Last night really wasn't that much better either, but hey,... that's life right. Apparently I've been under a lot of stress lately... emotional stress. I finally realized that after receiving some very sharp pains in my ( Read more... )

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Wednesday today... wow.. I know it's been a while since I've posted. Hey... let's face it... I haven't really been in the best of moods to post. Still think about my kid from time to time.. still hurts, but liek I've said before... you need time to heal... course that doesn't mean it won't leave a really bad scar. In the past month I've pretty much ( Read more... )

hun. haha i took over and changed ur page to some "nice" colors for you. no need to thank me. puahahhahha.

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I'm accepting the fact that I'm not going be Father... I'm accepting the fact that our child is dead... but I just can't ccept the fact that we live in a world that allows so much pain. I was once told that as a man I shouldn't ever cry over something regardless of how painful it is... sorry dad, but you've never lost a child before. And in order ( Read more... )

Hate, Anger, Fear, Denial, Frustration Great sadness...Pain... without a doubt the worst day in my entire Life. I look up into heavens and wonder... why? Why couldn't it have been me? How could u do this? No one answers... how could someone hand you the greatest thing you could ever fight for and take it away? For the very first time in my life I ( Read more... )

Tuesday... wahoo... (hey... it's better than Monday). I get to see the Misses today... hehehe. Hmmm... I noticed how parents are always calling each other "Mommy" and "Daddy". I always thought it was so weird, but now I think I can relate... starting to at least. I got her the "What to expect when You're expecting book already... we already read up ( Read more... )