Your comments always seem to make me cry. I tell myself a lot of things and they never really work; maybe it's because deep down I don't want them to work in a way. Things did get weird between us. We had a good friendship and I never doubted it. Sure you broke my trust, but it was so little that it could have been overlooked. I mean everyone I've befriend online with the exception of two or three people have betrayed my trust. I guess it's the game called Life. He has no reason to bitch at you and I'm praying that he doesn't. It isn't his battle to fight or to mend, it's mine. I know you've always wanted to see me happy and that's the thing I loved and still love about you. And in return all I ever wanted was to see you happy and to just pick up on the happiness from your posts. I've missed a great deal of stuff going on between you and your person, but from the looks of it, they're going well. Or at least I hope. I'm not sure if our friendship will ever be like it was, because 95% of the time it never works out that way. But I do
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They don't make me cry in a bad way. Your comments have a way of making me think and when I start to think I cry because what you're saying is true or what I'm thinking is or isn't. Slowly by sure we'll get back into each other's life. I want that to happen. We connected like wonders when we'd talk and talk and talk. Now it's like I don't have a clue as to what's going on even if I read your posts. It's funny because you're right. I don't want to stop caring for him. I don't want to stop loving him. And I don't want him to stop loving and caring for me. Lately it seems like saying I don't care is easier than saying I do care, for the shear fact it doesn't hurt as much. I don't think I'll ever understand why loving someone hurts as much as it does. Or why after a certain period of time why you feel like the other person never loved you to begin with. This all could be due to my sickness (strep throat or whatever it is they think I have), but I doubt it. I get this way sometimes and it scares me y'know?. I remember you would always talk
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it has been nice outside. i hope that it continues.
-hugs- i hope things get better. i do.
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thank you dear
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love the picture too, by the way.
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