so here is the plan ( Read more... )

today is day 12 of being off of speed. i am very proud that i have done it for this long. i am planning on stopping for good. 12 days may not seem like a lot but it is when you did it as much as i did ( Read more... )

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- They are seperated by space ( Read more... )

two nights ago my dad told me he was going into surgery. i was so scared hearing this, i mean right after he told me he told me to look in a desk door, inside was a copy of his will. i was like wtf, y are you showing me this, i kept asking how bad it was and he said that it wasnt that bad, but i didnt believe him. he knows i will worry too much. he ( Read more... )

i thought it was going to be different.

i finally hung out with my valentine yesterday, and i was so much fun. all of yesterday was great. we talked on the phone for most of the day. then we went to barnes and noble and read childrens books. then we saw the amittyvile horror. it was ok. we talked during it so it made it better. i luh her. she is always on my mind and we always have the ( Read more... )

the funeral was this morning.
i have never cried so much for someone in my entire life.
i feel alone.
they want me to be strong for my dad.
to be his crutch.
we can barely hold ourselves.

she passed away today.

i have not been on this thing in a while, so much shit has been happening. first, my band has played a couple of shows and we have been getting great feedback from people. they actually love our music, it is such a great feeling. peter and i have been putting a lot of time into the band, and it is all worth it. all of my heart is going into it and ( Read more... )