I can't the shit anymore. I can't stand not knowing what Ray and I are, and freaking out and thinking that he may be doing something that I think is stupid. I want to talk to him and its says the he is online, but Away and he didn't say anything when I said hey, and then I call him because I want to talk to him and he doesn't pick up his damn ( Read more... )

Well shit is still pretty fucking crazy. Ray and I talk, but I don't know what is going on. I don't know how to do anything anymore. I can't fucking think and when I do my mind goes a thousand miles an hour and I can't get it to stop. Thinking is fucking bad for me anymore. Blah...not a good day.

1. I did something really fucking stupid ( Read more... )

So last night I was really upset because I didn't think that Ray was going to call since we said we were going to take a break for a week. I do really good about being on a break until about 11:30 at night. I guess thats around the time Ray calls every night and I started to get said and then around 11:50 I started to cry and felt like a total ( Read more... )

15 Years Ago, I ( Read more... )

So I went home last week, and just came back to school today. I would have stayed home all weekend too, but I have to work. I guess I just don't feel good, and its a crappy fucking week anyway. Ray and I are fighting, and its kind out of my control. We both have a ton of shit going on. He's job isn't looking so good and I know he is stressed ( Read more... )

So its been what over a week since I wrote anything. My job is going really well, and I don't hate it *I want to say yet but don't know if I should*. Ray and I seem to be where we all ways are...about half in the middle and unable to make heads or tails of anything. School is just...well I guess its just school ( Read more... )

So Ray was here today, and I don't know if it is a good thing or not.  I mean I miss him so much, but at the same time when he comes up here it just makes me want to go home worse than I all ready did.  I thought things would be better when I got a job, but it didn't help.  The only thing that really happens is I'm too damn sleepy to want to drive ( Read more... )

So Mallory and Laura have been fighting (well not even fighting just not talking) since before school started.  This wouldn't really be an issue, but they kind of live together.  Well Laura finally went and talked to the RA about it, and the RA went to talk to Mallory.  She told Mal to tell Laura how she feels to try and get everything out in the ( Read more... )

I went to class and that was about it today.  I didn't go to me 1st class and I didn't do most of my homework.  I hate school and I have no idea what the fuck to do, but oh well.