i didnt sleep. again ( Read more... )

i hate not knowing things

wow today kind of sucked.
i woke up at 6pm and felt like killing everyone.
so i went online
bitched some people out
sat around
bitched my mom out
made her cry
felt horrible
didnt do anything
sat around
made myself cry
spoke in fragments
made someone worry
talked on the phone
made things better
twice
apologized
three times

different day better mood

i'm sad

Blondechick1314 (5:21:55 PM): john used to come over in the mornings before school
Blondechick1314 (5:22:57 PM): and my mom is always naked in the morning and she didnt know he was here (this happened when i was in shlumber of course) so she walked out of her room naked and he saw her

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HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAA

this is no ( sleep )

i'm cleaning. my closet looks so fucking rad. i just want to..live in it. and yeah. i just typed 'so fucking rad'.
but seriously. it does.

so i made a new layout. thing ( Read more... )

http://www.eastbayri.com/story/16404641026939.php

someone even managed to spell my name wrong in an obituary.
haha

it's just not the same when you wake up in the morning with a smile on your face and you know you lied yourself to sleep. he said it takes more then sharp eyes, it takes more than steady hands and it take more than cool nerves; it takes luck, pure dumb luck. the kind of luck that wins lotteries and the kind of luck that walks away from plane ( Read more... )