what now?

[fotosax]

I really realize now... how much gambling is related to my moods and emotions. It was such an emotionally hard week for me -- and come Friday, I made a really big gambling fuck-up.

I called out of work Saturday. I felt awful. I called out of work again today. I just can't face life right now.  It's just everything.

I just spent about an hour and a

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[prkswllflwr]

oh lila. i'm sorry i've been sick! i feel horrible about not being able to hang out...that bit about the nutz shop made me want to cry, too. but i think that would make me more congested!

*big hugs*

[fotosax]

i think my replies to you get eaten sometimes... i swear i replied to this a week ago. anyway, thank you for the hugs. hope you're feeling better?

when can we hang out?! i miss ya'lls.

[umarisa]

The last two paragraphs in this post make me so hopeful, because I can see how much you've grown and how self-aware you are and how willing you are to accept things and make changes and AAAH it's so great. Am I weird for saying that? Probably.

Ben and John on August 8. Don't forget. You might have to leave work a little bit early that day. :D